I'm praying for you... & this might help you out:
It comes from another thread
http://66.92.1.159/showthread.php?t=25331
Struggling With Sin
"When I want to do good, evil is right there with me." (Romans 7:21) Every day I long to be free from the struggle of sin. Temptation presses in upon me and too many times I fold under its hideous strength. Oh, to be free from temptation! If you struggle with temptation, like I do, then this thread is for you. There is no period in the Christian life when we are exempt from temptation. Some people hope that by simply growing older we will grow out of temptation but that unfortunately is not the case. The older we get the more we discover that the same old temptations, often in a new disguise, are right there besides us biting at our heals and seeking to bring us down.
Temptation is a reality, it is unavoidable, and the only time we will be free of it is when we are dead. But why is this so? Understand that while we are on this earth, the clear revelation of scriptures is that as Christian we are involved in a continual and irreconcilable war. But why would a Christian be involved in this war? Simply because the same grace which reconciles us to God, whose enemies we are before coming to trust in His son Jesus, antagonizes us to the devil who is our master before we come to trust in Christ.
Luke 11:21-22
When a strong man, fully armed, guards his own house, his possessions are safe. But when someone stronger attacks and overpowers him, he takes away the armor in which the man trusted and divides up the spoils.
Before we were Christians we all were possessions of the evil one and an enemy of God. But when Christ freed us we become a friend of God and an enemy of the evil one. And the evil one cannot prevent that transaction but once it has taken place he will then bring all his endeavors to bear upon the life of the man of woman who says that they submit their life to Christ.
1 John 5:19
The whole world is under the control of the evil one.
“But I thought that when you were a Christian you were no longer a slave to sin?â€