Postby c.t.,girl » Wed Nov 10, 2004 9:52 pm
thanks. i'm shaking again. i need to stop cuz it's making me veeeeeeery agitated and i don't want to have my parents see me like this. it's very hard for me to hide how i am. i don't like having to explain these things to my parent cuz i don't always know why i feel the ways i feel, and they'll make it seem like there is something i'm not telling them when i have nothing else to tell them. my mom always thinks that i'm the happiest person. if only she really knew but like i'd every tell her. she doesn't understand me. she had a reeeeeeeeeeally different life than i do now. she never made it to high school. she had kids at the age of 15. whoa i've only told one person that. AAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!! SO MUCH RAGE!!! MUST LET IT GO!!! AAAAAAAAAARGH!!!
yes i do stay up late but i can't help it. even if i laid in bed at an early time, i'd just be laying there with my eyes open and gettin angry for not sleeping when i should be. it would make me so much worse. i usually stay up til like 1 or 2. i can't help it.
[color="DarkOrange"]"The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things... hey... the good things don't always soften the bad things; but vice-versa the bad things don't necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant." -11th Doctor
"The advice I like to give young artists, or really anybody who’ll listen to me, is not to wait around for inspiration. Inspiration is for amateurs; the rest of us just show up and get to work. If you wait around for the clouds to part and a bolt of lightning to strike you in the brain, you are not going to make an awful lot of work. All the best ideas come out of the process; they come out of the work itself. Things occur to you. If you’re sitting around trying to dream up a great art idea, you can sit there a long time before anything happens. But if you just get to work, something will occur to you and something else will occur to you and something else that you reject will push you in another direction. Inspiration is absolutely unnecessary and somehow deceptive. You feel like you need this great idea before you can get down to work, and I find that’s almost never the case." - Chuck Close[/color]