[SIGPIC][/SIGPIC]I remember that one fateful day when Coach took me aside. I knew what was coming. "You don't have to tell me," I said. "I'm off the team, aren't I?" "Well," said Coach, "you never were really ON the team. You made that uniform you're wearing out of rags and towels, and your helmet is a toy space helmet. You show up at practice and then either steal the ball and make us chase you to get it back, or you try to tackle people at inappropriate times." It was all true what he was saying. And yet, I thought something is brewing inside the head of this Coach. He sees something in me, some kind of raw talent that he can mold. But that's when I felt the handcuffs go on.
cbwing0 wrote:Anyway, I think you can tell some things about a person by their physical appearance, at least when you meet them in person. Most people aren't very good at hiding their emotions, so seeing them can tell you a lot.
Volt wrote:I thought it'd be nice to all start posting pix of real poeple as our avatars rather than characters whom we subconciosly begin to act like. I already started
EireWolf wrote:Do you wear a pointy hat and a blue robe, Technomancer? I'd like to see that.
EireWolf wrote:I can just see you prancing around in a blue bathrobe and a birthday-party hat...
Yojimbo wrote:I used to be very very self concious of myself. Of how I acted, how I looked, how people perceived me. I've gotten alot better, but still every now and then I can't help it and I get very nervous. It is also doesn't help that I'm really insecure about people's attitudes towards me. I always have the feeling people are gonna screw me over in some way eventually. I know that this isn't always true and I have gotten better at not thinking this way, but it's still very hard sometimes.
Volt wrote:I can't do it...
I had to take down my pic. sorry
When I said earlier I had this thing with my image, it's a serious childhood thing.
I just don't , I can't...
I don't like myself physically , there i said it.
becasue of the past. when i was a little kid, if you really want to know how bad i was hurt emotionally take a look at this pic, it's about a year old.
I was so self concious and had such low self esteam that I always looked down, when I sat in a chair I tried as hard as I could to curl up, to be noticed less, and that's the result of everything.
as a kid I thought i was so... U.g.l.y.
It's hard, to look in the mirror and say "I like myself today" I never did that. I always avioded the mirror. I always avioded taking pictures of myself, and if I was in a picture I never smiled
I had acne and tried everything over 12 different solutions. I resorted to Sand Paper and Lemon Juice. Something that burns beyond any pain i've had. And I did it still.
I don't like people looking at me. I get nervious and start crying, even at this age. all those things from the past come back. and it's hard to forget.
I went through a lot of pain to straighten my back. Using muscles in back i hadn't used all my life. It was very painful, but I finally straightened it out, I just have a month to go.
My acne's going away slowly. And I'm begining to heal all those childhood problems. In the near future I'll be ready. and I'll be able to walk around the mall, school, like a normal person. But until then, I just can't. That's why I replaced my Avatar with another animated one only moments after everyone saw this thread.
I made this thread because I thought i was ready... but then... i guess not yet. God's still healing things up inside
Link Antilles wrote:Besides, the only current picture of me is on my license...err.. which I think it would be kind of illegal to scan. Heh, no matter, I hate that picture anyways.
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