Im starting to feel like an after thought...

[VEGETA]

Ok i found out monday that i have to get a surgery in my face. My tear duct is blocked and is prone to very bad infections that could cause me to lose my vision.

So i go to tricare to get my referal for a surgeon at Lackland Airforce Base and they tried to...engage in unwnated sexual relations. They listed me as tricare standard which means i can get disocunts on prices from a civie doctor but i cannot get treatment from the military period.

Im supposed to be tricare prime which means i get treatment from military doctors and the civie discount too.

Well its been about a week since i got the news right?

So my fiancee is ALWAYS tired and exhuatsed by the time we get to be togethor in private. It really frustrates me.

We cant really talk, its so one sided and she always ends up going to bed and i end up being frustrated and feeling like an after thought.

Its starting to feeling like a void is forming between us because this is a very hard time for me from my previous Its so frustrating and it just plain out SUCKS!!!!!(sorry if im not supposted to say the hoover word).

We have been togethor for 4 years. Have been through many pains and trials. Delt with a lot of harsh stuff including her being raped and i dont want the thing that causes a rift to be this.

I dont know what to do. I mean i know i need to talk to her but the deal is im used to being the protector or whatever. Im supposed to be the strong soldier and the pillar of strength that cannot be shaken. Im supposed ot be her protector and i feel like in a way im letting her down or failing her by letting something this stupid become an issue.

I have the army trying to give me the old run around an di dont even have her there in the way i need her.

[Spirit_Wolf8356]

If I were you, I'd talk to her. If I were her, I'd want you to talk to me. ^_^ I know what it feels like to be an afterthought. Not in a relationship like that, but I do know how it feels. Just for, like, random thing, if she's tired, maybe you could like, rub her back or something to soothe her and stay sorta close that way. *shrugs* When I'm tired, I like having my shoulders and forehead rubbed. Mostly by my daddy. I don't know if I helped or not, or if I'm completely being an idiot, but I hope I did help.

Good luck with your surgery.

[CDLviking]

This is far outside my range of experience, so I have no advice or wisdom to share with you, but I truly hope that things work out for you with both your fiancee and the tricare fiasco. I think it is truly shameful how we treat our own soldiers sometimes.

[VEGETA]

This is far outside my range of experience, so I have no advice or wisdom to share with you, but I truly hope that things work out for you with both your fiancee and the tricare fiasco. I think it is truly shameful how we treat our own soldiers sometimes.

I can deal with the tricare thing. I will be destroyed. I will literaly die on the inside if i lose ML.


edit: hit post on accident.

[Link Antilles]

The trial and tribulations of life don't seem to end, eh? All I can offer is some prayer support for both of you. You can make it through this.

[VEGETA]

Yeah its like as soon as i start to feel like life is going allright, somethign horrible happens.

[Link Antilles]

Yeah its like as soon as i start to feel like life is going allright, somethign horrible happens.

Yeah, like a rollercoaster from the hot place. I think my personal quote kinda fits this: "Peace between Wars is only a time to reload for the next conflict." - Old friend of mine.

If it makes you feel any better, you have my respect (and many others) for joining the millitary. *salutes*

[Bobtheduck]

Well, I'll pray things go better in your life. It sucks that the millitary is screwing you over after you'd served your country. It sounds like you've had a hard time.

[VEGETA]

No one said an infantrymans life was an easy one. I just cant lose her over something like this. I cant lose her over anything. I love her so much.

Im going to talk to her next oppertunity i can about this.

[Fsiphskilm]

Dude.

[Locke]

heh, life's like that aint it ?

endure the storm my friend.

"soldiers are always the ones on the frontlines. welcome to the frontline."
someone said this and i think its true

[Haibane Shadsie]

The Lackland Air Force Base hospital? Dude, I've been there.

I have a very deep respect for military people. I respect you for being able to make it through boot... the reason I've been at that hospital on that base was... I went to boot camp for the Air Force there and I was one of the washouts. I... was.. kinda hospitalized in that hospital for suicidalness... during...basic training... and got discharged. Turns out I wasn't strong enough for the military. A lot of people aren't. I have the utmost respect for you because of the crap you've put up with and survived!

It's like.. I have a lot of respect for the average solider, airman, ect... but I don't really have that much love for the higher-ups.. those in charge.. because, well... the crap they give the enlisted folks...

You're a full-fledged soldier and the miltary is still giving you crap! It sounds like you're having a worse time with the medical there than I'm getting with state medical (for the poor) - and that's like pulling teeth to get any kind of help.

Wow.. yeah. I'll pray for you. I can't really give you any relationship advice. I've never been in a seirious relationship.

[VEGETA]

Hey everyone. Thanks for everything.

Marylou and i finaly talked tonight but not about what was bothering me. She cried tonight with me and was uber upset. It made me really realise how lucky i am with her an dhow lucky i am to have her.

She is havign a hard time dealing with the suicide of a close friend.

It really helped though. It may have not been about the issue i was having but she told me how much she loves me. I guess it just made everything i was dealing with seem so unimportant and small and it also let me know that im still just as important to her as ever. God I love her so much. I would die for her in a heart beat.


One thing i have noticed is the younger generation of christians (teenagers and young adults to be specific) seem to appreciate what we do more than the older adults do. Adults spend so much time argueing over politics, foreign policy, weapons of mass destruction. They seem to forget there are men in fatigues carrying a gun out there fighting for their lives. I dunno, i am probably wronge but thats my observation from what i have seen on the internet.

[inkhana]

I am really sorry to hear about all of this happening, VEGETA. But I am glad to hear that you had the opportunity to talk to her and I pray that the both of you will overcome. I also pray that you're able to clear up this medical business...it is really terrible. My grandad has to deal with stuff like that...>.<

On a side note, I would just like to take a moment and voice my appreciation for you and the other soldiers who put their lives on the line to protect our country. Thank you.

[CDLviking]

I'd also like to voice my respect for you, but for a different reason. It is obvious how much you love and care for your fiancee, placing her needs above your own. I respect you as a soldier, but I respect you infinitely more as a man.