More Loneliness

[Cloud500]

Earlier this month I posted a thread about how I was having trouble with friends. Well, now you could say that I don't really have any friends anymore. No one responds to my phone calls or messages. I did get a call last night but I wasn't really sure how to respond(because I had been ignored for almost a week and a half) so I let it go to my voice mail. The message was just asking me if I was doing anything fun that night and I heard another one of my friends in the background. The two of them are dating but still they don't usually exclude me from many things even when they're just hanging out. And we usually all do something on Halloween. Anyway, I felt bad for purposely missing the call so I sent a message back saying that I was sorry I had missed their call and so far I haven't gotten a reply from anyone. I'm guessing everyone has just moved on.

I try every single day to make friends at school, but nothing is working out. I talk to people but it never really goes anywhere. Last week I did get an e-mail from someone who I had known in elementary and middle school who had seen my name in an e-mail from a teacher we both have at college. I hoped maybe I'd finally be able to meet new people and reconnect with old friends but I haven't heard from her since last Wednesday. I just feel so alone. I'm surrounded by people all day but alone at the same time. My school work load is piling up because I'm so preoccupied with trying to sort out all of this. I don't enjoy doing/watching/reading any of the things I used to like. I keep feeling more and more empty.

I constantly pray about this and am trying to grow closer to God. I haven't been to church lately because I don't really seem to get that much out of my parents' church. I think that my mom would be very angry if I told her I wanted to go to a different church. Even though everyone in my family is a Christian we still rarely talk about religion. Sure we pray before we eat every night, go to church, practice good morals,etc... but we never get into any deep spiritual conversations. We have tons of Bibles in our house but no one ever really reads them. I've been trying though.

Any prayers would be greatly appreciated. I just want things to get better. I'm not entirely sure I've ever really felt "at peace" so to speak. I know things aren't ever going to perfect, but there's usually a happy medium. I'm having trouble just finding that.

[fairyprincess90]

I'm praying for you.

Know that you're never truly alone if you have God. He's there for you and He knows your feeling of loneliness. Think about every time one of His creations turns their back on Him and how He feels so rejected and forgotten. He's there with you and He loves you more than any human on this earth ever can and ever will.

I understand your feelings of loneliness so I'm not just speaking from my mouth (or typing with my fingers haha) but speaking from my heart. I was never popular..I had about 1 friend and we fell apart, but now are trying to get back together but she's got a "boy" now and is kind of pushing me to the side. It really hurts, I know. But, do your part, be a good friend, love God..and eventually things will get better.

If you feel led to go to a different church then follow that feeling. Sit down with your parents maybe and explain that you want to find a church that feeds you and that it's not because you "dislike" their church..but that you need something different and that everyone is different and needs some things that others do not. Try to get them to understand. Pray about before you talk to them.

Hope this helps just a bit..and hopefully more.

You're in my prayers. ::hug::

[Tsukuyomi]

I'll be praying ^^ Just hang in there and give it some time ^^ There can be many reasons why they haven't replied ^^ Just try to think positive 8D

[Cloud500]

Thanks, everyone.

[Mr. SmartyPants]

May sound like a flippant answer, but hear me out.

Get into college. In college you will find your fair share of idiots, but you will also find many of those thinker-types. People that can sit and discuss things like theology for hours. If that's what you want, you gotta push yourself in that direction! Get into a place that harbors those things!

[goldenspines]

I don't think he wants to discuss theology, Ryan. I think he just wants to know people he can hang out with. XD
College is a good place to meet people. It's much more diverse than high school ever was, so you may meet a good share of people with your same interests.

Also, I echo what Fairyprincess mentioned.

Concerning the church thing, if you can somehow get a ride (or if you have a car), you are 18 and considered an adult, you can make your own choices. Just sit down with your parents and tell them how you feel. How you aren't really getting anything from their church and it's not helping your relationship with God any, so you'd like to try a different one. As you grow up, you have to learn to make your faith your own and not your parents and if that involves going to a different church, then so be it. ^_^
But considering you haven't been to church lately, your parents may be happy you at least go to church, even if it's not their's.

I'll be praying.

[Mr. SmartyPants]

I don't think he wants to discuss theology, Ryan. I think he just wants to know people he can hang out with. XD

I'm sure regardless of what he wants to converse with, be it theology or deep spiritual matters, college is diverse enough to find like-minded people. That would also probably fall within the realm of "hanging out" anyway.

[RandomBurrito]

Hey, I know what you mean. When I was younger I had such a hard time keeping friends. Alot of them were older than me and it was really hard to relate to anyone. I'm such a social person so it was really hard on me. But I thank The Holy Spirit for giving me good friends now that I can relate to and hang out with. You'll get there, keep praying and trusting in God. And don't forget that The Holy Spirit is your ULTIMATE Best Friend! God bless! I'll pray for you! ^_^

[Spector]

Psalm 27:10
Praying...

[RandomBurrito]

That's a good verse for example. GOD bless!!!

[animeguild53]

i'll be praying as well.. i kinda understand for i experienced being left behind by my friends.. the feeling of reaching out yet noone seems to be interested on doing the same way as you do.... hehe... but it's fine... please understand them.. and don't get stuck with loneliness for it might engulf you... instead, don't get tired... reach out.. talk... open up... be joyful that you still have your friends with you even though sometimes you feel you are invisible... [do not depend on feelings!].. and one more thing, every emptiness can only be filled by JESUS CHRIST... HE loves you! GODbless ne...