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Postby girlninja » Thu Jul 21, 2005 4:20 am

hey

you can pray if you want...if you don't ya know that's cool too...

umm i guess i just want prayer cuz ive been extremely depressed lately, been wanting to commit suicide *thought only i haven't tried it*

I'm at a poin where i am either feeling utter sadness or nothing at all...when i feel nothing that scares me cuz i can easily kill myself then...i'm not afraid to die i'm afraid to face God if i kill myself which is why i haven't

I feel totally worthless as a person right now...i feel like all i do is mess things up...that i'm not good enough to be with the people i am and that i'm not good enough to even by owned by God...which i guess no one truly is but i don't think he should even bother with me anymore


Anyways, I don't have any confidence in anything right now and i've basically gone to bed crying last two nights...i've told my mom about it and she talked to a christian counselor but i work six days a week so the appointments are going to cut into work and i dunno what i'm going to tell my boss...

so shrug* i dunno i guess mostly just pray i have the strength not to kill myself and get up in the morning.....

this whole post might be condemning my life on CAA cuz you guys are prolly going to think i'm more crazy then i already am...but well gotta do what i gotta do

anyways thanks guys

I pray that God will bless you for all the stuff you do and bless this site.

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Postby TrigunX89 » Thu Jul 21, 2005 4:54 am

You're not crazy, and you're certainly not worthless either! I've felt depressed and worthless plenty of times. I've felt like I can't do anything right, and that it would've been better had I never been born. But I realize that God created me for a reason. And He hasn't yet given up on me. And I know He still cares about you immensely and has great things in store for you. I'll pray for you. Just remember that despite how you feel about yourself, there are people who care about you. It sounds like your family cares about you, and I can say that I care about you as well. I once heard that 'suicide is the most selfish thing a person can do.' I can't imagine the grief those who love you would feel if you did it. So hold on! Life gets better, trust me! God has great things in store for you. Just keep on keeping on, and trusting in Him to help you through!
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Postby shooraijin » Thu Jul 21, 2005 5:18 am

Did something recently happen to change things? Do you feel you were happy before?
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Postby holysoldier5000 » Thu Jul 21, 2005 6:03 am

I will pray for you, and I greatly hope that you don't commit suicide, for it is the greatest act of selfishness a person can commit. In John 17:15 Jesus said these words; “My prayer is not that you take them out of the world but that you protect them from the evil one.â€
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Postby holysoldier5000 » Thu Jul 21, 2005 6:05 am

But there is so much to live for here... God made you for a purpose, do you think that maybe you should find out what it is??? If God had willed it, each of us might have entered heaven at the moment of conversion. It was not absolutely necessary for our preparation for immortality that we should linger here. It is possible for a man to be taken to heaven and to be found fit to partake in the inheritance of the saints in light, even though he has only just believed in Jesus. It is true that our sanctification is a long and continued process, and we shall not be perfected until we lay aside our bodies and enter within the veil; but nevertheless, if the Lord had wanted to, He could have changed us from imperfection to perfection and have taken us to heaven at once. Why then are we here? Would God keep His children out of paradise a single moment longer than was necessary? Why is the army of the living God still on the battlefield when one charge might give them the victory? Why are His children still wandering here and there through a maze when a single word from His lips would bring them into the center of their hopes in heaven? The answer is—they are here that they may “live to the Lordâ€
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Postby holysoldier5000 » Thu Jul 21, 2005 6:07 am

...I know I write a lot, but I hope that you will head these words of wisdom from the bible, the Word of God.

Jesus said the devil is a liar and a murderer whose aim is to destroy, to wreck, to distort and pervert human life. But, this need not be. God gives us the very passage we are to implore as an adequate defense against the wiles of the devil. We are urged and encouraged to use it. "Be strong in the Lord," the apostle says, "and in the strength of his might," (Ephesians 6:10). It is possible to stand; it is possible to overcome. This word is very encouraging to us. But that alone is not enough. That tells us there is an answer but it does not tell us exactly what it is. Our question always is, "How do you do this?" How, exactly, do you become, "strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might?" The answer is, "Put on the whole armor of God," (Ephesians 6:11). Paul says,

Stand therefore, having girded your loins with truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and having shod your feet with the equipment of the gospel of peace; above all taking the shield of faith, with which you can quench all the flaming darts of the evil one. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. (Ephesians 6:14-17)

Now look at the second piece of armor, the breastplate of righteousness: Have you put that on? "Having put on the breastplate of righteousness" -- what does that mean? Well, that is Christ as the ground of your righteous standing before God, your acceptance before him. If you have that on you can rest secure that your heart, your emotions, are securely guarded and adequately protected against attack. This is perhaps the most frequent ground of attack against Christian faith. Christians, by one means or another, through one circumstance or another, often feel they lack assurance. They feel unworthy of God. They feel they are a failure in the Christian life and that God, therefore, is certain to reject them, that he is no longer interested in them. They are so aware of their failures and shortcomings. Growth has been so slow. The first joy of faith has faded, and they feel God is angry with them or that he is distant, far off somewhere. There is a constant sense of guilt. Their conscience is always stabbing them, making them unhappy, miserable. They feel God blames them. This is simply a satanic attack, a means of opposing and destroying what God intends to do.

How do you answer an attack like this? You are to remember that you have put on the breastplate of righteousness. In other words, you do not stand on your own merits. You never did. You never had anything worthwhile in yourself to offer to God. You gave all that up when you came to Christ. You quit trying to be good enough to please God. You came on his merits. You came on the ground of his imputed righteousness -- that which he gives to you. You began your Christian life like that and there is no change now. You are still on that basis.

This is why Paul begins his great eighth chapter to the Romans with the words, "There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus," (Romans 8:1). No condemnation! You are believing a lie when you believe that God is angry with you and that he rejects you. Remember, you stand on Christ's merits, "accepted in the Beloved," (Ephesians 1:6). Further on in that chapter he asks, "Who can accuse us?" (Romans 8:33). It is God who justifies. Christ, who died for us, is the only one who has the right to accuse us, and he loves us. Therefore there is no separation. "Who can separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus?" (Romans 8:35). Who can do this?

Now this does not mean that God puts his hand on the things we know are wrong in our lives and says, "Oh, well, these things do not matter. Don't worry about these." Of course not. But it means he sees them, and he says, "Oh, yes, but he hasn't learned yet all that I intend to teach him." And he deals with us as a father, in love and patient discipline -- as a father, not as a judge.

See how the Apostle Paul himself used this breastplate of righteousness when he was under pressure to be discouraged and defeated. Have you ever thought of the struggles he personally had in this realm? Here was a man who was small of stature, unimpressive, in his personal appearance. In fact, there is very good evidence to indicate that he was even repulsive to many. He had a disfiguring physical ailment which made him unpleasant to look at. The last thing he had was what is called a commanding presence. His background was anti-Christian and he could never get away from that completely. He had been the most hostile, brutal persecutor of the church they had known. He must constantly have run across families with loved ones whom he had put to death. He was often reminded by many people that he was not one of the original twelve apostles, that his calling was suspect, that perhaps he really was not an apostle at all. Writing to the Corinthians about these very matters, he says of himself in Chapter 15, "I am the least of the apostles, unfit to be called an apostle, because I persecuted the church of God," (1 Corinthians 15:9).

What a ground for discouragement! How easy it would have been for him to my to himself, "What's the use? Here I am working my head off, working my fingers to the bone, making tents and trying to preach the gospel to these people, and look at the blessing God has brought them, but they don't care. They hurl recriminations back into my face. Why try anymore?" But that is not what he does. The very next verse says, "By the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace toward me was not in vain," (1 Corinthians 15:10). There he is using the breastplate of righteousness. I don't care, he says, what I have been, I don't defend what I am. I simply say to you, by the grace of God, I am what I am. What I am is what Christ has made me. I'm not standing on my righteousness, I'm standing on his, I am accepted by grace, and my personal situation does not make any difference at all. So his heart was kept from discouragement. He could say, "Sure, all these things are true, but that does not change the fact that I am Christ's man, and I have his power. He is in me and I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me," (Philippians 4:13). Thus he reminded himself that when he became a Christian he had put on the breastplate of righteousness and he never allowed himself to be discouraged, for he did not look to himself for anything at all. He looked to Christ.

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Postby Spiritsword » Thu Jul 21, 2005 6:45 am

I will pray. God really, truly loves you. He really does.
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Postby Shadowchild » Thu Jul 21, 2005 10:17 am

God loves you sis. I get depressed sometimes too but i take it all out in an outlet. you could draw write poetry and #1 best is read the bible. If you havent noticed yet is that i draw many sad looking people. alone and depressed. why because that is how i feel at that moment. when i find that i become depressed i just look to god and he always pulls through, whether it may be a smile from a friendly face or a nice little loving purr of a cat. the people here on CAA dont want you to leave. and God is the one who decides when your time comes. I like music alot so i also sometimes listen to some good christian music. you have to remember that god loves you. even i forget that sometimes. i have to draw a cross on my ankle so when i look at it i remember. god is there, he is looking after you not because he has to but because he wants to. he chooses to love you. he wouldnt have created you if he didnt. i hope you find that in your heart. *hugs*
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Postby Noeru1992 » Thu Jul 21, 2005 10:29 am

I know EXACTLY how you feel! I cant type alot right now cause i have to go but if you EVER need anyone to talk to about ANYTHING I know how you feel and I can help! Just get ahold of me if you ever need help, you can msg me here, go to my blog to find other ways or comment on my taggie. ect.
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Postby Alice » Thu Jul 21, 2005 11:42 am

It's okay. We won't condemn you for feeling this way. I know.

Yes, I'll pray for you.
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Postby kazekami » Thu Jul 21, 2005 4:52 pm

I know how that feels. I will pray for you.
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Postby holysoldier5000 » Thu Jul 21, 2005 6:49 pm

To all those who are thinking about suicide...

Suicide is the greatest act of selfishness a person can commit. But like all selfish acts, if we learn to look away from ourselves and to Jesus we can find reason and purpose for our lives once again. [I]“Looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.â€
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Postby holysoldier5000 » Thu Jul 21, 2005 6:51 pm

My God Bless you in all that you do. Remember that you are someone special, and Jesus loves you very much. Lean on Jesus and he will be your friend...

What a friend we have in Jesus,
All our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilage to carry
Ev'rything to God in prayer!
Oh, what peace we often forfeit,
Oh what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry
Ev'rything to God in prayer!

Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged,
Take it to the Lord in prayer:
Can we find a friend so faithful
Who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus Knows our every weakness,
Take it to the Lord in prayer.

Are we weak and heavy laden,
Cumbered with a load of care?
Precious Saviour, still our refuge;
Take it to the Lord in prayer:
Do thy friends despise, forsake thee?
Take it to the Lord in prayer;
In His arms He'll take and shield thee;
Thou wilt find a solace there.
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Postby girlninja » Thu Jul 21, 2005 8:19 pm

*smile Holy yours took me like 10 minutes to read LOL but thankyou for writing it...

Guys really thankyou for the kind words you have said...even when you don't know who i am, i'm pretty much crying right now as i read this lol

I told my boss i was going to therapy and he was supportive....so i think it's my first step to getting better...

um nothing really happened recently...well my grandma died but i grieved and it didn't affect me this bad...

i just feel...i dunno worthless and like when i am happy i feel like i shouldn't be happy cuz that would make my depression fake...*i know that sounds odd but that's what my mind says* i dunno *sigh* i'm tired of feeling this way

God doesn't feel close right now....i've been crying out desperate prayers but I kinda went away from him first...so he really shouldn't help me..i don't deserve it

I don't deserve anything....man i hate these thoughts i really do and right now i'm kinda blabbing but it helps me to put thoughts on here....to know people will read them and care...

I just feel really ashamed with how i feel cuz i know other people have a far worse life then me and they aren't depressed so why should i be? in the end, thinking like that only makes me feel worse...

thanks guys for praying...may the Lord answer your prayers and may he graciously decide to lower his gaze to my pathetic person..
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Postby Shadowchild » Thu Jul 21, 2005 8:34 pm

God doesent think that you are pathetic. He loves you more than you or anyone could ever imagine. He loved you enough to send his own son to his death for our sins. Not just yours not just mine but everyone. Even those who deny him and think that he has forgotten them. You are never forgotten no matter how much you think that you are. There is no way ever that he would stop loving you or forget you. You cant just create something soo big and then forget it ever happened. Love is what god has for you and he will never forget it. And neither should you find that he doesent remember that who he loves. *hugs*
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Postby the_lizardqueen » Thu Jul 21, 2005 8:42 pm

I know it can be tough, and scary, but try to hang in there. I'm glad that you've found an outlet, and that you've been finding support in real life. I definitely wouldn't ever judge you for the feelings you've described, I can't say I know exactly what your going through, but I think I have had a similar mindset at many points in my life. Sometimes I wonder if I'm fighting against it now..

I'll definitely be praying for you, take care ^_^
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Postby Alice » Thu Jul 21, 2005 9:39 pm

I'm so glad you checked in. Silence can be scary. We're still praying for you.

I know you're a writer. I don't know if you get as attached to your characters as I get to mine... so I don't know if this helps any.... but I have to remind myself sometimes that God loves us (the people He invented), even more than we love the (imaginary) people we created.

That may or may not help you right now. :grin: It's just that God more than tolerates us... He adores us... even when we can't feel it. I'm sorry I can't be of more help. :praying:.... :hug:
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Postby kazekami » Thu Jul 21, 2005 10:03 pm

Don't feel bad because she feel others have worse lives then you. If something is making you depressed then you have a problem that needs to be fixed and shouldn't feel ashamed. And remember God loves each one of his sheep. Each one of us is special. I'll keep you in my prayers.
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Postby agasfas » Thu Jul 21, 2005 10:31 pm

Hey, you're not alone. I can relate more then you think.

Just remember, none of us deserve salvation but Christ gives it to us freely. Also, try not being so hard on yourself... We all mess up and all do stupid things. About feeling sad or nothing at all, try talking to someone about it like a friend, youth pastor, or parents. And sometimes we just need to do our own soul searching. I've had to do that myself.

We all care about you, we truely do. So anytime you feel sad, need to get something off your chest or prayer guidence we will always be here for ya. Also, if you ever feel the need to talk, I sure anyone will be willing to listen; including me. My PM, email or AIM is always open so don't be shy.

Oh, and no I don't think you're crazy. We all have probably felt that way at one time or another.

Anyways, I'll keep you in my prayers. We'll always be here for ya.
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Postby phinny5608 » Thu Jul 21, 2005 10:46 pm

I'm praying for you, and I also called a blessing on your boss for being supportive :)

I've been bogged down by depression before. If you want to talk about it, feel totally free to IM me.
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Maybe it would help to be around some good friends or something. Preferably, Christian friends.
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Postby holysoldier5000 » Fri Jul 22, 2005 4:12 am

girlninja wrote:God doesn't feel close right now....i've been crying out desperate prayers but I kinda went away from him first...so he really shouldn't help me..i don't deserve it

I don't deserve anything....man i hate these thoughts i really do and right now i'm kinda blabbing but it helps me to put thoughts on here....to know people will read them and care...


...hmm... I have heard of this problem before, even went through it myself. Unnecessary guilt, which is completely bogus when one looks at what the bible says. Let me ask you these questions:

Do you honestly believe that God loves you?

Whether you say yes or no this verse from the Bible is a wonderful comfort verse...

"The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing." ~ Zephaniah 3:17

Do you believe that God had you in mind when he told the prophet Zephaniah to write down those words?

See when we ask God to forgive us of our sins, and we turn to Him leaving our life of sin, God no longer finds us a sinner. That is why Jesus died on the cross, so that all our sins could be washed away with his redeeming blood. All are sins are washed away and God forgets about them... Why? Because we are forgiven! God finds no fault in us...so why should we? God sees us as special...so why should we think differently? In and of ourselves we are worthless, but with Jesus the Bible says we are we are more then conquerors!

"In all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us." Romans 8:37

When we give our lives to Jesus he takes us from worthless sinners to blameless children of God! Now we are on God's side and "If God is for us, who can be against us?" (Romans 8:31)

When you believe that God does not love you anymore, or that God does not care, you are just believing a lie of the Devil. The Bible is clear about the fact the God will always be with us and help us through our troubles.

But we have out part to play. Get this notion out of your head that you are distant from God, it is another lie! If you think that God is far away from you then it is by sin in your life keeping God from drawing near. He wants to draw near, but the only thing that will keep him away is sin. So I suggest you look for anything in your life that may be keeping God from you. Any sin that comes between you and God... If there is no sin, or if you repent of the sin, then you can be close to God again... but it is a relationship you have to work on. If you are expecting a wonderful mountain top experience everyday with God then you would be a fool. God says he will come to us, but we have to come to him, and we have to work on the relationship. "Growing in Christ is not instant oatmeal!" It is now your duty to do your part... and what is your part? Read the word of God, and live your life according to the will of God. Make God the focus of your life and you won't have to worry about falling away from Him. So read your bible, pray, and go out and live a life pleasing to God. Help those in need, be a good example, just get out there and tell others about God... Whatever you do don't get on some pity-party "poor me" band wagon and become so self centered that God could not move in your life if he wanted too. Selfishness is a sin! And it is the number one spiritual killer of Christians and non-Christians alike.

Now I know I have written a lot, and I have said some pretty harsh things, but please understand that I say them as one who was once very much in the situation you are going through right now. And if I learned anything it is that you have to get out of this foolish idea that you’re not worthy! Take it from me... it is not worth it ... it will ruin your life ... as it almost ruined mine.

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding." ~ Proverbs 3:5

"If we are faithless, he will remain faithful, for he cannot disown himself." ~ 2 Timothy 2:13

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Postby girlninja » Fri Jul 22, 2005 5:10 am

Hey guys

*smile again you guys are there heh i have to say that this site and the people never cease to amaze me

I do have christian friends but i haven't gone to them yet....i dunno why i guess cuz i don't like people knowing i have a problem

but ya know through it all, God IS still there...just wish i could hear him better...hmmm maybe i should get a q-tip.. lol

I haven't been reading my bible lately i just started going to church a few weeks ago cuz my other one crashed and burned and i was outta church for six months...i know that prolly had alot to do with it

I have battled depression since seventh grade and it seems to like to stay with me....stupid thing that it is

It really helps me to know that there are others who have gone through the same thing as me and have made it and gotten stronger from it...it's just hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel...

I have a really supportive boyfriend and mom who are really helping me right now so it's good...and i'm really happy to know i have people, strangers who care enough about me to pray for me really i can't thankyou enough. It truly gives me encouragement that i'm not crazy and that i don't need to be ashamed of these feelings even though i do need help from them

I do love God and i love Jesus....when it comes down to it I turn to Him in my desperate need and i latch onto him in the darkest hours....for now he whispers in the wind barely audible...but perhaps that is speaking afterall...making me search and turn my gaze upward because i have been falling for quite some time

as far as sin in my life...*shakes head* i'm sure i have a lot i don't really know where to start for that...i have asked Jesus for forgiveness tho..I'm gonna try though and i'll keep in update on here whenever i'm sad cuz it helps me to write out my feelings...like right now i already feel happier that i am and i don't feel so sad..

Though half of your guys posts got me crying lol *in a good way* *smile

*hugs
i'll keep trying thankyou for the prayers and support
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Postby agasfas » Fri Jul 22, 2005 9:25 am

I'm glad to see that you have great support in your life. That's really awesome. The only thing I can suggest is try to concentrate on the positive aspects of your life instead of the negatives. That'll make you feel a lot better. Anyways I'll continue to pray for ya.
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Postby Madeline » Fri Jul 22, 2005 9:54 am

I'm so glad that God is in your life, because there's no one better to run to when your love gauge is stuck on empty. It happens to all of us at one time or another. Here's a poem my mom read to me once. On a day when you feel numb and have nothing left to give, remember this. If you like, print it out and keep it to encourage you when you're feeling down.

For One Who Is Tired

Dear Child, God does not say today, "Be strong."
He knows your strength is spent, He knows how long
The road has been, how weary you have grown,
For He who walked the earthly roads along
Each boggy lowland and each rugged hill,
Can understand, and so He says, "Be still,
And know that I AM GOD." The hour is late
And you must rest awhile, and you must wait
Until life's empty reservoirs fill up,
As slow rain fills an empty upturned cup,
Hold up your cup, dear child, for God to fill;
He only asks today that you be still.

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Postby Syreth » Fri Jul 22, 2005 10:11 am

I'll be praying for you. Isn't it kinda weird how our human hearts are? We get depressed about being depressed and we condemn ourselves for feeling condemned. It just doesn't make any sense, does it? I know I've felt that way too many times. If there's one thing I've learned about feelings is that they have their place, but they don't define who you are or the truth. The promises of God are to be trusted in. Read Ephesians. It's encouraging ^^
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Postby holysoldier5000 » Fri Jul 22, 2005 1:39 pm

girlninja wrote:as far as sin in my life...*shakes head* i'm sure i have a lot i don't really know where to start for that...i have asked Jesus for forgiveness tho..I'm gonna try though and i'll keep in update on here whenever i'm sad cuz it helps me to write out my feelings...like right now i already feel happier that i am and i don't feel so sad..


Just remember that if you have asked Jesus to forgive you then you stand on his' merits and not your own. You are made righteous now and have nothing to fear. Sure sin is going to come, but just ask for forgivness once again, and move on. Sin only controls you as much as you let it, and Jesus is willing to take all of it away, if you are willing to give it away.

There is a favorite quote of mine that says: "Always do your best in everything you do, and always trust in God for he will see you through."

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him." ~Romans 8:28

If you truly want to understand Romans 8:28, then read the book of Job. There was a man who had everything taken from him, he had nothing, not his family, not his possessions, not his friends, not even his health! He had nothing. It even looked as if he did not even have God.[I] “But if I go to the east, he is not there] (Job 23:8-9) But God was there, working for good, even though Job could not see it, the Almighty was there and he cared. [I]"But he knows the way that I take; when he has tested me, I will come forth as gold.â€
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Postby c_hunter » Thu Jul 28, 2005 3:35 pm

Wow, this thing isn't easy... But hold on to God, it's good that God is in your life, I know how it feels to be that way, maybe it's also that sometimes God hides his face from us, testing us if we will still have the faith in him, so I suggest to hold on to Him and His words... God Bless! I'll be praying for you...
God has a plan for each of us
He wants us to fullfill
And He'll provide the strength we need
To carry out His will.


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Postby Diakonos » Thu Jul 28, 2005 7:11 pm

Hey chica! You're holdin' on strong and don't worry ever, the cold hard fact is that none of us deserves anything or should be worth anything but God believes differently and that makes every trial and life itself worth living... life sucks thats because were on Satan's turf right now, a battlefield if you want to call it. But you know what? Only you can carry out the mission and purpose God has created you for... suicide would be failing that.

We may not know you personally but we know God who does know you and loves you beyond comprehention and believes that you're well worth it to suffer and die for, and this give us every reason to pray for you and give our all to you.

Besides this thought of suicide is from Satan... he really doesn't want you to fullfil your mission he finds you a threat and that is the greatest sign of someone going to do great things for God.

Take care girl... I'm prayin' for you and please if you need to talk to someone look me up and send a PM.
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Postby Ryupower » Fri Jul 29, 2005 11:48 am

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Postby Gala » Sat Jul 30, 2005 7:35 pm

a lot of people fell like that every once in a while including me. just pray to the Lord for strength and i will pray to. God loves u.
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