Im rather frustrated at the moment. Over the years many things have happened, and I have become MUCH srtonger in my walk because of it...
But as of late, random stressful things have been happening fast, and not only that, but Im stuck in the biggest rutt in my life. I couldnt even begin to describe it, but Im going NOWHERE...and I mean that honeslty. Because I have a HUGE drive and longing to go out and do what God made me to do, but because of random things, mainly the economy, me and my whole family are doing nothing but work to survive., and making no proggress in anything.
Ive tried making some Christian music, a gift I guess I have from God, but I cant make crap. I dont even really have any other gifts that I think I could use, but I KNOW im supposed to do somthing! I cant feel like I can give back to the Lord, and even feel like ALL of my personal dreams are impossible. I wanted a girl, and I could be more hopless. I wanted to go to Japan, but I cant even afford a car. I wanted to have many friends, but I cant even get out of the house. Ive never really ever wanted "fancy" things, like a big house or a fast car, but I never wanted the opposite.
Ill stop now...