Postby Hana Ryuuzaki » Thu Jul 10, 2008 9:44 pm
[font="palatino Linotype"]Oh, guys, thanks SO much. *hugs everyone tightly*
*sighs* Apparently, all my stress has caused a possible ulcer. I'll be going in to have an endoscopy (camera-tube shoved down my throat) done to find out what it is...
Well, I don't know what it is, really, but even though a birthday is supposed to be a happy and cheerful event, I don't feel all too excited about mine coming up soon.
Even though I HAVE been going to a therapist, I feel like I'm going back into a recession now. It's scaring me. My subconscious is starting to talk about knives and wounds again....I can't stand all the pain I'm seeing again.
Some more things have happened with Dad, and he's on more (and more harmful) medication.
If it came to a decision, I ask everyone to pray for my Dad instead of myself.
I can get over my depression in some way, but his back is never going to heal again.
*bows*
Please.
It's scaring me now. He's falling asleep at the wheel of the car (and almost got me and him into a wreck again), and he's forgetting a lot of things.
It feels like he's not really all there anymore.
This (of course) is making me more worried about him, and depressed that I can't do anything at all.
Sometimes, I just want to scream at someone, to break down and cry my heart out to someone.
"But," I think to myself, "Would it really be worth it?"
((*laughs* I feel like I'm just rambling on about all this. I shouldn't have told anyone about my problems in the first place...))[/font]
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