Family

[LostChild]

Okay, so ya'll remember them anger issues I was talkin' about? I figured it all boils down to the fact my dad is drinking and won't let up on the fact that mom's right and he needs to find help.

Last week before I went on my class trip, (which was awesome, btw) dad took mom out on a date so they could patch up some things and hang out and have fun and what-not. So when I left, everything was all coolish. Then I came home yesterday to find that they're not talking to eachother again 'cause he keeps going out at 10 at night and comes home at 4 or 5 in the morning 'cause he's been drinking with some stranger he met at Alberstons...

Okay, I'll simmer down so I don't bore you with the details on how everthing got to this point. I can't even sit in youth room at church if someone is talking about how s/he went through this alcoholic stage when they were so-and-so years-old; I have to get up and leave. Basically, I'm graduating High School in three days, and I'm deathly afraid that their silence, mom's shunning, and dad's addiction is going to lead to him not even coming to my graduation. At this point in time, that's all I want from him: to come to my graduation, sober. After that, I know I'll want him to drop it all, like I have been wanting him to do for the past two years; but after that, if mom kicks him out for good, I don't think I won't feel as ((what's the word...?)) neglected (((?))).

Last year one of my friends graduated, and her mom didn't even come to her graduation (her dad died 10 years ago). She was so upset, she was seriously taking to the idea of suicide 'cause she thought her mom didn't give a rip. Basically, I don't want that to be me. Some of you might be surprised, but I've actually lost count of how many times I've had an eye for that alternative this past year ((generally after they fought or dad drove off at 3 am as a drunken idiot)); but thanx to the love of my youth pastor and Christ's Promises, I haven't acted on that.

I've never told any of my friends about this problem, let alone anyone in my family, so this is kinda my way of breaking the barrier so I can get to that point. It's really hard for me to trust people around me now-a-days (all things considered), so I'm praying with this leap of faith those of you who have known me for years-on-end won't think the less of me.

Like I said, my family doesn't know about this, so I'm trusting ya'll not to call and be like, "Leah's mom; Did you know Leah was gonna do that?" ***trying to add sarcasm to lighten my somber mood ((not like its working or anything))***

I guess I'm trying to ask for ya'll to pray for my father and his problem so that it will stop affecting me, and that God will lift me up so I won't think about these dangerous, heart-wrenching alternatives anymore.

Thank you all SOOOO much!
~LC

[Jingo Jaden]

I will pray, hope it turns out well.

Btw happy graduation!

[Warrior 4 Jesus]

I'm so sorry to hear your plight. Man, that sucks Leah. Don't ever take your own life or give up on those you love. God loves you all the same. We all have tough times and society ill equips us to handle these properly. Only God can do that. Leave it up to Him. Pray about it, talk to a close trustworthy friend about it. Oh, and congratulations on your graduation! I hope it turns out to be a great day. I'll be praying for you mate. God's blessings! (If you ever need to talk my PM box is open)

[Mr. SmartyPants]

I feel your pain too. I know very well what that is like

You're in my prayers

[LostChild]

Thanx guys. You have no idea how much it all means to me!

[Tenshi no Ai]

I'll be praying for all that as well too.

[Syreth]

Don't forget, there's always hope while you're still alive. God loves you so much and cares more than anyone about the things going on in your life, even though it might seem like no one cares sometimes. Congratulations on graduating; I'm happy for you! You have so much ahead of you, just keep your eyes on Jesus and He'll bring you through everything. I'll definately pray for you.

[LostChild]

Okay! I'm now officially GRADUATED!!! Or... whavever... School's out, so grammer don't count no more. XD

Dad came to graduation, he and mom didn't fight (from what I could tell), and as a matter of fact, he's watching TV across from me right now instead of out drinking and playing darts like he normally would at 11 at night.

I've also noticed that my mood swings coincide when my parents are fighting, or when my dad's drinking. So, now I'm asking that you might pray for Christ to protect me from the thoughts Satan is trying to shove into my head when I'm vulnerable like that.
Thanx guys! Ya'll are so totally awesome!!!

~LC

[FadedOne]

*hugs to you*

I know what that's like. My family has alot of issues, as wonderful as they are, and it seems like the moments i'm at my most hopeless, moody, discouraged is when there's been arguments or drama or whatever. It's so hard to deal with sometimes. I suppose I think to myself that i should just suck it up & appreciate what I have, but it seems like all is not as it should be & it's disturbing. erm...rambling.

But hey, said a prayer for you & will hopefully say more as I remember to. Congrats on graduating! And I wish your family healing & hope in the upcoming months.

[Warrior 4 Jesus]

That's great stuff Leah! See? There is power in prayer. I will continue to pray for you and your family. Congratulations on your graduation!

[Ryupower]

I'll pray for your dad, is he saved?
And CONGATULATION!!!