lol, sorry for all the... on and off-ness. D:
well, I'm sure there're some people who're aware of my thought stickies, and for those of you not, they're... what they sound like. XD thoughts that stick and won't go away. And are always unpleasant.
well, of course, they've gotten worse. and I finally broke and talked to a friend about it IRL, and I think she's given me an answer. She thinks I might have something akin to OCD, and advises me to tell my parents and see if I can get a psychologist or something to help me with my problem.
so.. pretty much, I've had this problem in my head for two years, something that's been in my mind every day, given me headaches, sadness, kinda sorta really messed up my life big time... and I finally have an actual answer that might actually fix me.
The only thing is that I need to tell my parents first though. I want to tell my brother, and I'm hoping he'll help me with telling my parents, but I still need the courage to tell him.
So IN A CINCH, please pray for:
courage to tell.
that this is the answer that will fix me.
and also, praise that someone knows exactly what I'm going through and can help me. 'cause I'm really feeling hope for this problem now.