Puritan wrote:As for your question about being a Christian, I would agree with Ratrace that blasphemy against the Holy Spirit isn't as easy as it seems. Honestly, simply thinking something wrong isn't necessarily blasphemy, we all think things we don't believe at times. What is wrong is meaning blasphemy, actually believing blasphemy.
I would add to this that Jesus said that it's not what goes into a man that defiles him, but what comes out of him (Matthew 15:11). Thoughts of sin can enter our minds, but it doesn't necessarily mean we've sinned. And it's not a sin to be tempted; Jesus was tempted in the wilderness, and we know He never sinned.
Also, remember that when Jesus talked about blasphemy against the Holy Spirit in Matthew 12, the Pharisees had just said that He was casting out demons by the power of the prince of demons, when in reality He cast demons out by the power of the Spirit. In effect, the Pharisees were calling the Holy Spirit, Satan. So I don't think you have to worry that you've blasphemed the Holy Spirit. The fact that you were even concerned about it is a sign to me that you haven't.
The thing is, if Satan can't get us to sin in ways that are considered the more typical "sins," he will try to put defeat us by putting thoughts of doubt in our minds. But in reality, we're children of God; we're more than conquerors through Him who loved us (Romans 8:36).
Hopefully this is of some encouragement. I've struggled with those kinds of doubts and such too, and at times still deal with them. But if you need to talk to someone who's been there, feel free to PM me.