I don't have a lot of time to post this since I have to be on a plane soon. But I realized today my mom's probably the cause of almost all of my problems. She's a complete hypocrite and completely self-centered. She raises you to be one way and then gets **** at you when you act the way she raised you to be. She raised me to like, make my own decisions, be able to do things myself and all that. I packed all my own clothes for this trip, because it's really cold where I'm going, and now she's **** at me because she thinks my clothes aren't light enough. Everything you do is the wrong thing to do, and if anything at all doesn't go exactly the way she wants she gets **** at you and treats you badly and acts like you're the most aggravating thing ever, when all the problems are caused by her being a ***** and not being able to accept anyone else or anything besides what she wants. I guess just please pray for me because I realize now she probably caused all of my self-esteem problems and confusion in life, but she doesn't care about anyone else so I'll never be able to talk to her about things and clear them up and fix them, so I just have to deal with this until I leave home. Please pray for God to help me or something because right now I'd kill myself to get out of this house, and I don't think I'm going to go through with it, but it sounds so much better than dealing with her anymore.
Just she makes literally everything so much more difficult than any of it has to be, and then she gets **** at everyone else and blames everyone else, when everything she's **** about is her fault.