Prayer that I can forgive and traveling

[Kunoichi]

I need some prayers on this situation.

I haven't spoken or seen a part of my family for over 2 years. Over 2 years ago one person of that part of the family said it was my fault I was abused. Obviously it was a very hurtful statement and I've been harboring a lot of anger on this.

He is a follower of Christ and I know he made the comment because he probably felt guilty that he couldn't do anything when I was being abused (no one knew) and because he is human.

I spoke to him today because my mom, her bf and i are supposed to go visit him, my aunt and my 2 cousins. He was being very encouraging in my certification and what not. He was completey different.

It shocked me and I feel very confused and overwhelmed. I do know that he is human and I don't know why I harbored this particular anger so hard when others have said worse to me. I looked at him like father and just hit me hard I guess.

In any case, please pray that I can just let God help me forgive myself (for all the anger I harbored) and to forgive him to end this chain.

[Midori]

I'll be praying.

[Midknight74012]

Matthew 5:23-24 Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there in front of the alter. First go and be reconciled to your brother, ; then come and offer your gift.

Talking about it with your relative is better then bottling it up and blowing sky high at the drop of a hat. When you visit that person, talk about it with that person, face-to-face, don't get anyone else involved. Trust me, I bottled up my anger against my stepsister till I eventually blew it, and she immediately got my father involved. While it wasn't comfortable talking about all the stuff she did that she could have done better, it resulted in my forgiving of her and also revealed my flaws in my character. I thought I could simply overlook it but my father made it clear I didn't. So, talk about it face-to-face, it yields better results then bottling it up.

[Tsukuyomi]

I'll be praying as well ^^

Forgiveness is one of those things that is easier said then done, but it can be done ^^ Try talking to this person and let him know how that made you feel.Then, see where things go from there ^^

[Kunoichi]

Thank you for prayers x

[Aedin]

I'll definetely pray.

[Adie]

I'll be praying~

[Kunoichi]

Thank you all. Updating this also, they still don't know why I am ill yet so still needing prayer on wisdom for this. I am on the strongest dose of morphine they have among other symptoms that impair daily functioning. Thanks!