General Lust Prayer Thread (WARNING: Mature Content)

[Sheenar]

Well, God loves sinners. I mean, there's even a prostitute (Rahab) in the lineage of Jesus!
I feel that if Christians do not love sinners also, they are not in God's will. (Doesn't mean condone or not confront the sin, but loving the person themselves.)
You are precious in God's eyes. As God's people, we should reach out a hand to everyone no matter where they are or what they've done. That is how God shows His love for us. We should show that same love to others.

"Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. 8Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. 9This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son[b] into the world that we might live through him. 10This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for[c] our sins. 11Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. 12No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us.

13We know that we live in him and he in us, because he has given us of his Spirit. 14And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Savior of the world. 15If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in him and he in God. 16And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.
God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him. 17In this way, love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment, because in this world we are like him. 18There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

19We love because he first loved us. 20If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen. 21And he has given us this command: Whoever loves God must also love his brother." --1 John 4:7-21

[SolidÃ…rmor]

I hadn't read this thread till now, and even I have had problems in this category. I'm doing my best to turn my back on this part of my life and leave it where it belongs...in the trash. I hate when I have a break down and give in to this. I look in the mirror and I can't stand what I see looking back. I have made a promise to Christ to live a life that would lift Him to others...and here I am doing that which he says not to do.

It nearly broke my marriage, when someone came into my life that was only supposed to be a "friend". But, for some reason it took on a life of it's own. The next thing I knew was not being able to stop thinking about this person, because she would tempt me in a way that was meant for my wife. I am a pure example of "The flesh is weak"....and for some reason my wife stayed by my side. Through the P and this near affair..and I am doing my best to try to live a pure life. I only ask that you all that have this same problem to please pray for me.

I'm just surprised that it seems more gals have this problem. Be strong, you are all priceless in His eyes.

[Mr. SmartyPants]

maybe one day I will have the strength to tell my story..but I'm afraid to di it now...would prolly get kicked off CAA and all mygood friends on here would leave me in a heartbeat...

Rest assured, you will not get kicked out. I mean I have a friend that struggles with a certain area that's absolutely messed up. We, his true friends, still accept him and realize that it's something he's fighting.

Real friends don't leave their friends when they admit they have a problem. Remember that.

[Blitzkrieg1701]

To Jaden, Kunoichi, and Okami (and everybody else, not that I think about it): even if anyone here was actually inclined to get disappointed or angry with you over the mistakes you made in the past, they wouldn't have any authority to say anything. In our own various ways, we've all fallen just as short of God's standard.

This has been said before, but I think it can't be said enough: this guilt over the past that leads to self loathing is NOT of God. Yes, He does convict us when we make choices that lead us away from His will, but only for the purpose of leading us back. Satan is the one who wants us to ball up, hide away, and feel bad about ourselves.

Furthermore, even though guilt may constantly remind us about how we fail under our own power, we can still forget that it's not our strength that will conquer these temptations. The only thing we're actually called to do is surrender fully to the Lord. Yes, I know that's much easier to write than it is to actually live, and Lord knows I struggle with it every day myself, but it's still true. We don't need to fight temptation, we only need to bring ourselves to the place where we can let Him fight for us. We don't need to make it up to Him when we fail, we only need to submit ourselves so that we won't run again.

Having said all that, I need to explain that it's coming out of one of the wort weeks lust-wise I've gone through in a while. I've mentioned it before, but this has just been a BAD couple of days. I THINK it's starting to get better, but please keep praying for me. I'll certainly be praying for ya'll.

[Htom Sirveaux]

Remember how I said all my old P magazines and DVDs were bagged up, packed away waiting for the trash? Well . . . I must confess that I was weak. I kept missing trash days (I didn't want to leave it lying around out in the open any earlier than the night before), so it just kept sitting in my closet way longer than I would have wanted it to and eventually I caved, took it out for a while, put it back again. This happened a few times. An idea finally occurred to me late last week though. On a trip down to the store for milk, bread, and ramen (you know, the essentials) I put the stuff in my backpack and deposited it in the first public trash can I came to. Such a heavy burden has been lifted from my shoulders and it just feels good not to have to keep the stuff hidden anymore.

I can't go into exactly what it is...but if you guys would pray...I do not know even for what...but please just pray...maybe one day I will have the strength to tell my story..but I'm afraid to di it now...would prolly get kicked off CAA and all mygood friends on here would leave me in a heartbeat...

Forgive me God.

I will by no means press you, but my advice is to go ahead and tell your story, even if you can barely see the screen through your own tears (I speak from experience). Once you do that, it becomes much easier to talk about your problems in here. You begin to feel steadily less and less frightened and ashamed because you know you're among brothers and sisters who can identify with you, and will love and support you unconditionally.

[bakura_fan]

erm, I felt this was the best place to post this. But I need prayer. Since being seperated from my husband for nearly 3 months, I've been tempted to look up hentai and what not...probably cause I miss him...but I don't want to start. >_< it's just tough. I won't be with him again til almost the end of december. *sigh*

[K. Ayato]

I'll be praying, bakura_fan.

I agree with Bard, Kunoichi. Tell your story here when you feel comfortable. No one's going to force you, hon. Bard is correct when he says you'll feel more comfortable sharing your troubles here in the long run.

Also, if you're still concerned about what some of us may think when reading your story, you can always put "Warning: Mature Content Following" as the heading or first line of your post. One of the senior members did that and everything went fine afterwards.

[Aleolus]

Wow. I have had trouble with this ever since I hit puberty. If you all could have me in your hearts for strength, I would appreciate it. How difficult it is waxes and wanes, but it's been there for a very long time (almost as long as I can remember). It's even gotten to the point that I can be listening to a pastor on the radio and have pornographic thoughts running through my head at the same time! I need all the prayer I can get, please and thank you.

[K. Ayato]

Need prayer? You got it.

[Danderson]

I've fallen into a dilema. To make a long story short, I've been under a lot of stress recently (school and life) and when that happens it's very easy to get tempted and not run...Yesterday, didn't go so well with that, so, I'm trying to keep myself accountable by only having the comp. on when I need it....Please keep prayin.....

Know that I'm praying for all you guys....

[Okami]

See: http://www.christiananime.net/showpost.php?p=1173184&postcount=75

[minutz3]

Well, I'll try to make a prayer here;

In the name of The Father, The Son and The Holy Ghost, please forgive us for our Sins.
May Your Holy Spirit be with us during all times in our life.
May You help us fight the Sin, The Devil and all Evil.
Please Lord, think of us who are devoted to live like Jesus Christ, your Son that died for all our Sins, taught us.
Please Lord, strengthen us in all times of our life.

In the name of The Father, The Son and The Holy Ghost.

AMEN.

[Kunoichi]

I am lost...if I were God then I would not want me either.....


MATURE CONTENT BELOW:




I have not saved myself for marriage and am in a relationship that we are having sex as well....we are both Christians and love each other..maybe that is why we justify it...

ok let me start at the beginning...

i was in a relationship with an ex-fiancee..we were going to be married so I finally caved in and had sex with him...he raped me once...and didn't stop when I said so...

I eventually broke up with him and his emotional and physical abusive ways...

I met another man whom is a great person and a Christian, however we both still have sex...and like I said justify it by saying we love each other...is this wrong..I do not know...

I do not seem to know what right and wrong are anymore...my life is a tangled mess....Maybe it would be better if I were just to flee life..and embrace death instead....foolish talk but it is there...

There is much more to this..but I can not write it right now....I have only enough strength for this...

[K. Ayato]

Justifying your actions with your current boyfriend by saying "We're Christians and we really love each other" is an easy trap to fall into. Even though both of you are saved, that doesn't excuse you for doing what God established between a husband and a wife. I don't mean to be harsh, but what you're doing is wrong in His eyes, and you'll both need to work hard to get it to stop. I understand if you're struggling with it right now. Physical pleasure is hard to let go of (speaking from experience).

No matter what happens, remember that God has a purpose in your life, even if you can't see it in front of you. When thoughts of suicide flood your mind, pick up your Bible or find someone to talk to. All of us here care for you, hon, and we're all praying. *Hugs*

[Aleolus]

I am lost...if I were God then I would not want me either.....

*snip*

And remember, no matter what you've done, what you're thinking or feeling, God still loves you and wants you to come back to him.

[Blitzkrieg1701]

Well, first and foremost, I feel like I need to come clean with ya'll. Several times the past week or so I've asked for prayer concerning "struggles with lust." Not exactly a lie, but I only barely scratched the surface. Basically, I was up all night binging P for about 9 days straight. After those girl issues I mentioned in another thread, I just couldn't help it. She had been one of my main motivations for keeping lust under control, and with her out of the equation, I needed something to keep my mind (and, well, body) occupied. These past few days have been better because I've been to busy to waste time on such things, but that's only a temporary solution. Please keep on praying for me, guys.

But now that that's off my chest...

Father, I pray for Okami as I did in the Depression Thread. With all the attacks she come under so far, it's not hard to understand how this struggle has reaserted itself as well. Please, Lord, give her Your stength, so that she may see that these things have already been overcome, even though they feel so huge right now. What's more, though, please grant her peace through it all. Don't allow her to suffer any more from guilt that You have already borne on her behalf.

I also pray for Kunoichi, that You bring things onder control in her life. Lord, I can't even begin to comprehend many of the things she is dealing with, but I know that You were aware of them before even she was. Please, Father, grant her wisdom and assurance of Your will in dealing with those things in her life that she actually has control over, and I just pray that You will act in those things that only You can control.

I pray for Danderson, knowing full well how emotional turmoil can make these struggles seem all the more difficult. I pray that You will make things less stressful for him in general, and that You would grant him strength and focus in dealing with these tempations.

I pray too for bakura_fan. She's has so many struggles of her own presenting themselves already, I pray that you will not allow the enemy to assault her with this as well. Please Lord, in this and in everything else as well, please give her peace and protect her from attack.

I pray for Aleolus. I know what it's like to have these sorts of thoughts engrained so deeply into my memory that there seems to be no escaping them. Please, Father, grant him relief and victory in this long struggle.

And, once again, I pray for myself and this seemingly endless fight. Please, Father, You know even better than I do how confused and frusterated I've been over all this. I don't know what it'll take to snap me out of this latest struggle, but please, do SOMETHING.

In the name of our Lord Jesus Christ I pray
Amen

[Kunoichi]

........you guys don't hate me.........?

Why don't you all hate me....like all others who have judged me before....why don't you?

[K. Ayato]

Why do you WANT us to hate you?

One reason we don't is because you, like all of us here, are human and are prone to make mistakes. No matter how grave the mistake may be, we all make them. No one is immune.

The second reason is that we're all Christians here, and it's not our role to judge or criticize anyone here who comes in asking for help with struggles with lust, finances, or whatever problems someone can go through. We can point out what the Bible says about a certain issue and offer suggestions, but that's it. It's not our place to judge or treat someone differently now that we know they have a personal battle with lust or other problem.

[SP1]

........you guys don't hate me.........?

Why don't you all hate me....like all others who have judged me before....why don't you?

I dare say, that many (if not most) Christians would be being hypocritical in the extreme if they dumped on you for sex (at your age) within the context of a loving relationship, but nevertheless outside of marriage.

We're all too busy trying to get the log out of our own eyes to worry about that dust speck in yours.

That said, I think your concern is just, because sex is a very strong thing, and it takes a mature relationship to support sex without it becoming the foremost activity. That is, sex too soon might mean conversation, other growth activities for two people, etc., comes to an end. You've already seen this once, apparently.

So I'm not going to challenge you to abstinance. Just make sure you aren't substituting sex for something more important (fulfilling) that you two can be doing.

[TriezGamer]

A bit of an update:

I bought an Xbox 360 and put it in my room, so when I'm in bed I'm playing games until I'm so tired, I can't even muster the energy for anything but sleep. For 2 weeks now, I haven't had any H. This is a temporary solution at best (indeed, I can't afford to constantly buy new games to hold my interest), and not complete either, as I still have an extremely vivid imagination. In other words, M is still a problem.

Kunoichi, what right do I have to judge or condemn you, when I myself cannot keep myself pure and have fallen short of God's glory and His will for my life? God loved King David, despite the fact that he was both an adulterer and a murderer. If God can love a man like King David, why cannot I (and He) love someone who is, like me, a sinner. I pray that you will find peace.

[Kunoichi]

I have had a lot of burned experiences from many other Christians....so I guess I was just expecting some hell bent fury...

I have more to say and more to my story..but for now this will be enough...thank you all for your support, love and encouragement.

It means more to me than you may every know.

[Kunoichi]

I dare say, that many (if not most) Christians would be being hypocritical in the extreme if they dumped on you for sex (at your age) within the context of a loving relationship, but nevertheless outside of marriage.

We're all too busy trying to get the log out of our own eyes to worry about that dust speck in yours.

That said, I think your concern is just, because sex is a very strong thing, and it takes a mature relationship to support sex without it becoming the foremost activity. That is, sex too soon might mean conversation, other growth activities for two people, etc., comes to an end. You've already seen this once, apparently.

So I'm not going to challenge you to abstinance. Just make sure you aren't substituting sex for something more important (fulfilling) that you two can be doing.

Well...yes we had sex too soon in my last relationship...but he also raped me so, it was a bit of a different circumstance...


however, the person I'm with now has already told me if I wanted to be abstinent than he would love me no matter what

[Aleolus]

Well...yes we had sex too soon in my last relationship...but he also raped me so, it was a bit of a different circumstance...


however, the person I'm with now has already told me if I wanted to be abstinent than he would love me no matter what

I just remind myself of a line in scripture. Don't remember where it is, but it was Christ giving a parable, explaining that as we forgive and judge others, so we shall be forgiven and judged.

I can't say I've ever been raped, but I have been molested by a male 'friend' back in elementary school, and that got me started with a lot of the trouble's that I have now. But I have friends who know my problems, and support me unconditionally. Some of them aren't even Christians!

(btw, I am a guy as well, just FYI)

**EDIT** By the way, Kunoichi, if you need any help, or want to get anything off your chest that you are too embarrased to put on the board in general, or if you need any support, feel free to PM me. I'll offer all the support I can.

[K. Ayato]

Same goes for me. Send me a PM or IM if you need someone to talk to. I'll be there .

[Sheenar]

It just enrages me to even hear about Christians hating someone! Jesus loves sinners, God loves sinners --and Jesus Himself said that no servant is above his Master --so if Jesus loves sinners, so must we. (We don't have to condone or make excuses for sin, but we must love people themselves).

The church is a hospital for the sick, not for those who think they have it all together --Jesus did say that it is not the healthy that need a physician, but the sick. I'm sorry, but when other Christians hate/talk bad about someone in a sin, I want to smack them upside the head with a Bible and make them read the story of the woman caught in adultery --"You who is without sin cast the first stone."

We don't hate you. We all have struggles. We all have struggles with the flesh. As we show mercy, we will be shown mercy. We love you because Jesus loved us first and gave His life for us.

You have our support in your struggle. We care about you friend.

[Kunoichi]

I"m shaking as I type this...I will be pming some of you...but wow...I can't tell how loved that makes me feel....thank you so much...really

[K. Ayato]

Any time, hon. *Hugs*

[Aleolus]

...I feel I need to clarify something, if only to attempt to ease my mind. In my request for prayer, I mentioned that I have (several times, now) had pornographic thoughts going through my mind while listening to pastors/preachers/priests, whatever you want to call them, teach about God and the bible. What frightens me somewhat is that I feel no guilt or shame about this. I feel nothing remorseful when browsing porn online, nor do I have any problem with Christianity and pornography coexisting, which I know is not right! I have even (not right now, thankfully) had adult material open in one tab, with this site here open in another! That fact frightens me somewhat, and worries me.

[K. Ayato]

That is frightening indeed. I'm glad you're aware of this and have chosen to share it.

I'll be praying for you. Ask the Lord (no matter how painful it gets) to help you see this the way He sees it and to realize how much this hurts Him. I believe the more you begin to realize again how much this can affect your relationship with the Lord, the more motivated you'll be to win against this.

[Kunoichi]

Aleolus,

I have similar experiences of no remorse over having sex with my boyfriend...which I also know is not right...I think after you do it for a while maybe the guilt or remorse , those feelings I should say, don't happen anymore..

Thank you so much for sharing! *hugs I ask that the Holy Father releases you from this and that any demons that are hanging around you would leave and that God would reveal Himself to you through this whole experience. Amen

God bless you Aleolus, you have prayer coverage over this!