*sigh* I don't like asking people to pray for me. I know that's not a good thing, but I can't help it I feel weak asking for help. I know I should find solace in asking my brothers and sisters in Christ but it is very hard.
Where do I start... My relationships with my parents could be alot better especially with my father who just flew off the handle on me. Luckily I contained myself and acted very calmly towards him for once, which probably made him even angrier. Me and him have always had a rocky relationship. I can tell he doesn't think I repect him or want to be around him. When I confront him with that he always denies it which I know he is only hiding the fact. And while I have to admit sometimes I act like I don't I do respect him, even though he doesn't see that.
My relationships with people outside of school lately have dropped to almost nill. While that isn't neccesarily a bad thing as it's keeping me from...influences, I know I'm becoming more reclusive. I need to find people that won't lead me down a path I know is the opposite direction Christ wants me to be in. I don't know where to look my school isn't that big and I'm finding it hard to break out of the groups I've been in since freshman year. I just don't know...very confused right now.
I know the Lord helps those who help themselves but I need some guidance. I feel like I don't know anything anymore about myself or anything around me for that matter, just very confused.
Thanks