A medical update of sorts

[Jasdero]

I made a thread here a month or so ago with a few details of my medical condition. Well, there have been a lot of changes in conditions and possible results. I'm making this thread because I really have become mentally and physically exhausted and I'm so fustrated with my health. ToT/

I've had sharp chest pains that come with a difficulty to breathe on a daily basis for the past 3 or 4 years. There were painful, but still tolerable. I didn't have to alter my way of living because of them. In the last 4 or so months, though, they've become unbearable. They were more sudden, and I had occasional periods of time when I couldn't see well because of how my gasping for air would bring these red dots to appear in front of my eyes. But, since they were only appearing in the evenings, or when I was very distressed, I kept it quiet from friends and family so that they wouldn't worry. However, in the past two months they've been much more frequent and I wasn't able to hide them any longer. My mother immediately took me to a doctor who tested my blood, preformed an EKG, and a few other tests. They found that my blood pressure was abnormally low and decided that those particular problems (chest pains/breathing) were because of stress from a variety of factors.

Now, in the last month, it hasn't lessened at all. In fact, it just continuously gets worse. My doctors all say that it's not very likely I'll ever completely recover. Also that because of my delicate health, if I were to catch a strong virus, my body might not be able to fight it off. All of them attest my current condition to be due to a heavy amount of stress, and so, they've referred me to counselor in hopes that he'll be able to help me pull out of this emotional mess. It hasn't really improved anything much, yet, but I'm hoping it does. I had to go to the hospital last Monday evening because of some very high emotional stress that flared up and made breathing almost impossible for a time. I really want this all to pass. ToT I don't want any more doctors and emergency visits.

Meanwhile, I have to just adjust to as much as I can. Whenever I go out, there is never a time when I'm not accompanied by someone else. There's always an arm around my shoulders or waist in case I were to collapse. I have indeed "passed out" in public. >__< It's so incredibly embarassing and I can't help but feel like I'm draining all my friends and family when they have to take care of me so much. I become very pale at times, which drives them all to a worried frenzy because it's usually been a sign of a possible collapsing period. I'm very grateful and love them all so dearly for their concern and care, but I'm also irritated with myself for not being able to walk on my own without worry. Yet, I don't know what I would do without them. 5 of my dearest friends flew over Thursday evening for a planned weeklong visit (they're considering extending it) and they've been such a great support group. They'll be reading this in a few minutes and I just wanted them to know how much I appreciate and love them. ^O^/ I give my thanks to all my friends, really. Whether you're someone I've met online or in-person. ^__^ You all rock. I appreciate any and all prayers you can give. I just want this to go away... I'm become so weary of it. The pain isn't so bothering as much as having the pain, if that makes any sense. >o</ So that would be all. Thanks to all who read this. <3

[Mr. SmartyPants]

you are in my prayers Sunako, and always have hope ^^

[Roy Mustang]

I will be praying for you.

Gives you a hug.

Wingzero22

[Joshua Christopher]

I will be praying for you. You have to get better, and I pray that it be God's will.
Life can be hard at times, but all of us love and care about you, and most importantly, Jesus does as well.

Love in Christ,
Joshua Christopher.

[Mr. Rogers]

Will be praying for you katherine T__T

[Elric_kun]

i'll be praying. hope you get better soon~

[Rogie]

I'm praying for you, and I hope you get better soon. Keep a positive attitude!

[Mangafanatic]

Poor Sunako! I will pray for you. Infact, your name is written on the back of my hand in pen. . . meaning I'll remember.

[White Raven]

I'm praying for you.

[Jasdero]

Thanks everyone! <3

Poor Sunako! I will pray for you. Infact, your name is written on the back of my hand in pen. . . meaning I'll remember.

XDD Right on. *__*;;; The honor.

[Jasdero]

I don't like bumping threads, but there's no reason to create a new one. My chest pains have been bad this week, so I just wanted to ask for a continuation of prayer. It's always really nice to know that there are people who are praying for your recovery and well-being. ^__^

[Mr. SmartyPants]

your still in my prayers nuunah

[Jasdero]

your still in my prayers nuunah

\^O^/ *glomps Tokki* Thank you~!

[Azier the Swordsman]

God can do anything. I'll be praying for you.