Postby Roy Mustang » Sun Mar 19, 2006 1:39 am
I'm going to be open with this now. Since I feel that I need get it out in the open.
I tired and was thinking of cut myself.
My med that likes to make me sick every few times a month, was making me blah tonight. But I know there is alot of more to this just that. I will get to that in a min. Its like the med will make me blah and then feed off my feelings.
But I know what I feel and what is eating me.
As of of late, I'm tired of this life that I live. All I do is, awake up, make med, take more med and then maybe feel sick a few times at night because one of the meds and then it starts all over. I'm just sick of having to do this 365 days a year and I'm sick of having aids. I feel that I'm going to be stuck in a job that I don't like, that is if I really get a good job. I startsing to hate how my face looks at how it looks boney from the meds pulling the fat out of my cheeks.
I'm starting to feel alone in the world. I don't know, I just don't feel that I'm very likeble (sp). I know that I have alot of pain in me that I keep inside of me. From the surgerys and shots that I had to take. But I never reel that I can talk about them that much. Then again, I don't have alot of people that will really want me to be open. I never really get, hi how are you and stuff from people IRL, and I hardly get any IM's at all. I'm always the one that has to IM others.
But I know what the problem is and I just need to deal with it.
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