Postby Nightshade X » Mon Sep 13, 2004 1:26 am
UPDATE: Apparently, she went home a little while ago. It would seem that things are ok again, except that she's now living with a man who's considerably older than her (at least 20 years, from what I've heard so far). I guess she views him as a rescuer from her previous lifestyle. Admittedly, I am a bit jealous. I mean, she could have said something to me at least once... But that's beside the point. I thank God that, at least, she's alive and maybe well. Everything seems to be ok, but her current living situation does seem to present a danger in my eyes. Please pray that if this path does not lead her to where God wants her, that she would know and act on it.
As for me... I'm happy that she's ok. I am a bit jealous... and a tad heartbroken... I guess I wanted so badly to be her hero that my vision got clouded. I ask for God's forgiveness on that one. I've felt so hopelessly attached to her for so long... I guess my affection toward her just grew into something that I couldn't control. Thankfully, our Lord has been working with me and, finally, I was able to fully let go of my misplaced feelings for her. It was hard, but I now recognize that if we are ever meant to be together again (and this is a near-impossibility), now is definitely NOT the time.
I guess this I need a bit more training in the control of his feelings and emotions. Fortunately, our Lord is faithful and patient. He will take as long as it will take to transform me from a dragon to a knight. One day, I will master these emotions. I just pray that day be sooner than later...
Anyway, thanks for all your prayers. I think it's time I stopped complaining long enough for me to thank you all. ^__^