I just have so much on my mind recently I don't know what to do.
First off is the question of where life will lead me. Currently I'm a Junior in college and I have doubts once again about my major. I was enrolled in one summer class taking an advanced mathmatics class and subconsciously thinking, "Do I really want to teach math? Why do I want to know this, and why am I doubting myself?"
I guess the conclusion I've come to address is that a degree in teaching and mathmatics is not for me. So in result I decided to drop it. It wasn't that I couldn't do it, but rather it's not what I really want to be doing in my life. For the past month I've been really racking my mind over what I really want to do and I just can't find any answers. Occasionally I stay up late just wondering what's next? At times I fear that if I wait too long it'll be too late to do anything. Plus not having much money, I can't really afford to take semester after semester of classes I don't need. I've been doing a lot of praying lately for guideness and I still don't know... I ask that you please pray for guidance. That the Lord will help guide me in the right direction where life needs to take me. I'm just so confused and somewhat scared.
My second request has to do with a personal matter that needs to changed. Recently I saw a person in the mirror I did not want to be like. Things that take me further and further away from Christ. And to become spiritually closer to Christ, I must make these changes. So I must. It's really hard and I occasionally stumble... So I also ask that y'all please pray that the Lord will be able to help me to become strong. Strong enough to endure the pressure and stronger in my relationship with Christ.
I apologize for the lengthy request, but I would really appreciate as much support as I can get searching for the help and answers I seek. Again, thank you