Back Pain and past Troubles

[Kunoichi]

Kamille, thankyou brother!

So its ok for me to be a little sad right? That makes me feel better that even great men like Peter and Paul got phased and yes, I believe that this will lead to God's glory.

I called out of work today. I am not sure if this disease will disable me but I know even if I can't get out of bed a lot, I know i can do things for the Lord. I praise Him and place my trust in Him.

ON a praise report: Matt, my hubby, continues to grow in the Lord. He said something the other day, that I know can only be from God and the Spirit that is now inside him. I just praise God so much because Matt never even went to church (did until he was 4 years old cuz parents are non practicing catholics) but its such a blessing. Please continue to pray for him too as he grows

[Shilohan ninja]

I will pray for the both of you. In the mean time, keep praying and reading the word. Remember, Rome wasn't built in a day. This may take time.
It's not wrong to want something big, just remember that big things usually start out small. Every tree must start as a seed and no forest fire starts without the first little flame being lit. Even so, do not dispare. The wait will only strengthen you and build character. Stay the course and don't lose sight of the goal. Just remember to jump the hurdles on the way.
And keep trusting in the Lord, our God.
God bless you, sister.
-Jordan-

[Kunoichi]

Update: going to the hospital today..pain doubled what it was yesterday. I can't take the pain anymore. Please pray

[Shilohan ninja]

Father in Heaven, I come before you on Kelly's behalf and pray that, for her sake, that your healing rain wash over her today. Surround her with your supernatural peace and give her strength to endure this trial. I pray peace, patients and wisdom over the doctors and specialists as they work to find the cause of this disease and cure it. I pray your spirit flow through that hospital room and through Kelly's family to bring comfort and joy to them all. I pray that this seed you have planted in her husband will grow through this experience and draw him closer to you. I speak conviction and repentance over the person who has done this to her; let him see the error of his ways and experience you in a way that will change him forever. Let your will be done in Kelly's situation and give her the patients and peace to accept the out come, whatever it may be.
May your kingdom rain forever, on earth and in Heaven.
In the name of your Holy son, Jesus,
Amen
-SN-

[Kunoichi]

thankyou for the prayer ^_^

Update: Discharged me after giving me morphine. Dx was Chronic myalgias (aka fibromyalgia) strongly recommends me to see rhuem. but i have to see their follow up doc before he will referr me. So at least i have a dx now. And this doc (the follow up) should be able to prescribe pain meds

My mom doesn't understand..and doesn't accept the dx. She basically thinks I am making to be bigger than it is (or so it seems) but that is her M.O., she doesn't accept my trials...I don't know why. Please pray that I might be able to not let this get me down and just love her regardless (I love her, but i mean without resentment or anger at this fact) thankyou

[Shilohan ninja]

Excellent! I take it the new meds are working now, yes?

Your mom just doesn't understand your situation, it sounds like. I take it she's never been throught something like this, am I right? Are you part of a support group or something right now?

Sorry about all the questions. Just trying to piece together the puzzle so I know how to better pray for you and your family. Keep us posted and hang in there, sister.

"I am with you to the very end of the age." -God

Get well soon. Godbless.
-SN-

[Kunoichi]

I don't have any pain meds for today (ER doc can't prescribe me any) told me take tyenol which doesn't do a thing

I'm learning more about this disease and trying to get good info on it. I trust in the Lord and know he will help me in my troubles. My husband understands it and we had a good talk about it. He ..he showed me his love so much with what he said and what he does. It is a blessing

mom just doesn't like to hear it. She doesn't understand and that's ok. She doesn't have to.

[Kamille]

ON a praise report: Matt, my hubby, continues to grow in the Lord. He said something the other day, that I know can only be from God and the Spirit that is now inside him. I just praise God so much because Matt never even went to church (did until he was 4 years old cuz parents are non practicing catholics) but its such a blessing. Please continue to pray for him too as he grows

Yeah! :jump::hug:

What a beautiful report. All praise and glory be to the Lord our God who loves us so much that He sent His one and only Son into the world so that we might live through Him (1 John 4:9). This report makes me so happy, but more importantly, may God continue to bless Matt into Christian maturity. This will mean he must face some trials (read my second sig), but may he rejoice in the maturing of His faith in Christ.

All praises and thanks be God who heals all of our diseases:

Praise the LORD, O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits-
who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,
who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.
-Psalm 103:2-5

Always praying for you and your family (including your mom),
Kamille

[Shilohan ninja]

I don't have any pain meds for today (ER doc can't prescribe me any) told me take tyenol which doesn't do a thing

I'm learning more about this disease and trying to get good info on it. I trust in the Lord and know he will help me in my troubles. My husband understands it and we had a good talk about it. He ..he showed me his love so much with what he said and what he does. It is a blessing

mom just doesn't like to hear it. She doesn't understand and that's ok. She doesn't have to.

That's great news...about your hubby, I mean. I hope and pray that he will, indeed mature in the faith, for both your sakes.
I'm still praying for your condition and that the docs will wise up and find something to ease your pain durring this process.
As for your mother, I am praying that she will come to accept you and whatever has transpired up 'till now.
May the Lord live in and through you bountifully until the stars rain down from the heavens. The faithfullness of the Lord endures forever.
Godspeed, Kelly, and may He grant you blessings, always.
-SN-

[Aedin]

All I can comment on right now is there's nothing wrong with what you've been doing Kuno.

[Kunoichi]

update:

talked to work today and they are understanding..they know its on a day to day basis. and know that this could affect work for me

I am in quite a bit of pain today...biggest hurdle was i kept shaking and had trouble walked (felt like i was drugged all day)

[Shilohan ninja]

I'm still praying for you, Kelly. Thank God you have an understanding employer! Man I wish I had a job right now.
Anywho, hang in there, sister. Keep trusting in Him who gives you strength. Godspeed.
-SN-

[Kunoichi]

Not sure how long i will have a job lol

Pain is about 6 out of 10 today so I'm not in a flare up but I'm not sleeping well at all. Please pray

[Kamille]

May God grant you peace and rest on all sides.

[Kunoichi]

The more that I seem to worry about my job and finances (I have a lot of financial stuff) well God just reassures me. I still see it as a concern..afterall, I have bills to pay and I'm not at all sure how I'm going to do it if I can't work (I will try my hardest but its hard with the amount of pain and lack of sleep), but God is faithful.

My other concern and it really has been brought on by the devil is whether God can use a disabled person to do great things for Him. (I see great being anything that He does and whatever He wills). My family (it seems) feels like I am just "giving up" due to this illness but I'm not. At the same time, I am not going to push myself thru excrutiating pain to work if I feel that God wants me to do something else or concentrate elsewhere. I don't know. Advice and encouragement would be helpful.

On a praise report: Matt and I have started to read the Word together starting tonight. I pray we will keep up this routine as I have a knack for starting something but rarely finishing. Please pray earnestly that we would continue as I think its going to be very important not just for a life but especially in the months to come as I battle this.

[Kunoichi]

update: 2 hours of sleep last night..calling out of work again

[MangArtist]

I'm still praying, sis. =)

[Kunoichi]

Pain has increased two fold..i can't stand it..please pray..i have no strength to deal with it..please pray

[SailorDove]

Dear Jesus,

I agree in prayer with everyone to please heal Kunoichi's back. Please remove the pain and help her & her husband with everything else their dealing with. In your name we pray,
Amen

[Shilohan ninja]

There is a God who loves me,
who wraps me in his arms;
That is the place where I'm changed,
that's where I belong
So take me to that place, Lord
to that secret place where I can be with you and you can make me like you
Wrap me in your arms
wrap me in your arms
wrap me in your arms

Father, wrap our sister, Kelly, in your loving, heeling arms of love. Thank you for blessing her with a lover and an employer who are caring and understanding. Bring you divine wisdom to the rest of Kelly's family and to the doctors and specialists she is working with, that they might bring her comfort and heeling and joy in this deep valley through which she is walking. Father, give her peace about her finances, let her know that you will provide everything she needs. Bring people across her path that will be a blessing to her. Let her know that you are still there with her every step of the way. I pray this all in the mighty name of your son, Jesus,
Amen.

Godspeed, Kelly. I am praying, always.
-SN-

[Kunoichi]

SN and sailor dove,

first thankyou for your prayer. I am learning that prayer and talking with the Lord becomes one of my favorite things to do...even if I am undisciplined and don't do it often.

I do not know the Lord's plans, who can? I just know he is here. I am scared, I am depressed at times and I am a weak human being. But I know even though I am all those things, God is greater than it all. Yea, i'll admit I'm scared about my finances...unfortunately it is a weak spot for me..and yes being poor again scares me..but god is gentle in his rebuke's and loving in his admonishments.

My pain is increasing and fluctuating...no sleep still...I trust in the Lord. Amen

[Shilohan ninja]

Dear sister, you speak the truth. And I comend your humility in all of this. That takes guts to admit you mess up, but it's healthy.

Dearest Father in Heaven, thank you for raining down your piece and love and joy upon our sister and giving her the wisdom to trust in you and to continue pursuing a deeper relationship with you. I praise you for all that you have done to remind her of you presence in everything that is happening right now. I ask that your heeling rain continue to fall upon Kelly, that she will be able to rest easier so she may continue to get better. Thank you and praise you for all that you do and keep doing. I pray this in the name of Jesus, Amen. May it be so!
-SN-

[Kunoichi]

Hey Sn,

thank you as always for your steadfast prayer *smile

Almost passed out today just trying to get my bird of a perch. Black rushed in and my head got warm real quick. I feel nauseas and like a couple Trucks hit me. sigh* I know that my complaints must get tiresome but I still humbly ask for your prayers. Thankyou

Kelly

[Abassi]

Though I've never posted, I've been praying for you since you started this thread, actually since before this thread...since about your first thread posted in the prayer room...

Just wanted you to know, been praying for, intend to keep praying. I find your faith and courage awe-inspiring.

[Kunoichi]

abassi, ty for continuing to pray for my behalf. *smile I am glad that my testimony has give you some hope

please tho..i am no one but dust. My God showed be who is given glory. I just tell my story to any who ask.

[Shilohan ninja]

That's our role in this life, dear sister. Tell our story, sew the seeds of hope, and point the way to everlasting life. That is our purpose. May the Lord, alone be exhaulted!

Though, I must agree with abassi, your story is an inspiring one I'll not soon forget. The Lord bless you and keep you, always, dear Kelly. Amen.
-SN-

[Kunoichi]

Update:

Pain was mroe then ever last night. Even worse then when i was paralyzed. I cried all night due to the amount of pain I was in. And that takes a lot for me to do. I'm more than exhausted due to the pain.

Please pray for my husband, I keep waking him up at night due to the pain (He helps massage my body cuz that helps a little). I just pray that he has strength.

*hugs to all and God bless

[Kunoichi]

update:

yesterday, I had some more symptoms. I could barely walk due to lack of balance (I almost fell more than five times) I blacked out 2 times and almost fell due to that. I actually did get a little bit of sleep last night but I was EXTREMELY tired all day yesterday.

[Abassi]

...

Praying hard for ya. ó_ò

[Shilohan ninja]

Father in heaven,
Thank you that Kelly has stayed close to you steadfastly, even through the pain. Thank you for blessing her with a husband who loves her enough to stay awake with her to ease the pain. I ask right now that you give them both strength and peace in this storm. I pray again that you would supernaturally heel our sister and free her from the pain for good. Do not abandon her, oh Lord. Consoul her with your holy spirit.
May your name be glorified in all of what is happening.
In the name of Jesus,
Amen.
-SN-