Worries...

[Myoti]

Okay, first off, I've been trying to apply for jobs recently in a few places.

Now, I do want to get a job somewhere (hopefully at Chik-fil-A, one of the places I applied). However, I'm really worried about it. I don't know what something like this will be like even if I do get in, and if I do, I'm not sure if I'll be able to do as well as I'd like in school (especially next semester: Chem, Trig, AP Eng., and Spanish II; yikes).
Because of how I am, it makes me especially wonder what it will be like when I move it, namely if I manage to get into the college I want (more on that later).


Now, my second worry.

School. Next semester. As posted. I'm scared out of my mind.
Actually, I dropped Chemistry down to intermediate in hopes it will help with the other classes. I have to take both Span II and AP English, the former because it's a school requirement (even though I have no wanting to take it or French; I prefer Japanese or Latin), but my biggest fear is Trig.

If you read my thread in the General thread, you'll know what I'm talking about. To get into the school I want (namely, Digipen Institute of Technology), I must get a B average in Alg II, Geometry, Trig, and at least Pre-Calculus. I don't much like math, so I decided to skipp Alg III just to get into it. However, a got a C in Geometry last year (mostly my own fault for not paying attention), and now I'm downright freaking other this.

Now the worst part. Remember how I said I needed at least Pre-Calculus? Our school no longer offers it. My only choice is to take the SAT and get into joint-enrollement at our college our taking an online course (the latter is probably not a good idea for me). And yes, I must get a high B in both this and Trig to save my previous grade.


Another problem deals with all of this: what exactly is it I want to do, and how do I do it?

Like I said, I want to get into Digipen and become a game designer, but I've been thinking, "Is that what I really want?".

I think my true "passion" is in the games themselves. I prefer coming up with concepts for them and planning everything out. But how would I prepare for something like that? What do I really need to learn? Would a school like Digipen really help?

And my goals just make matters worse. My true goal is to become what was stated above, but, for my real profession, as something more along the lines of a second-party designer for Nintendo (I make my own games, but only for Nintendo and have them licensed by Nintendo, if that's even how it works).


I know what I'm doing in theory, but doing it is the problem. I know game-designing is what I want (but of course if God calls me to something else I will follow). I've known this since I played my first game when I was four. I knew without a doubt it's what I wanted. I've spent my entire life planning for. I've seen so many say "Oh, make video games? Yeah, I wanna do that too!" then they wind up never following that or not understanding what it truly means to design games.

I do. I know how difficult it is. I know the risks. I've gotten to where I can't play a game without thinking about how it was made, down to the technical details. This is what I want, but in this big wide world do I that?!


I'm sorry, I'm just not that... self-confident, about anything. To tell the truth, I'm not just worried... I'm scared. I have one and half years left to figure it out. The more I try to plan, the more problems seem to appear and the more responsibilities I find that I must take care before focusing on those goals. It's like climbing a steep mountain, seeing myself so close to the goal, only to find the last small stretch is nothing but sharp rocks, slippery edges, and only a small thread to support myself.


There are more... problems, I could discuss, but this seems to be enough for now. I need help, in spiritual, mental, and physical. Please...

[dragonshimmer]

I'll pray for you, lovely. That's a lot going on. The Bible says not to worry about tomorrow, for each day has enough of it's own. I have problems with worrying too, so I know it's hard. Hang in there, and ask for peace and guidance. You're in my prayers.

[freerock1]

In addition to the Scripture dragonshimmer pointed out (which is a good one), the Bible tells us that God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind. It's human to have anxieties, but God's will is for us to rest in Him. May you be strengthened and experience His peace. I'm lifting you up as well.

[justaservent]

GOD Wiling ill keep Praying:thumb:

i think its cool that youve wanted to make video games since you were 4
GOD Willing at that age i cant remeber whether or not i wanted be a ninja
or a policeman
however i wanted to turn the dog house into a restraunt
and run it
of course i dont think we ever had a dog house
i think i planed on buliding one first

[the_lizardqueen]

I'll definitely be praying for peace and courage on your behalf.

If it's any consolation, I kinda know how you feel on the video game career front. I'm considering going into the gaming industry as a character designer and concept artist, and next semester I have to decide if I'm choosing it over illustration. It can be pretty scary, but it sounds like you're serious about the gaming industry and you've put a great deal of thought into it. You're definitely not heading into this blindly.

Just take things one day at a time and try to avoid focusing too far ahead, it tends to cause headaches (happens to me alot).

[Ryupower]

but of coarse I'll pray!

[Myoti]

Thanks. There's also something that may happen, but it's very mixed for me, and I refuse to have my parents talk about it around me. Basically, it's something that potentially could help in this area, but at the same time I may lose alot of friendship and... it's just troubling. Again, thank you for prayers.

It can be pretty scary, but it sounds like you're serious about the gaming industry and you've put a great deal of thought into it. You're definitely not heading into this blindly.

Indeed. I know what it takes and know what must be done to achieve these goals. It's gonna be tough but God willing, I'm ready for it.

[freerock1]

Lifting you up, bro. Keep us posted.

And if you just need to get away from the craziness of life and vent for a moment, my PM box is open.

[Myoti]

Thanks, I will. ^_^


Oh, and you need not worry as much about this, but I just wanted to say that I have another... worry, of sorts. It has to do with something I like, it's not "bad" or anything, and in fact, I believe I was given this interest to be able to spread God's love to the others in this interests. It's just not something I like most other people, including my fam, to know about, as it, well... I feel kinda embarrased about it, I can say for sure...
More than anything, as I said, pray I can reach the others with this "interests".

[SPOILER]You can guess if you want, but do so via PM, please. As I said, it embarreses me greatly to speak of it to those not of the same "interest".[/SPOILER]