Ever feel as though you're losing everything?

[Shao Feng-Li]

As you may know, ever since that ordeal with my cousin, we've been losing everyone and my dad's side. I love my grandparents, but it's hard not to hate my grandfather for supporting that pervert... (You can read about that bit of a living hell in another thread...) Anyway, since we pretty much have nothing anymore in this town, my parents want to move to Albany New York. Yes, clear across the states so we can attend the only RPNA church in America, or at elast the only one we know of. The sacremants can only be lead my an ordained minister... we all knwo they aren't life saving but they're important and we don't have any reason to move any where else. THere's but one problem, I don't want to- no desire to move at all. It's my dojo... I was so hoping to get that black belt junior rank under my sensei. It doesn't seem fair. I finally find something I love and dedicate myself, then we move... what the heck. I can probably find other dojos, but there aren't amny that teach two arts. Maybe sensei can tell me difference between a good dojo and a not so good... I dunno what I'm asking for here... Pray that I don't lose my mind, that I will like it in NY... pray that we don't... *Sigh*

EDIT: Makes me think of this song:
Can't Lose You
by Caedmon's Call

So you're gone but I know you're not so far away
You're a call on the phone or a ride on a plane
But that just isn't the same, yeah well

That's ok because I was never home anyway
So now everyone's evolving and I am just the same
As I was ten years ago, but I don't know
Maybe a simple life is more the way to go
Yeah, but then again, I’m mostly all alone

*Cause I'm losing everyone
But I know I can't lose you
And maybe my time will come
But I know I can't lose you

Cause the older I get
Well the more that life is making sense
And it's similar to traffic or being president
'Cause I’m not the one in control
You grab a hold
I'm just a hammer helping to nail the future down
But it's getting hard making my friends leave town

Repeat*

But maybe I missed the nose right on my face
For what's just past it
And maybe I have the gift that everyone speaks so highly of
Funny how nobody wants it

[CobaltAngel]

Aww, man! *hugs* I'm pray for you - that's tough. I know his will sound sappy, and it probably won't help you feel much better, but God uses even the bad situations in life to make us better people, better christians.

I believe its Audio A that does that song that says, "This is the good life, I've lost everything I could ever want or ever dream of. This is the good life, I've found everything I could ever need here in Your arms."

[Rogie]

God does always have a plan for you, though you may not understand. I'll pray!

[Mave]

God knows what you're feeling and going through. I'll pray that God will carry you through your losses by giving you peace and leading you to the best path!

[Heart of Sword]

Mmmm...the dojo thing would be very hard for me...I don't go to a dojo (I studied hiten mitsurugi ryu), but to miss out on the blackbelt...urrrgh...

I'll pray for you.

[Mr. SmartyPants]

God is doing this for a reason. Right now, it may seem unfair and bad. But trust me, and more importantly Trust God on this. Things WILL be better for certain.

My family and all my relatives split too. It was years back, when all our relatives came to our house. We were going to go out to eat and have fun and stuff. With my uncles, and aunts, grandmother, and cousins. But for some reason. We got in this massive fight. With me in my cousin in my room. Just sitting there, while people were arguing, crying, and stuff downstairs. It was horrible. Ever since, the adults (like my mom, uncle, grandmother) never saw each other again. It just hurts me so much that my family could not be reunited again. I used to wondered "why God, why did you do this" And im sure there was a reason, or perhaps none. But now, my mind is clear. And my heart is for God.


One time i asked God. "Why God, why am i being sent to Calvert Hall? Why Can't I go to Dulaney High? The school all my other friends are going"

TWO years later, i found the answer. To Reach out to those who were not saved.

One time I asked God: "God, why do I have to go to bed so early?" (when i was younger)

So I can wake up more refreshed for school

One time I asked God: "Why God, why do I have to do what I don't want to do? Why do I have to help out at my dads store? Why do I have to help my dad rebuild/fix something? Why Can't I be left alone?"

So I can learn how to do thigns in the future

One time i asked God: "Why God, why do I have such a mean sister?"

Because i can get ready for the real world. Because the real world doesn't play fair.


We are all called to suffer. Jesus was the suffering servant. He died on the cross. But for what? For the sake of us.

Revelations 2:10
"Do not be afraid of what you are about to suffer. I tell you, the devil will put some of you in prison to test you, and you will suffer persecution for ten days. Be faithful, even to the point of death, and I will give you the crown of life."

James 1:2-4
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."

1st Peter 1:6-7
"In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith–of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire–may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed."