I prayed to God that He would guide me in witnessing to my old Mormon friend who I haven't talked to in over a year (and the relationship kinda... died). I prayed that I wouldn't get distracted from witnessing or anything, but...
I didn't even bring up those things of God once today when I started talking to her again... I just couldn't bring myself to do so; I was just... scared. And I don't know why. I honestly don't know what more I have to lose in this relationship... I'm just afraid to offend her anymore beyond what I've done in attacking her non-Christian beliefs...
And that makes me mad! This isn't what Christianity is about... It's not about making the unsaved feel comfortable... It's about exposing the futility of man's attempts to find perfection, peace, and salvation in ways other than Christ... So why do I fear wittnessing to someone I cared so much about?
I don't know. I just wish that I could lose my emotional side completely... They say I have a heart of stone, but... that's not true. That wouldn't bother me so much if Satan didn't use my own emotions against me...
I don't know what I'm trying to say here... I just feel like...
Like I know what to do, but don't do it at heart...?