Anyway, I'm going through some emotions right now concerning my college education. For my first two years my tuition was pretty much paid for. But I've had a few scholarships taken from me (nothing bad) and now I'm kind of short of what I need to finance my education. Compared with the total cost to attend college it's not a lot but compared to my family's financial status it's a cause for concern. I called my school today to see if there were any other scholarships that I could apply/qualify for. I was told that I could write a letter and make a request to my major's department head but actually that sounds to me like a "no."
In addition to being concerned about my educational future I am also battling with jealousy: my roommate from my freshman year has been able to go to college for free (so far). In addition, I learned from a campus event that she was given recognition for receiving another special scholarship (it was for English or something). The reason why I feel jealous is because (in my opinion) she doesn't deserve these scholarships that she's getting; despite how much I tried to be her friend she just made me miserable and nearly ruined my reputation, talking about me behind my back (and smiling in my face), etc., etc. She doesn't even take her free education seriously. I've tried to be more forgiving towards her, especially since I've noticed that I dislike her just as much now than when I actually roomed with her. But the anger is still there.
Anyway, I know that I should rely on God and not man. God has done things in my life before but I'm still (slightly) worried. Even when I try not to admit it the thought still lingers in the back of my mind.
Well, I guess I am asking for prayer. Please pray that God works this situation out and that my jealousy/anger towards my former roommate will be transformed into forgiveness.
