porn, college, money, and God (Road of few's 2nd prayer update thread)

[Roz]

I'm praying for you. Hang in there.

What you are working for in your relationship with God will so be worth it! I can't even describe how worth it. Keep your eyes fixed on the goal (Jesus)!

You can do this!

[K. Ayato]

We're all rooting for you, dude. Keep it up!

[roadoffew]

UPDATE
well for the past few days it's been a little mixed when it comes to the images on the net. Someday I'll let a few you tube videos catch my eye, other days I catch myself when the feeling sets in and I'll step away from the computer.

I've had a few good sociable times with people this week so that's good. Trouble is I don't know if I do things right. Sometimes there seems to be connections but other times I wonder if I'm doing something wrong. Not saying that the others involve are doing anything to make me feel this way. It's just sometimes I wonder if I'm doing enough to be an impact or if I'm talking too much about my self or my opinions.

A e-mail from my mom made me a little upset today. She had some advice on job searching and one point she made was getting a hair cut. I have pretty long hair (to the bottom of my neck). If all I was looking for was jobs and restaurants or fast-food chains I'd understand that being something that makes employers overlook me. But anything else that just seems to ridiculous. And just the thought put me in a not so good mood this morning.

[MitsukiTenshi]

I think that the end to all bad addiction is when you ask yourself if you are truly happy. For me it would be like getting addicted to a game but after while I would quit because of lack of interest.

So each time when you have the urge to break your promise

ask yourself that if you do it will you be truly happy

Or is it just a filler for the moment?

Because like when I'm playing the game, sure it can be fun but...

Is nothing compared to the thought of making a friend of mine happy

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For your mom: I think that she was just trying to help. But that's the real world. As much as we wish it was different. People judge by looks, even experts say that first impression counts.

[roadoffew]

Update

I went on a ecchi search and a few hours later I get info that my sister more than likely is thinking of divorce from her husband. Simply put I'm broken right now. That's all I have the energy to say at 1:11am.

[animewarrior]

Be praying friend. I wish I could help more in some way. May God be with you.
-animewarrior

[roadoffew]

Update

Well maybe it's the news that my sister is getting a divorce and that she seems to think of it as a really good thing, maybe it's something else. But I'm slipping back into traps again. I went to a hentai based paged today. A few minutes later I wasn't so sure what to do. So I decided to look up website blocker software. Turns out firefox has one. After a few attempts I was able to get it to block all websites that I normally visit and even blocked it's sub pages. Now all need it to figure out a password that is long and impossible to remember by me.

*checks something*

I'm a little depressed more now. I wrote a poem/lyrical piece on facebook notes based on my anger/sorrow over my sister getting a divorce. well my sisters reaction was "WOW This is really good. Going to put it to music?" I not sure she realizes it's about her and her husband. Maybe the lyrics are too obscure. It's basically a point of view that at first seems to agree with the idea but as it goes along all it talks about puts everything in a bad light.
here, tell me what you guys think. I'll post it in my poem thread and let you see it. I won't post it here because this is a prayer thread not a "review my work" thread.