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Postby Okami » Mon Dec 17, 2007 8:13 am

I was a day clean and then fell again to M this morning >.< But I actually fought with myself again this time...because God's been teaching me a lot about pride lately. If only I had the words, I would share...I'll work on that :)

My goal now, is to try and make it to January without. It may or may not happen, but I've got to count on Him to see me through.
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Postby Blitzkrieg1701 » Mon Dec 17, 2007 7:52 pm

The fight drags on...

Father, I bring myself and everyone else here before You to ask for help, to ask for strength, and to look for guidance, but more than that we come before You in thanks. Thank You, Lord, that no matter how painful and terrible these sinful thoughts and deeds we now struggle with may be, they can never separate us from You. I thank You that You knew of each and every way we would fall short before we were even born, and were STILL to offer us salvation. I thank You that, even as we struggle with these things, Your Son has already paid their cost and broken their claim on us. Even though we may feel so frusterated and even trapped right now, I thank You that we can not only come before You, but that we can do so in the spirit of victory and freedom that You have freely given us. Therefore, it is in that spirit that I lift up to You every one of Your children who has posted here. Please, Father, help us as we seek to live lives that are pleasing to You. My our bodies and even our minds be kept clean as temples dedicated to You. Please, give us strength to resist these temptations, wisdom to flee from where they might ambush us, and faith to trust that Your will really is more desierable than the brief feeding of these desires.
I pray in the name of our savior Jesus Christ, amen.
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Postby Adie » Mon Dec 17, 2007 11:51 pm

I haven't posted here in a while, but I wanted to let you know that I'm still praying for you all.
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Postby Kura Ookami » Tue Dec 18, 2007 10:10 am

I'm not struggling with lust at the moment, but i could use some prayer to help keep me away from hentai. The only issue ive got right now with it is I've downloaded a hentai: Bible Black New Testament and it's siitting there on my hard drive. I want to delete it but i'm afraid that if i try ill just watch it instead. That has happened in the past. I want to honour God with my life and in all that i do. Downloading the hentai obviously was a mistake, but i did it in a moment of weakness.
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Postby Aleolus » Tue Dec 18, 2007 1:55 pm

How long ago did you download them? If you did it recently (recently being since your most recent descision to honor God), then why did you do it in the first place? If it was longer than that ago, I wonder why you never got around to watching them.
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Postby Okami » Tue Dec 18, 2007 2:31 pm

Wow. Not a day later and I've already fallen. But today's experience wasn't like before...there was no aftershock release, no shame, no guilt, no pleasure, no nothing. It didn't do anything for me. It left me extremely confused.

Empty, meaningless, and futile. That's all it was.
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Postby Kura Ookami » Tue Dec 18, 2007 5:25 pm

A week maybe two weeks ago. I then decided i wanted my life to honour God because i felt bad about having downloaded a hentai. I decided to download it because it was the hentai that got me into hentai in the first place. It begins with a biblical verse. Exodus 20 "Thou shalt not permit a witch to live." What other hentai has any christian elements in it?

That's my excuse. "It can't be bad because it has christian elements in it." I know that's not true, but I've been able to with Gods help avoid it at least. I've been able to keep myself busy with other things thank God.
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Postby Blitzkrieg1701 » Tue Dec 18, 2007 7:42 pm

While it's definately a good idea to avoid a source of weakness, you really shouldn't leave that object of temptation in easy reach TOO long. Knowing the possibility is there can really mess with your resolve.

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Postby Okami » Thu Dec 20, 2007 1:26 pm

Today's what, Day 2 for me? I've been fighting really hard...but I've really been praying and journalling out my thoughts regarding M. Especially in my Science class, as everyone speaks in a vulgarous, slanderous, lustful way (EVERYONE who sits around me! D: )

Like, for example, if the girl behind me gets mad she'll turn to the person who upset her and yell "Kiss my dick!" And the boy who usually provokes her in this way does the opposite back....He did it in a different manner today, and the word he used....Never have I triggered so hard from a single word. Never.

That word....sure, it's just a body part, just a part of the makeup of the female genitalia...but man, that was so, so hard, to sit there and NOT think of it/M and then journal how I feel and why I feel that way and then focus on God and how much higher He is...

God keep me strong. :(
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Postby Sheenar » Fri Dec 21, 2007 2:27 pm

I've realized more and more that the momentary pleasure of M (or any other sin for that matter) just isn't worth it. I hate the struggle. I hate the sin. I want it to die in me. I just want to serve Christ rather than myself.
I had a really hard time resisting the temptation to M after my friend's langerie shower. A lot of the conversation was about sex. Praise God I didn't though. But it was dang hard.
I'll be praying for you guys. I'm in the struggle right with y'all.
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Postby Htom Sirveaux » Fri Dec 21, 2007 4:39 pm

I haven't posted here in quite some time either. Suffice to say I'm still not where I wanna be, kinda back and forth. It's made me feel hypocritical and generally unworthy of showing my face here.
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Postby Blitzkrieg1701 » Fri Dec 21, 2007 9:14 pm

I know EXACTLY what you mean. That's a big part of why I haven't been around as much as usual. Thinking "Man, I can't go there/talk to them until I get this straightened out." In it's own, warped way, that kind of thinking actually can feel kind of spiritual, like we're making sure we don't get any less than what we deserve. But the thing is, that couldn't be farther from what God would have us feel. He's all about forgiveness and release from pain, not bringing about more of it. Yes, it can be freaking painful to be honest about how we've stumbled, but the alternative of balling up and stewing over it on our own isn't exactly better. That's what I'm struggling to learn right now. Satan knows that just about any kind of fellowship with other followers of Christ will punch holes in his assault, that's why he tries so hard to cut us off from each other. The more we isolate ourselves from the very means God would minister to us, the more room Satan has to let temptation fester.

In that spirit, I gotta say that I'm still struggling pretty bad. At one moment I can be honestly hungering after God and wanting to honor Him and all that, then just hours later it's nothing but apathy and caving in. I don't really know what to do anymore. Well, no. I know exactly what to do because I know I can't really do anything about it on my own. But when I'm on a low ebb emotionally (which is happening every day right now), I just cannot make myself care enough to call out for help. I don't know... that's just where I'm at right now, and the rapid up & downs are getting really tiring. So please don't stop praying, guys.
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Postby Kura Ookami » Sat Dec 22, 2007 2:18 am

I've ended up watching the hentai. After that i asked God for the strength i needed to delete it and He gave me that strength. I've realized that a big reason why i M is because i'm feeling empty and M provides a distraction from that feeling.
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Postby Okami » Sat Dec 22, 2007 7:42 am

Just remember everyone, God called me to make these threads (Depression/Lust) so we could talk of our struggles, help eachother overcome, and grow closer to Him with fellowship with one another. We're in this together. There is no condemnation, embaressment, or shame, as much as Satan would have us think. Because we've all been there, wherever 'there' may be, we understand in ways others wouldn't.

Stay strong, my friends. I know it's hard. I know I'm not the powerful encourager and prayer person I used to be, but I still want to use what I have left to God's glory. Let us not stifle God's Holy Spirit!

It's now been 4 days without M, my longest without in a while...
So that makes me 6 months P/4 days M/20 days SI

With God, we can, and we will, overcome.
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Postby HiddenWoodchuck » Sat Dec 22, 2007 9:31 pm

... these days, it is becoming much harder to keep away from lust for me... so much harder to get away from this, than it has been to get away from depression. I know just how hypocritical it can make you feel. I have read all the stories... heard the sermons at Church... seen first hand at how much it really takes control and becomes such a habitual sin. The feeling before and after... the "this is the last time... no more... no more, I will quit" like a drug.

I think the more times I think about this one relationship, from the past, that didn't work out... I get more into wanting to... lust. I get upset, then I distract myself... I pity myself and I then hate myself. God is the only reason I have been able to have any control over it, but I can't understand why I am so stupid... I let myself embrace those disgusting thoughts and allow myself to do... it. Selfish... idiotic and shameful.... so easy to do, yet, the pain of knowing that God is seeing each thought and act. I just want to be free of it. I can only try harder and find something good to do when I am thinking I may stumble... my trust in God has to be full force, or I WILL mess up on my own.
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Postby Blitzkrieg1701 » Sun Dec 23, 2007 10:03 am

Kura Ookami wrote: I've realized that a big reason why i M is because i'm feeling empty and M provides a distraction from that feeling.


HiddenWoodchuck wrote:I think the more times I think about this one relationship, from the past, that didn't work out... I get more into wanting to... lust. I get upset, then I distract myself... I pity myself and I then hate myself. God is the only reason I have been able to have any control over it, but I can't understand why I am so stupid... I let myself embrace those disgusting thoughts and allow myself to do... it. Selfish... idiotic and shameful.... so easy to do, yet, the pain of knowing that God is seeing each thought and act. I just want to be free of it. I can only try harder and find something good to do when I am thinking I may stumble... my trust in God has to be full force, or I WILL mess up on my own.


Indeed. The thing I keep having to realize over and over again is that, really, the lust itself is only one part of the problem. We've each got our own mess of other things that bring us to that point and keep us from getting back. Me, I've got my whole thing with feeling sorry for myself and staying isolated from everything. Aside from shutting out the spiritual support God would provide, which leaves me wide open right there, having nothing else to do and no one to feel accountable to leaves a great big vaccum in my life where old habits can reintroduce themselves.
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Postby Okami » Sun Dec 23, 2007 4:17 pm

Day 0.

But I swear on my life it wasn't lustful. I consulted the Spirit beforehand because I was in extreme discomfort...


I've been questioning it a lot lately. How it may or may not be sin depending on circumstances and how it's not mentioned in the Bible, and how certain verses have been used as defense against it, but they are misused...
And. Ugh. I'm just confused.
The Lord's giving me answers, but not in any way I would expect, and that's why I'm continuing to question...I'm just trying to avoid doubt, since what I'm hearing seems contradictory to what I know. Which is why I don't want to automatically bring the issues up here....

It's just...weird. And I honestly just don't know anymore. All of my views these days seem, well, contradictory, even when I don't mean them to be.

I don't get it, it's just so weird to be taught one thing and then learn another. Like you just can't disregard what you've grown up knowing, right? But which one is truth, well, that's what I'd like to know. Pray that God would lift the veil on these issues for me, okay?
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Postby HiddenWoodchuck » Sun Dec 23, 2007 10:55 pm

I will pray for you :) I am on "day 0" too, so I am at struggle myself... but my view on the M without lusting is: God commands us to not be slaves to our flesh... and M promotes gratification at an instant, a fleshly act that is giving us release "for now" with God having nothing to do with it, when He is who we are to look to for comfort. M is a counterfeit substitute for Love as I have heard someone say before.

But I discipline my body and make it my slave, so that, after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified.
I Corinthians 9:27

Here is a quote I have copied to a wordpad file. I saved it so I could read it again, though I don't remember where it come from.

"No matter how successfully one reduces "M" to a clinical and mechanical act, it significantly impacts our sexuality.

Irrespective of what extremes one goes to in modifying one's technique and one's thought life to drain the act of sexual overtones, "m" is still the stimulation of sexually responsive parts of the body. It is not like waste elimination or satisfying hunger, because it meets no bodily need. Moreover, it results in sensual feelings and bodily reactions virtually indistinguishable from those resulting from heterosexual relations.

Is "m" a neutral activity rendered sexual or non-sexual according to what our thoughts focus on? Only if sexual intercourse is rendered non-sexual with no moral implications by thinking of mathematics while having intercourse."

Well... that is what I think anyway. I don't want to come off like a know it all, because I am struggling hard. I wouldn't want to appear as "righteous woodchuck" even if I wasn't struggling with this sin. I just believe in my heart that you can overcome it, you don't need M and you don't need M "without lust" either. The biggest problem is guilt... and I look to another quote that writes it out better than I could, but shows what I mean.

"That guilt has the potential to do considerable psychological and spiritual damage. Boys and girls who labor under divine condemnation can gradually become convinced that even God couldn’t love them. They promise a thousand times with great sincerity never again to commit this “despicable” act. Then a week or two passes, or perhaps several months.

Eventually, the hormonal pressure accumulates until nearly every waking moment reverberates with sexual desire. Finally, in a moment (and I do mean a moment) of weakness, it happens again. What then, dear friend? Tell me what a young person says to God after he or she has just broken the one thousandth solemn promise to Him? I am convinced that some teenagers have thrown over their faith because of their inability to please God on this point."

"As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins, in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient. All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our sinful nature and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature objects of wrath. But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions-it is by grace you have been saved."

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I'm praying, and I know your confusion can be cleared up. I get confused so much, but God always sets me right. I can't begin to say how much He has taught me over the last few years, but I can see changes in how I feel and I have been able to overcome many struggles through Christ... now I am here, along with all of you, at struggle with "M". I know there is a way to break the addiction, I just know it can be done.
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Postby Blitzkrieg1701 » Mon Dec 24, 2007 9:35 am

Wow. Well said (or well pasted ;) )
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Postby Mr. SmartyPants » Mon Dec 24, 2007 12:54 pm

SnEptUne wrote:On the other hand, porno or hentai is never an issue for me because I just find it distasteful and dirty, but Mathematics is a problem because it turns me on occasionally. And I plan to use it as motivator until school is over.


I apologize, but I don't quite understand this. Could you possibly elaborate a bit?
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Postby Aleolus » Mon Dec 24, 2007 1:52 pm

I would like to repeat his question, how are mathematics an issue regarding sexuality and lust?
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Postby Htom Sirveaux » Mon Dec 24, 2007 6:10 pm

Given that his post is no longer visible, I'm guessing he was just a troll.
Anyway, I'll try to once again be active in this thread. It seems to help me in resisting those old urges. Fancy that, eh?
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Postby Aleolus » Mon Dec 24, 2007 10:00 pm

Bottom of page 8. Whether he was a troll or not, I can't say, but his post is still visible.
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Postby K. Ayato » Mon Dec 24, 2007 10:24 pm

Neptune's not a troll. But yeah, that is an unusual statement.

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Postby Okami » Tue Dec 25, 2007 9:10 am

Merry Christmas GLPT members <3

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Postby Blitzkrieg1701 » Tue Dec 25, 2007 10:06 pm

May God draw us all deeper, closer relationship with Him and grant us His strength in resisting temptation in the coming year.

SpoonyBard wrote:Given that his post is no longer visible, I'm guessing he was just a troll.
Anyway, I'll try to once again be active in this thread. It seems to help me in resisting those old urges. Fancy that, eh?


Funny how that works, idn't it?
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Postby Sheenar » Wed Dec 26, 2007 8:03 am

I fell again on Christmas Eve. I feel so much like Paul in Romans 7 --that the good I want to do I do not do, but the bad I don't want to do is what I do. (only this time it was willfull --I knew it wasn't worth it and it's wrong, but I did it anyway). Please pray for me. I really want to conquer this sin.

Thankfully, we have Paul's response at the end of the chapter. "Who can save me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through our Lord Jesus Christ!" Christ can deliver us from the power of sin. (Though we won't be free from the presence of sin until we see Jesus--either His Second Coming or our deaths).

Going through the sanctification process is pretty painful. God tests you through fire to burn away things in your life that don't honor Him and that hurt us. That process is definitely happening with me. But I praise God for it.
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Postby Okami » Wed Dec 26, 2007 12:19 pm

After last night, and ever since Saturday when I began my steady backslide, now I suddenly feel no need for M. So weird. So very weird. I have no desire at all right now. No guilt. No shame. *scratches her head* God, help me uncover the mist and see the truth of my situation...

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Help me to remember this today and in the coming days...
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Postby K. Ayato » Wed Dec 26, 2007 12:59 pm

This might be an answer to your prayers, hon :).

Oh, and it's Proverbs, not Psalms. Just letting you know :P.
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Postby Kura Ookami » Wed Dec 26, 2007 1:07 pm

I'm on day 0, but I've just deleted several videos and pics from my computer. I'm beginning to think it's better to delete hentai pics and videos and fall to lust than it is to keep those hentai pics and vids and not fall I've got 13 GB of hentai pics to delete. I'm going to try to delete them all by the new year.
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Life is a test. It is only a test. Had this been real life you would have have been instructed where to go and what to do.

When i argue with reality I lose.....But only 100% of the time.

Once you've decided on a course of action, only you can finish it. As long as you remember that, there's nothing you can't accomplish.
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