Distrurbing Dream

[Lengai]

Yall probably know that I put a request about awhile back about witnessing to my friend Andrew. (he's ethnically Jewish, but goes with Atheism.) Well, Friday, I had a dream about him that really disturbed me.

When I woke up, I felt wonderful! It was the best dream I've ever had in my life. I met Andrew face-to-face for the first time! I was giddy all day and kept thinking about him..Well, last night I began to think about some things in my dream, and the more disturbed I became. In part of my dream, a blond girl dropped her keychain. I picked it up and noticed a cross attached to it. I asked, "Hey, are you a Christian?" She answered, "Yes." I pointed at Andrew (who was facing the other way) and asked, "Do you know him?"

"Yeah. We go to the same school. He's a friend of mine."

"Have you witnessed to him?"
She looked at me in shock. "No, I haven't really thought about it."
Then she disappeared. I went all happy again and walked around with Andrew. We engaged in small talk, but nothing big. Later in my dream, we were at my house. I couldn't sleep so decided to play a video game. Note that is was pitch black outside, and I mean totally dark, no light at all. The only glow came from our TV. I went into our family room and Andrew was sitting on the couch, watching TV. I walked over and pawed through some games. All of a sudden, he was really mad, and yelled at me, but I didn't know why. I tried to calm him down, and it worked.

Later, I was introducing Andrew to my friend Sarah. She said, "Oh, yall look so cute together!" and smiled. I grinned and Andrew answered, "Yeah..but there are things we'd have to work out." I looked up to him and saw such a sadness in his eyes..my dream-heart almost broke. He looked so..empty. Something similar happened in another part of the dream, at his house. We were playing games and he had that sadness in his eyes again..

And throughout the entire dream, it was an utterly suffocating dark outside.
I tried to just focus on the heart-skipping joy of finally meeting..but then..I started to interpret what the dream might mean. Should I try to witness again? Do what blonde failed in part one? Should I try to show him a way out of his anger and sadness? I don't know. The dream feels like more than a jumble of random thoughts during sleep. But I don't know if God was telling me something or what. It really scares me.

Last night in the shower, I just broke down and started to cry. I banged my head on the wall in anguish of not knowing. I prayed and sang hynms..and kept on crying. I got in bed and hugged my blue bear tight and just let my tears fall quietly while whispering a long and sincere prayer. I guess I eventually ended up crying myself to sleep. I want to try to show Andrew the Truth again, I want to know why my heart..my soul hurts so much for him. This is the second occasion I've really sobbed in prayer specifically for him. Please pray that God will give me wisdom and understanding..and quell my worried heart. Also pray for Andrew..he needs the Lord so badly..

[agasfas]

All of a sudden, he was really mad, and yelled at me, but I didn't know why.

The first time you brought up the idea of Christ how did he act? Sometimes we need to take things slow. If we are rash or jump into something unprepaired then that may be more harmful then anything. First, be an example of what Christ can do for you. If you pressure him into it that may cause people to move further away from Christ. Or even make him really angry. I've seen it happen a lot. When the time is right to bring up the subject, you'll know. It may be now, or a bit further in the future. I'm not in the situation so I can't really say. You have presented yourself once and that's a good start. Just don't pressure or constantly hound him about it. I think you'll do just fine. Perhaps your dream may be telling you to wait, or not to force the issue on him... Though that's only my interpretation.

Sometimes we help change lifes and turn people to christ. Sometimes some just don't want to turn to christ, or just yet. Present yourself in a caring manner, say what you can, then allow time for all that stuff to stir around his head. Many times in our lifes we all need to take the time to analyze and process what we have taken in. In the subject of religion, it requires more thought. I mean, would you rather him say he believes in Jesus and really have not idea about who He is, or how important He is to be saved? As sad as it is, sometimes it requires time... sometimes years. It's not always a overnight change. Many have to really struggle and fight to find the right anwsers.
Most times, patients will work for the good.

I want to know why my heart..my soul hurts so much for him.

Sorry if it's none of my business, but may I ask if it's not personal, do you have a crush for this guy or are y'all just friends? From your dream it seems like you really like this guy. That would be my guess on why it hurts so much. Because I know from experience how hard it is to really care for someone who isn't a believer. It really tears at your insides.

Good luck, I'll be praying for both of you. Also, you'll know when the time is right.

[Ssjjvash]

I would say to keep praying for your friend. Thank God every day for his salvation and don't give up. I'll pray also.

[Hephzibah]

Keep praying absolutely. However, as for talking to him about Jesus again, I would wait until you have a prompting from the Holy Spirit. I have a non-Christian friend that I pray for, but it seems that whenever I start talking about Jesus he turns it into a huge theological argument and it gets off topic completely.

Last night in the shower, I just broke down and started to cry. I banged my head on the wall in anguish of not knowing. I prayed and sang hynms..and kept on crying. I got in bed and hugged my blue bear tight and just let my tears fall quietly while whispering a long and sincere prayer. I guess I eventually ended up crying myself to sleep. I want to try to show Andrew the Truth again, I want to know why my heart..my soul hurts so much for him. This is the second occasion I've really sobbed in prayer specifically for him. Please pray that God will give me wisdom and understanding..and quell my worried heart. Also pray for Andrew..he needs the Lord so badly..

Maybe (a different option from agasfas) God has given you a heart for Andrew, to be the person who will pray for him constantly. Just a thought

[Rogie]

I agree with Talame. It does sound like God is charging you with the duty of praying for your friend. And remember that sometimes sowing seeds is just as much of an accomplishment and service to the Lord as it is to help in reaping the harvest. Maybe God just wants to sow the seeds of the Gospel with your friend so that another Christian may come along and help bring him into salvation, all because your friend might remember the things you said to him, the way you acted, the fact that you were saved. And maybe God wants you to do both.

One can never know, but comfort can be found in continuing to pray about how you might serve God with regards to your friend and to pray for your friend. You'll know what to do when the Spirit moves, so just wait for Him, keep the faith, and pray.

And I'll pray for your situation, too, Lengai!

[Mave]

I would like to remind you that something IS happening when you're praying for anything even if you don't see anything tangible in the physical side of the world. Everytime you pray for this guy, you ARE bringing him a step nearer to God.

It's mostly likely that God is leading you to pray specifically for him. God sometimes put a certain individual in our heart, breaking our hearts while doing so. It is not a bad thing at all. Feeling the pain in our hearts for others is part of being a Christian, IMHO.

Now whether you are called to reach out to him in a more physical way (i.e share the gospel or bring him to church), that's between you and God. I'll pray for God to lead you with wisdom and love in this matter. But never stop praying for the battle is still going on!

[agasfas]

I would also have to agree w/ Talame... Perhaps it a way of God telling you to continue to pray for your friend. Like Mave and rogie has stated, sometimes it's the little things like prayer that helps a person come closer the Christ.

Also, let me clear up something, by no means was I saying not to witness to your friend. My only point was, if for some reason you don't think your friend is ready to continue the talk, then just be patient and continue to pray for him.

Prayer may seem a bit small in comparison with other things, but sometimes the smallest of cracks can become bigger in time. Just continue to pray for you friend and I'll do the same. I know you'll do just fine whenever it's comes time for you to witness again. I'll continue to pray for you, good luck and stay strong.

[Syreth]

I'll be praying that you do what God wants you to do. It's probably safe to say that God is using this dream of yours to prompt you to do something. I would encourage you to be lead by the Spirit, like Talame said, and an important part of being led by the Spirit is to be reading the Bible for direction. I'll pray for the salvation of your friend.