hey everyone!
well for while as most of you know I thought god hated me and left me here to die. well for a while I got better(thanks to all your prayers!) and then I went down hill for a while again. I knew He could hear me and all but I didn't feel like He care at all and was laughing at me. almost every night I was crying and yelling at God in bed, and I thought He was listening but laughing. I thought He hated me and I did something wrong and He wasn't going to forgive me. and I couldn't think of anything that would be bad enough for Him to hate me. I only went to church to see my friends and watch my youth pastors be total idoits(in a good way), but I refused to listen and worship, and it made me cry to see others worshiping Him because they all knew He loved them.
well a about 2 weeks ago(I'm to lazy to post what happened back then..) I was crying in bed again and I yelled at God, "DO YOU EVEN HEAR ME CRY OUT TO YOU? DO YOU CARE ABOUT ME?!" and then right after I said that my bed shook and so did the walls in my room and I heard this sweet whisper in my ear,
"Yes". I never thought that would ever happen to me! And I'm so happy it did! GOD LOVE ME!!