I feel really self-ish doing this, but I know God has been meaning for me to ask for help. This is probably going to sound terrible, I know, but I have been threatining my own life in the past few days. My mom thinks its just a phase, and I'll get through it, but I think I need more than time too heal this. I have been saying aweful things such as: "If she was, I'd jump out a window" or "I'm going to go jump off a cliff now, I'll c'ya in Heaven" or my usual one- "I'm going to go bang my head against the wall and count how many brain-cells I loose." 
I need God's help to get over this. I know that I can do nothing on my own, and I do things because God has planned it that way, but I know that He dosen't want me to be saying such things anymore. I know why I say these things, but my mom refuses to sell my little brother to the Zoo. I have also thought about running away, and never comming back, and saying I'm looking for my birth-mother. I have also been wondering about my birth-mother lately. I am adopted and don't really know much of my birth-parents. I have ofter wondered if they are alright, but it seems as if I can't do something with out relating it to Romania (my birth-country) , my birth-parents, or the fact of being adopted. I know its supposedly a 'blessing' to be adopted, but sometimes I wonder if I'm where I'm suppsoed to be. I also question the authority of my parents, and their purpose. I am pretty sure I could live on my own, but I would not try just quite yet because of my parents. THey're so protective about everything. I had to tell them what this web-site was, and the founder(s) just to post this! well... It's late, and I have school in the morning.
TYVM, (Thank You Very Much)
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