Need to straighten my prioritys...

[Spector]

...Never was good at spelling.
Anyways, I don't usually make a similar post before the last ones even off the first page, but this is still on my mind allot.

I go back and forth allot in my mind about 2 things: God and girls.
It's the base of a whole mess of problems, but in short, I contradict myself. I know God is way more important than the most Godly relationship, but when I when I try to read my bible, it's usually to try and convince myself I need a girl.
When I try and focuse on finding a girl, I get guilty and do things..read my bible..
I can sense how little time is left here, and try to get myself to focuse on God, but that feeling also just makes me long for companionship even more. I CAN tell you I have every right to feel that way, having little to no friends for the past 5 years, let alone a girlfriend, but then it makes me realize it the reason why is to focuse more on God.

I could go on and on about it all, but my I-Pod battery is low. It's just kinda depressing knowing that the only accessable church doesn't have my age group at ALL, and the few friends I have had the mindset of getting me "smahed" and laid on 21th birthday. Not to mention my whole familys working so don't loose what little we have.

I may have seemed to ramble, but my point is that in the mist of all this heartache lonliness and desperation, I wish you to pray that I get my focuse on what I should focuse on: God, and not girls.

Sorry for the rambling.

[Midori]

I'm praying for you, Spector! Keep in mind that the perfect girl to marry is one such that when you are together, you are both closer to God. If being with a girl causes you to stray from God, then she might not be meant for you. Marriage is, among other things, an illustration of our ideal relationship with God. I pray that God will give you the courage and vigilance to keep searching for him, wherever he may lead you.

[Roz]

Well put Midori.

For lack of a better way to put this (bashing head against the wall).... if God has a wife for you Spector, He will show her to you in His perfect timing. He knows what you're going through. Maybe God is grooming your "special person" right now for your relationship together.

Hang in there! I'm praying for you.

[Roz]

Ugh, why do things I try to say nicely, that make sense to me, sound so harsh when I read it later.

Sorry if I butted in.

[12praiseGOD]

Praying for ya!