Thanks, all, for the prayers and words of encouragement.
Just to give a little more insight into the situation... Right now I'm working for a Christian-owned non-profit company/ministry. It's a small operation, such that I have nearly direct contact with the company president.
I actually volunteered with this company for a while before I was asked to come on paid staff. It wasn't exactly my dream job, but pretty close to it. It's not great money, but it's paid my bills, and I largely took the job because I felt it was investing in the eternal. I didn't really see it being a long-term job unless things really started taking off and I was able to make significantly more money, because I know I'll probably want to get married and have my own family at some point, and at what I was making, it probably wouldn't support a family. But it was something I enjoyed doing, and I felt that while I'm young, single, and don't have a lot of commitments, I could afford to do it for a while.
But over the last few months, the company has begun to focus less and less on the ministry side of things, and more on what management thinks can bring in more money. And I can understand the thinking; the ministry side of things hasn't been the most financially productive, and those funding the operation should support their families as well. But I'm concerned that the company president has lost focus of where he's supposed to be, to a large degree. I believe that his motives are good, but a little misguided.
Add to that some personal tensions in the office recently. Lately it's got me wanting out. The job I do is fairly specialized, and (I hope I can say this without sounding conceited) I think the management feels it needs me. But I'm feeling taken for granted, not to mention disconnected with the company and its current direction lately. And I wonder if maybe my discontent is in part an uneasiness in my spirit about the company's direction.
I'm trying to keep a good attitude, and I think I'm doing so for the most part. (If I'm not, I pray that God changes me!) But it's certainly a test at times.
So anyway, please keep me in your prayers. I've started searching and sending out resumes. Pray for me that I would be in God's will and exactly where He wants me. Please pray that I would have the time to do the searching that I should (my schedule is pretty busy these days at times), and that I wouldn't be hindered by a lack of confidence, in myself or in Him. At the same time, please pray for me that I wouldn't step out of His will and into something different before it's His time. And as I said, please pray for me, for grace and a right attitude throughout the whole ordeal.
The Bible says that the steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord (not that I'm good by my own righteousness, but I'm defined by His righteousness in me). So I guess I need to lay hold of that promise
Thanks, again, for your prayers. Lord willing, I'll keep you posted.