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Postby mysngoeshere56 » Mon Jun 30, 2008 11:19 pm

All right, so, it's me again....

I'm not having a good day today. I feel more lonely than ever and I just wish that I wasn't here. I don't want my life anymore... I'm so tired of everything... I need a hug. :(

*sigh* It's kind of hard to explain. Sorry I'm even typing this out, but right now, I feel like if I just wasn't here, it'd be one less sad person everybody would have to deal with.

:hug: <-- I wish I could feel like this for once.

:bootout: <-- Instead of like that.... But that feels like it happens to me everywhere. I feel like I'm just an outcast. Forgotten. Cold. Lonely.

I just wish that my family didn't have so many rude people, that I wasn't treated so badly, that I wasn't left out, that my grandma was still alive, that I didn't have to hear so many negative things about myself... Honestly I wish I could just move away from here and start fresh, but I would miss the few people that treated me well.

...Somebody please give me a virtual hug? :sniffle:
-Sno
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Postby Tsukuyomi » Tue Jul 01, 2008 12:11 am

Awwwwww, and I wasn't much help with disappearing in the chat :(

I'll pray for you, so that you feel better :hug:
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Postby Jingo Jaden » Tue Jul 01, 2008 12:25 am

In my prayers. :hug:
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Postby beau99 » Tue Jul 01, 2008 12:41 am

While I can't say that I've experienced everything you describe, I can say I know how it feels to be lonely and just wanting out.

mysngoeshere56 (post: 1240640) wrote:...Somebody please give me a virtual hug? :sniffle:


:hug:

There ya go :)
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Postby mysngoeshere56 » Tue Jul 01, 2008 1:04 am

Thanks guys (and girl).

And thanks for the virtual hugs.
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Postby Prince Asbel » Tue Jul 01, 2008 5:52 am

:hug: There. Hope you're feeling better.
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Postby NekoChan_C » Tue Jul 01, 2008 6:45 am

Sweetie, I've been there, and it's not fun. I don't ever wanna go back and I want you away from there too... You are in my prayers, in my thoughts, and I'm sending you as many hugs as I can...

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Postby rocklobster » Tue Jul 01, 2008 7:08 am

*quietly gives a virtual hug*
I've been there, too, buddy. I spent a lot of time in special education classes, which more often than not causes others to ridicule you. I often felt I had no real friends, especially in junior high.
But put this into perspective: If you kill yourself, you never get a chance to find out if your life is going to get better.
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Postby Sheenar » Tue Jul 01, 2008 7:36 am

I'm sorry that you are feeling this way, friend. I have been there, and it's not fun...
But remember that God has a plan for your life and even if everyone else leaves you, He never will. Sometimes God gives us these times of loneliness so we learn to depend completely on Him and find our worth in Him and not in other people and what they think.
This is what God has been teaching me lately. I pray that you lean on Him and find your strength in Him. Things will not be like this forever --but for now, wait and pray and grow in your walk --maybe God is teaching you something in this.

*hugs* Hang in there and don't give up. It's not hopeless --because you have Christ, you have hope. Nothing is impossible with God.
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Postby ChristianKitsune » Tue Jul 01, 2008 8:39 am

Aww i know exactly what you are going through...
And I gotta tell you, no matter what. GOD IS THERE. He never sleeps....so you can always go to him.

*huggles* Just love your family as best you can, even if they are rude. I deal with a rude sister that makes my life really stressful...but sometimes you just gotta step back and give it to God.

We're here for ya!

*hugs again*

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Postby AsianBlossom » Tue Jul 01, 2008 11:32 am

*virtual hugs* I'll pray for you too. ^_^
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Postby Hana Ryuuzaki » Tue Jul 01, 2008 11:46 am

[font="palatino Linotype"]*hugs tightly*

I know how that feels, honestly.
I'm going through that also, but we can always pray for the better.
Like I will for you.

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Postby 12praiseGOD » Tue Jul 01, 2008 11:46 am

Definetly praying! Keep up hope, you are definetly not a burden...
*sneakily looks at you then runs at a super blast speed and glomps(hugs)*
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CHEAR UP! :grin:
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Postby Gabriel 9.0 » Wed Jul 02, 2008 12:32 am

You sound like me a few days ago, I'll be praying , don't despair the Lord will always be with you and shall never abandon you:).

*Hugs*

God Bless you and may the Lord bring you great happiness:).
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A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.
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1Let us therefore fear, lest, a promise being left us of entering into his rest, any of you should seem to come short of it.
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Postby mysngoeshere56 » Wed Jul 02, 2008 12:37 am

Thanks everybody.... *group hug that includes everybody*

Today was better. It wasn't the most amazing day ever, but it was far from the worst day of my life. A few things happened that really brightened up my day.
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Postby Yuen Fei Lung » Wed Jul 02, 2008 9:10 am

*major hugs* You're in my prayers, my friend. May God bless you and pour out his grace. We all go through rough times and have bad days.
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Postby ADXC » Wed Jul 02, 2008 2:03 pm

Oh Im sorry buddy. *Gives virtual hug* Ive been there too. I remember where there were times I'd get so sad that I thought about suicide a time or two(Well I thought, but never really did anything.). Most everybody ignores me and they don't want to speak to me(Because Im on the ugly side. And I don't really have any friends.)And it's embarrassing and sad when people talk down on you. I hated it too. But God is there for you. He knows what's going to happen to you. He put those people in your life for a reason. Maybe to shape the person who you will one day become and be the man that God wants you to be. It's tough, I know. But you just have to keep on truckin' and prove satan wrong(Satan wants you to give in and go down a horrible path.) That you can become more than you are now and be a man of God. I know you will do that, buddy. I'll be praying.
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Postby Steakface » Wed Jul 02, 2008 3:25 pm

Over the past year I had been feeling the same way you had. I didn't really fit in with the world because my loyalties lied with God yet, I had to much of the world in me to fit in with Christians (or my family who are mainly Christian). This constantly aggravated me and it almost got to the point where I just wanted to end it all but instead I just told God everything that was wrong and in doing so I felt relieved.

Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall.(Psalms 55:22)

I bet that once you get through this God will give you plenty of people that you'll fit in, with just hold on. I'm praying for you too...

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Postby Popsicle » Wed Jul 02, 2008 4:06 pm

Everyone has pretty much said all of what I was going to say. Just know that God is always there for you and look for what God is doing in your life right now. I'll will be praying!

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Postby fairyprincess90 » Wed Jul 02, 2008 9:22 pm

i'm going throught practically the same thing. even with the grandmom and everything. my dad just called me a cheap whore the other day and that really hurt my feelings. my mom thinks i do wrong all the time and my parents are constantly yelling at me and pushing me away. i've lost all my friends but my boyfriend....and so i know what it's like. i've attempted suicide many times...and i still struggle with depression and cutting =[ it's hard but you can make it through.

i just feel bad that i can't do much more than say...i know what it's like. i know that doesn't help you any =[

here's a virtual hug ::huggles:: (that's how i hug online =] )
i hope and pray you feel better.
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Postby 12praiseGOD » Thu Jul 03, 2008 11:52 am

Still praying for ya!
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Postby initialdfreak » Thu Jul 03, 2008 12:39 pm

I have been there I struggle daily with depression and its still an ongoing struggle so I cant say that i have conquered it but I certainly know what you are feeling. You feel like you are all alone and that noone understands. But, i honestly believe that those thoughts come from the Devil we comust combat them with those Jesus revealed in the Gospels. We must find our identity in God and him alone, everything else will let us down and bring us back to the bottom. I struggle with lust and desire and loneliness daily, so I dont feel like I am the one that should be giving the advice here but I felt that I had to share my thoughts on this with you. In him alone..
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Postby mysngoeshere56 » Thu Jul 03, 2008 9:11 pm

Thanks everybody...

Well, my computer stopped working today, so I was panicking and almost hurt myself because I was so afraid of what would happen (I have a lot of important information on my computer/internet). Thankfully, a family friend was able to fix it so now it works even better.

Other than my computer mishap, today was a good day... I'm seeing my counselor on Wednesday too...
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Postby initialdfreak » Thu Jul 03, 2008 9:42 pm

A Psychologist really helped me, it might or might not help you but seeing one really did help me a lot. Im on medicine now and I am better now.
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Postby Steakface » Fri Jul 04, 2008 1:20 am

Good for you man...
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Postby Prince Asbel » Fri Jul 04, 2008 6:16 am

It's great to know you're getting help.
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Postby mysngoeshere56 » Wed Jul 09, 2008 3:00 pm

All right.... So after this meeting, we've come to the conclusion that apparently I'm going to a mental health center tommorow to determine whether or not this is clinical... :-/

Please pray.... I'm scared....
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Postby Tsukuyomi » Wed Jul 09, 2008 8:33 pm

I'm glad everything is working out for you, Sno ^^

You too, Initial D ^^
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Postby Steakface » Thu Jul 10, 2008 12:52 am

Don't worry about tomorrow man... just pray that God take of everything and have faith that he will.

Don't get me wrong though im still praying for you...
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Postby 12praiseGOD » Thu Jul 10, 2008 11:47 am

Definetly praying!
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