This place is a prison...

[chibiphonebooth]

I need another prayer request.

Everything has been so screwed up lately, and my life has been compltely flipped around.

I cant take it.


Everyone is leaving. Going off to college. Especially my best friend, abby, who is going to Georgia. Right now i feel like i'll rarely see her.
My boyfriend is gone. He's in back in NY.


I feel really.... alone.

But my parents wont leave me alone.

I'm being hassled left and right. And even though i feel alone, i want to be alone sometimes. IF that makes sense. It's just a different sort of alone, i guess. I cant explain it.

My parents are making me work 10x more, and they are forcing me to go hang out with people when i really dont want to, and they are taking away almost all my computer privalages because one of their friends came down and was all like 'MER DONT LET THEM PLAY WORLD OF WARCRAFT OR GO ON THE COMPUTER ALOT CAUSE ITS EVIL AND IT SUCKS AWAY THEIR LIFE AND BLAH BLAH BLAH BAD PARENTING BLAH BLAH EVIL WOW BLAH BLAH" so now my parents are brainwashed. It's rediculous.

It's hard too, because since my boyfriend lives so far away, i can either:
A. talk to him online
B. "Bond" with him on WoW (because there's nothing that we really can do together online besides that)
C. talk to him on the phone.

and i get yelled at if i do those too much. All i want to do is be with my boyfriend. I dont wanna be yelled at for being on the computer, and then switching over to the phone and being yelled at for that too. How can i keep up a relationship if i cant talk to him? thats the only way ill be able to stay in contact. The dont understand it.

I also feel so stuck in a rut. Like... i cant get out. Everyone is going away, everyone is moving on, and im stuck here... doing the same thing. Stuck with nothing. Just work. My life is getting so hectic. Im going to be working in the morning from like 9-4, and then ill be taking art classes, and then ill be doing other things, and i wont have any time for anything else. I'll go crazy.

As you can tell, I cant handle change. It freaks me out and i just cant cope with it. I just want everything to go back to the way it was before. I wanna go back to like... sophmore year or something. When it wasnt hard.

Also, lately, ive been going in and out of these depressing moods, which is really unlike me- because I'm usually a happy go lucky type girl. (as some of you can vouch for.)
The only thing keeping me sane right now is my boyfriend and my art. x.x

I need prayer.


Thanks guys. ♥


"Come on, oh my star is fading
And I see no chance of release
And I know I'm dead on the surface
But I am screaming underneath..."

[Dragons Blood]

You know I'm always here when you need me, like when you need someone to talk to or someoen to help. I also may be far away, but, if there's anything I can do to help, I will. Your parents are (in my point of veiw) taking away privaledges with out reason.

I know I don't do it often, nor do I have the religious backgrund that most have, but I will pray for you. I love you. <3

[chibiphonebooth]

Thank you sweetie. ^.^

♥

[FarmGirl]

Praying for this to work out. Hang in there, girl.

[Jingo Jaden]

Awwwwww, in my prayer.

[chibiphonebooth]

thanks guys.

[gogogoh3]

Well, if you are a junior then well, I got one thing to say even though it may not be a nice thing to say. IT'S NORMAL, yep I am a senior and I have a very very close girlfriend that lives in Switzerland and I haven't seen her in 4 year and I just met up with her and my parents also are pushing me to take more responsible on my own. I know that it's hard right now as thing may seem, but remember that no matter how hard you try only God can give you the strength to go on everyday. I will be praying for you and if you need you can always pm me =)

G3

[chibiphonebooth]

thank you. but im a senior. XP

[gogogoh3]

well we have that in common, and what do you plan to do through all this? =)

[Dragons Blood]

You mean you WERE senior? You graduated, sweety, remember?

[gogogoh3]

I'm lost how do you know each other =)

[Angel37]

*huggles* I'll be praying for you hun!!! If you need to vent or anything, feel free to pm me!

[chibiphonebooth]

I'm lost how do you know each other =)

haha hes my boyfriend. XP

[gogogoh3]

O.o you both are christians right? well, if that's so don't forget God's is to be in the center of it =) I had a hard time with that for a long time =)

[Spiritsword]

I will pray that God gives you strength and peace, and causes you to focus on Him in the difficult times. And that everything is worked out according to His will.

[Dragons Blood]

God can be there to help out a lot, Spirit, but, just don't forget there are other people out there like friends and family. I know God can work through those people or eve give you strength to look to others, but it makes no sense if your eyes are set on God and only God as you ignore all others. ^-^

I'm not trying to start an arguement on what you ment, I have a feeling about what you really ment, but, when I first read it, that's what I first thought to myself and I'm sure there may be a couple people who read that post and say the same thing.

I'm just saying, as you prolly already know, God works in many ways, so when you're looking to God, seeking guidance, be aware of others around you. =^-^=

[gogogoh3]

oh yeah, of course. hope I didn't mean anything offensive. and that's what I ment. sorry again, didn't mean anything bad there.

Well.... you can say that love knows no bounds. =)

[Tenshi no Ai]

Kinda sounds like me when I just gradded with the freinds leaving, and loneliness and everything in between :/ And yeah, not sure how far apart you two are, but I know a long-distance of 10 hrs can be long enough away^^ So I'll be praying for all that stuffage...

[freerock1]

God can be there to help out a lot, Spirit, but, just don't forget there are other people out there like friends and family. I know God can work through those people or eve give you strength to look to others, but it makes no sense if your eyes are set on God and only God as you ignore all others. ^-^

I'm not trying to start an arguement on what you ment, I have a feeling about what you really ment, but, when I first read it, that's what I first thought to myself and I'm sure there may be a couple people who read that post and say the same thing.

I'm just saying, as you prolly already know, God works in many ways, so when you're looking to God, seeking guidance, be aware of others around you. =^-^=

Right... I definitely believe that sometimes God ministers to us through other people. We need to seek Him first and not others (Matthew 6:33), but we're not meant to live this Christian walk alone, and often the most effective ministry takes place when we connect with our brothers and sisters in Christ. (BTW, this isn't meant as an argument either. It's intended as a statement of agreement with both of you.)

Anyway, thanks for your honesty, Chibi, and may God bless you for that. I'll be lifting you up to the Father.

[Dragons Blood]

Ya, sorry about my previous post. I knew in my head what I wanted to say but my tongue couldn't understand it... If that makes sense at all either, lol. Anyways, I'm glad you could put it into the right words for me, Freerock1. ^-^

By the way, Chibi said "Thank you very much. It means a lot."

((she can get on the internet after 11 so I had to post it for her ^-^))

[gogogoh3]

wow, its nice that both of you live in the US, you do both live in the US right?

[Dragons Blood]

We live 6 hours away from eachother. It's not very far away, but just far away to be a problem. But, we have our love to keep us strong.

[gogogoh3]

well, that's great to hear, my friend lives in Zurich, Switzerland and she told me that there are not many "real" christians there so it's hard for her plus the cultures different. As for me sometimes I wish I could just pick her up and bring her to the US but I can't do that =), but I pray for her often =)

[Spiritsword]

Yes, I agree that God can certainly work through others to aid those in need, I don't remember specifically but I think I even included something to that effect in my prayer. I didn't mean "focus on God to the exclusion of all others", but I did mean "keep a strong focus on God, and always keep Him first". And then He'll work through others as well, like you, Dragons Blood. Hope that clears it up. If you still disagree, feel free to PM me, but as you said, let's not debate on this thread. God bless.

[Kaligraphic]

"Mom, Dad, since you've freed up my computer and phone time and had me going out more, well, I've met this guy at a bar and he has the most awesome tattoos, and he rides a motorcycle, and I think I'm pregnant and... just kidding!"

Don't do that. Even if you disagree with them, they don't need the heart attack.

[gogogoh3]

lololol, wow, that was funny, Hope that broke the ice =)

[chibiphonebooth]

"Mom, Dad, since you've freed up my computer and phone time and had me going out more, well, I've met this guy at a bar and he has the most awesome tattoos, and he rides a motorcycle, and I think I'm pregnant and... just kidding!"

Don't do that. Even if you disagree with them, they don't need the heart attack.

hahahaha! XD

like that comercial when the family is at a restaurant. and the girl is like "mom, dad, i want you to meet my boyfriend.' and hes in this leather jacket and has long hair and then he turns to the mom and goes 'WOAH you look just like my ex-wife!!"

XDDDD

[Dragons Blood]

LMAO!! Nice Kaligraphic. XD