I'm scared I'm gunna kill myself one day.
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okay i'm seriously gunna talk to my pastor tomorrow. my friend's gunna come with me. she already knows what's going on.
[color="DarkOrange"]"The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things... hey... the good things don't always soften the bad things; but vice-versa the bad things don't necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant." -11th Doctor
"The advice I like to give young artists, or really anybody who’ll listen to me, is not to wait around for inspiration. Inspiration is for amateurs; the rest of us just show up and get to work. If you wait around for the clouds to part and a bolt of lightning to strike you in the brain, you are not going to make an awful lot of work. All the best ideas come out of the process; they come out of the work itself. Things occur to you. If you’re sitting around trying to dream up a great art idea, you can sit there a long time before anything happens. But if you just get to work, something will occur to you and something else will occur to you and something else that you reject will push you in another direction. Inspiration is absolutely unnecessary and somehow deceptive. You feel like you need this great idea before you can get down to work, and I find that’s almost never the case." - Chuck Close[/color]
"The advice I like to give young artists, or really anybody who’ll listen to me, is not to wait around for inspiration. Inspiration is for amateurs; the rest of us just show up and get to work. If you wait around for the clouds to part and a bolt of lightning to strike you in the brain, you are not going to make an awful lot of work. All the best ideas come out of the process; they come out of the work itself. Things occur to you. If you’re sitting around trying to dream up a great art idea, you can sit there a long time before anything happens. But if you just get to work, something will occur to you and something else will occur to you and something else that you reject will push you in another direction. Inspiration is absolutely unnecessary and somehow deceptive. You feel like you need this great idea before you can get down to work, and I find that’s almost never the case." - Chuck Close[/color]
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c.t.,girl - Posts: 1428
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Even better that you are going with your friend... extra support. I will conitnue praying for you and you friend. I will also pray for the pastor that God speaks through him and he understands your situation.
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Hitokiri - Posts: 3475
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As will I.
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shooraijin - Posts: 9927
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I will definatley pray for you. I'll also pray that you feel comfortable telling your pastor about this matter. An please, don't kill yourself. We all like you here.
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I will continue to pray for you. Hope your visit helps.
"A merry heart doeth good like a medicine.." Prov 17:22
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Chrissy, I'll pray that everything goes well, and I want you to know you've allways been in my payers *hugs* I love ya G ^_^
[color="DimGray"]I don't believe that I would die if I saw you face to face;
but that my spirit would become so alive it took my body's place.
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but that my spirit would become so alive it took my body's place.
- Danya[/color]
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I'll keep praying for ya Chris everyday. Stay strong and trust in God we're glad you're seeking out help for your battle.
"You can't sit on the fence when it comes to Jesus, Satan owns the fence." Mark Cahill
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As always I already prayed for you daily Ctgirl and ah what I can says is faith under trials is greater then Gold. Everyone of us ah have the difference trials in life so as such I prays that you would find peace and a healing stream in Christ Jesus.
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Yahshua - Posts: 1698
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thank you guys so much for your prayers! *hugs all* 
today i actually did find peace. for once after so long today i had peace in me. it was like the whole day God was just carrying me to all my classes and to the places i needed to go. today was a happy day...no i was unable to talk to my pastor/math teacher. i asked him if there was a time that i could talk to him and he said sometime tomorrow...so now it's tomorrow...he had a lot of meetings he had to go to today and he's not sure how his schedual is tomorrow...but if he says it again i'll just talk to him at that moment. i know i need to talk to him about this...in someway i kinda get the feeling he's gunna tell me what i already know i have to do...but it's okay. i just know i have to do this...i can feel it. ^^ i know everything's gunna be okay.
today i actually did find peace. for once after so long today i had peace in me. it was like the whole day God was just carrying me to all my classes and to the places i needed to go. today was a happy day...no i was unable to talk to my pastor/math teacher. i asked him if there was a time that i could talk to him and he said sometime tomorrow...so now it's tomorrow...he had a lot of meetings he had to go to today and he's not sure how his schedual is tomorrow...but if he says it again i'll just talk to him at that moment. i know i need to talk to him about this...in someway i kinda get the feeling he's gunna tell me what i already know i have to do...but it's okay. i just know i have to do this...i can feel it. ^^ i know everything's gunna be okay.[color="DarkOrange"]"The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things... hey... the good things don't always soften the bad things; but vice-versa the bad things don't necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant." -11th Doctor
"The advice I like to give young artists, or really anybody who’ll listen to me, is not to wait around for inspiration. Inspiration is for amateurs; the rest of us just show up and get to work. If you wait around for the clouds to part and a bolt of lightning to strike you in the brain, you are not going to make an awful lot of work. All the best ideas come out of the process; they come out of the work itself. Things occur to you. If you’re sitting around trying to dream up a great art idea, you can sit there a long time before anything happens. But if you just get to work, something will occur to you and something else will occur to you and something else that you reject will push you in another direction. Inspiration is absolutely unnecessary and somehow deceptive. You feel like you need this great idea before you can get down to work, and I find that’s almost never the case." - Chuck Close[/color]
"The advice I like to give young artists, or really anybody who’ll listen to me, is not to wait around for inspiration. Inspiration is for amateurs; the rest of us just show up and get to work. If you wait around for the clouds to part and a bolt of lightning to strike you in the brain, you are not going to make an awful lot of work. All the best ideas come out of the process; they come out of the work itself. Things occur to you. If you’re sitting around trying to dream up a great art idea, you can sit there a long time before anything happens. But if you just get to work, something will occur to you and something else will occur to you and something else that you reject will push you in another direction. Inspiration is absolutely unnecessary and somehow deceptive. You feel like you need this great idea before you can get down to work, and I find that’s almost never the case." - Chuck Close[/color]
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c.t.,girl - Posts: 1428
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I'm so glad! Even we don't know each other in person, your one of my best friends, and it mad me so sad to see you that way, i'm glad your better!
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Talame wrote:YAY!Praise be to God!!!
I second that Talame!
Glad to hear that everything is gonna be ok
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<<thank you guys so much for your prayers! *hugs all* today i actually did find peace. for once after so long today i had peace in me. it was like the whole day God was just carrying me to all my classes and to the places i needed to go. today was a happy day...no i was unable to talk to my pastor/math teacher. i asked him if there was a time that i could talk to him and he said sometime tomorrow...so now it's tomorrow...he had a lot of meetings he had to go to today and he's not sure how his schedual is tomorrow...but if he says it again i'll just talk to him at that moment. i know i need to talk to him about this...in someway i kinda get the feeling he's gunna tell me what i already know i have to do...but it's okay. i just know i have to do this...i can feel it. ^^ i know everything's gunna be okay.>>
Oh c.t.,girl! *superglomps her to the floor* I'm so happy! I was so scared and worried for you I barely slept last night! *huggle* Squeeeee, I'm so glad.
today i actually did find peace. for once after so long today i had peace in me. it was like the whole day God was just carrying me to all my classes and to the places i needed to go. today was a happy day...no i was unable to talk to my pastor/math teacher. i asked him if there was a time that i could talk to him and he said sometime tomorrow...so now it's tomorrow...he had a lot of meetings he had to go to today and he's not sure how his schedual is tomorrow...but if he says it again i'll just talk to him at that moment. i know i need to talk to him about this...in someway i kinda get the feeling he's gunna tell me what i already know i have to do...but it's okay. i just know i have to do this...i can feel it. ^^ i know everything's gunna be okay.>>Oh c.t.,girl! *superglomps her to the floor* I'm so happy! I was so scared and worried for you I barely slept last night! *huggle* Squeeeee, I'm so glad.
Think happy thoughts.
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Hugs backc.t.,girl wrote:thank you guys so much for your prayers! *hugs all*
. I'm glad u had an awesome day. I guess all our praying worked. Have a good talk tomorrow and i'll continue prayin. Bye-
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I knew you wouldn't.
You're a child of the King, and they jsut don't destroy themselves. I know how tempting it is. For about two years everything was falling apart in my life- at least that's how it felt. I thought about how easy it would be to just end it all. Then the thought of everyone crying for me drove me to tears. I know how much I'm loved, though I feel as if every hates me. But it's my own blindness. Just think of all you have to live for. You future, husband, children, and God.
Is not God simple amazing?
*Glomps c.t., girl.*
You're a child of the King, and they jsut don't destroy themselves. I know how tempting it is. For about two years everything was falling apart in my life- at least that's how it felt. I thought about how easy it would be to just end it all. Then the thought of everyone crying for me drove me to tears. I know how much I'm loved, though I feel as if every hates me. But it's my own blindness. Just think of all you have to live for. You future, husband, children, and God.
Is not God simple amazing?
*Glomps c.t., girl.*
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Shao Feng-Li - Posts: 5187
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That's great, Chris! I'm still praying for you!
Zar wrote:Praise God for all things awesome. Life ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But sanctify the Lord your God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear:
-- 1 Peter 3:15
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That's great news! I'll keep you in my prayers, ctgirl. I may not be here that much, but it's always good to talk to you. I know we all hate to see you hurting and struggling. I hope the Lord continues to give you peace. You have my prayers.
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the Lord is so good! ^^ Praise You, God, in the highest! for You are good and holy! i thank You, God for everyone here and everywhere! i know these ppl here have been praying for me.(thanks;)) i thank You, God, for this glorious day that You have given to us! i thank you for my other friend dotcult that has been inviting me to go to her youth group!(it was very full of God) i just thank You, Lord, for all things. Amen!
i went with dotcult to her youth group. the youth leader talked about, like, how we need to be carefull of times now and stay focused on Him. he also talked about how we have a reputation as chrisitians and we need to prove that we are as good...and even better than our reputation. then he shared two verses with us...Malachi 4 and Revalations 22:12-17.it was so good. Amen, Lord! and also the worship was amazing! it was a small room with like about 20 or so ppl. everyone in the room was just singing and praising God. i cried of course. lol it was just so...so...so full of God! i'm sooo going again next week!
i went with dotcult to her youth group. the youth leader talked about, like, how we need to be carefull of times now and stay focused on Him. he also talked about how we have a reputation as chrisitians and we need to prove that we are as good...and even better than our reputation. then he shared two verses with us...Malachi 4 and Revalations 22:12-17.it was so good. Amen, Lord! and also the worship was amazing! it was a small room with like about 20 or so ppl. everyone in the room was just singing and praising God. i cried of course. lol it was just so...so...so full of God! i'm sooo going again next week!
[color="DarkOrange"]"The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things... hey... the good things don't always soften the bad things; but vice-versa the bad things don't necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant." -11th Doctor
"The advice I like to give young artists, or really anybody who’ll listen to me, is not to wait around for inspiration. Inspiration is for amateurs; the rest of us just show up and get to work. If you wait around for the clouds to part and a bolt of lightning to strike you in the brain, you are not going to make an awful lot of work. All the best ideas come out of the process; they come out of the work itself. Things occur to you. If you’re sitting around trying to dream up a great art idea, you can sit there a long time before anything happens. But if you just get to work, something will occur to you and something else will occur to you and something else that you reject will push you in another direction. Inspiration is absolutely unnecessary and somehow deceptive. You feel like you need this great idea before you can get down to work, and I find that’s almost never the case." - Chuck Close[/color]
"The advice I like to give young artists, or really anybody who’ll listen to me, is not to wait around for inspiration. Inspiration is for amateurs; the rest of us just show up and get to work. If you wait around for the clouds to part and a bolt of lightning to strike you in the brain, you are not going to make an awful lot of work. All the best ideas come out of the process; they come out of the work itself. Things occur to you. If you’re sitting around trying to dream up a great art idea, you can sit there a long time before anything happens. But if you just get to work, something will occur to you and something else will occur to you and something else that you reject will push you in another direction. Inspiration is absolutely unnecessary and somehow deceptive. You feel like you need this great idea before you can get down to work, and I find that’s almost never the case." - Chuck Close[/color]
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That's great! Thank the Lord, and I'll continue to pray for you!
Zar wrote:Praise God for all things awesome. Life ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But sanctify the Lord your God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear:
-- 1 Peter 3:15
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well my my pastor had plans today but he said he can talk to me tomorrow(1/7) during 2nd period. i'm still doing good. ^^ i've been reading my bible a lot and i've been praying a lot. thanks for the prayers guys! ^^ they've really been helping. *hugs all*
*hugs all*[color="DarkOrange"]"The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things... hey... the good things don't always soften the bad things; but vice-versa the bad things don't necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant." -11th Doctor
"The advice I like to give young artists, or really anybody who’ll listen to me, is not to wait around for inspiration. Inspiration is for amateurs; the rest of us just show up and get to work. If you wait around for the clouds to part and a bolt of lightning to strike you in the brain, you are not going to make an awful lot of work. All the best ideas come out of the process; they come out of the work itself. Things occur to you. If you’re sitting around trying to dream up a great art idea, you can sit there a long time before anything happens. But if you just get to work, something will occur to you and something else will occur to you and something else that you reject will push you in another direction. Inspiration is absolutely unnecessary and somehow deceptive. You feel like you need this great idea before you can get down to work, and I find that’s almost never the case." - Chuck Close[/color]
"The advice I like to give young artists, or really anybody who’ll listen to me, is not to wait around for inspiration. Inspiration is for amateurs; the rest of us just show up and get to work. If you wait around for the clouds to part and a bolt of lightning to strike you in the brain, you are not going to make an awful lot of work. All the best ideas come out of the process; they come out of the work itself. Things occur to you. If you’re sitting around trying to dream up a great art idea, you can sit there a long time before anything happens. But if you just get to work, something will occur to you and something else will occur to you and something else that you reject will push you in another direction. Inspiration is absolutely unnecessary and somehow deceptive. You feel like you need this great idea before you can get down to work, and I find that’s almost never the case." - Chuck Close[/color]
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c.t.,girl - Posts: 1428
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I am sooooo happy to hear that. 
When I feel blue, I start breathing again.
Asdvadz hedut ullah! (W. Armenian, "May God bless you!")
It's cosplay, get used to it.
"A hero need not speak. For when he is gone, the world will speak for him."
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Asdvadz hedut ullah! (W. Armenian, "May God bless you!")
It's cosplay, get used to it.
"A hero need not speak. For when he is gone, the world will speak for him."
"One of the nice things about diseases of the brain is they tend to slip your mind." Colbert
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