There is this girl that I have admired from afar...but never really got to be around. She's really cute...and known as a Godly, Christ-like girl.
Well, today I was talking to my friends, who also know her, and some how she got brought up in the comversation......I have'nt seen her in a year..
It has just come to my attention that she has been smoking pot....and has gone to bed with 2 guys...in one night.......
I have had a crush on this girl for a while..and before I can even talk to her....I learn she has thrown her life away......
Since I have a face to match her with, instead of just some person....I get a sickening "image" in my head that wont go away...if you know what I mean
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I have also learned, and even seen, that 3 more of my friends are not exactly living a Christ-like life....but there the last ones I'd guess.
This is but one of the many problems that have been building up in my life....I'm kinda a goth....inside.....have lost most of my emotion...have bearly any friends..........and am curently listening to a hardcore techno song called "
I hate you ".......you..being me....I hate myself and my life...
I kinda got off track..but Ive been meaning to say that too, for a while...
The girl (and some other friends) really need prayer, as well as I. hope that you will pray for them and me....but also give me some MAJOR encouragment/advice...
Thnx,
Josh.