This is kind of long, so please bear with me...just need to vent a little...probably will make me feel better.
Friday morning, I woke up and it hit me: I really can never go back to my mom's house. I don't have a home anymore. My dorm is my home now. It also hit me that I can't go retrieve certain items of sentimental value from mom's house (since she sent her friend to get my key)--
Pebbles was with another recipient for a year before I got her--he became bedridden, so they gave her back to the school. Anyway, his mom made a blanket for Pebbles and sent me a letter and it really upset me to realize that I could not go back and get it. Her gift really meant a lot to me. Also, there's a latchhook pillow my old roommate made for me and a latchhook kit I bought to make one to go with it.
I've also been having health issues. My foot is healing well, but it is still painful to walk on and I get tired really quickly. So my dorm is a total sty because I don't have much energy to clean after walking around campus. I really need to clean b/c I think I'm attracting some kind of bugs/mice--something ate a perfect hole through my loaf of bread that gets bigger as you go back--yuck. I wonder how it got through the plastic...
I'm still having stomach pain--the doctor is not sure what it is--I'm on a variety of medicine/treatments to try to get me to feel better. It helps somewhat with the other stomach issues, but not the pain. I go back to see the doctor this week. I'm just worried it may be something serious--I'm tired of surgeries--I don't want another one for a long time (the Achilles tendon surgery was the worst thing I've ever been through physically). I also don't have (or qualify for) health insurance.
I'm worried about so many things. I know worry is wrong--it's just that I have so many trust issues I'm still working through. I find myself incapable of trusting God or my friends sometimes. I fear the future. I don't know where I'll go after I graduate next May. I know it's still a year away--and God will provide somehow in the meantime--there is still so much uncertainty. Will I be able to get a job? If I get a job, how will I get to it (I have no car or money to pay for one)? The university will kick me out of my dorm the day I graduate, so I hope I'll have somewhere to go...
I know God will provide somehow. He has never left me or let me down. There's just a lot on my plate right now. I wish I could just have some time to feel "normal" for a while...I've been having so many mixed feelings lately. It's all so confusing...sometimes I don't know which way is up (or even what day it is.)
I'll be on now and then to see how everyone's doing and to let y'all know how I am. But I'll be on a lot less --I really need to get things straight--spend less time on the computer--I need to get into the Bible study "Lord, I Want to be Whole" --also, I'm taking summer school from May 16 straight through to fall.
I'm also trying to start meeting with an older woman in the church to be mentored. So excited!
Please be in prayer for me. It helps so much to know that I am being prayed for--because sometimes I feel so alone (though I know in my head that I am really not alone). Thank you.
Lots on my mind...could use your prayers...
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Lots on my mind...could use your prayers...
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
"Since the creation of the Internet, the Earth's rotation has been fueled, primarily, by the collective spinning of English teachers in their graves."
"Since the creation of the Internet, the Earth's rotation has been fueled, primarily, by the collective spinning of English teachers in their graves."
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Sheenar - Posts: 2989
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Please pray friends...
I'm feeling a bit better. Stomach still hurts, but I have an appointment on Thursday. I threw up again today. Been feeling nauseous almost every morning (and NO, I am not pregnant--as my doctor jokingly asked me!) Pray for the doctors to have wisdom to figure out what's wrong and how to treat it.
I went through the first session in my Lord, I Want to Be Whole journal. It sure did ask some tough questions, but that is good because it's making me face some things and be honest about them. I think that this study will be good for me--help bring some things to the surface so I can release them to God.
Pray for strength --I've been so tired even though I've been getting enough sleep. I just need rest for my body, my spirit, and my emotions. Pray that I will get that.
Well, now off to write a paper. Wish me luck! (Must go back to the "school things"
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I'm feeling a bit better. Stomach still hurts, but I have an appointment on Thursday. I threw up again today. Been feeling nauseous almost every morning (and NO, I am not pregnant--as my doctor jokingly asked me!) Pray for the doctors to have wisdom to figure out what's wrong and how to treat it.
I went through the first session in my Lord, I Want to Be Whole journal. It sure did ask some tough questions, but that is good because it's making me face some things and be honest about them. I think that this study will be good for me--help bring some things to the surface so I can release them to God.
Pray for strength --I've been so tired even though I've been getting enough sleep. I just need rest for my body, my spirit, and my emotions. Pray that I will get that.
Well, now off to write a paper. Wish me luck! (Must go back to the "school things"
)"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
"Since the creation of the Internet, the Earth's rotation has been fueled, primarily, by the collective spinning of English teachers in their graves."
"Since the creation of the Internet, the Earth's rotation has been fueled, primarily, by the collective spinning of English teachers in their graves."
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Sheenar - Posts: 2989
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i'll totally pray for you, sheenar!!
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chibiphonebooth - Posts: 1975
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I'll pray for you.
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Robin: "If we close our eyes, we can't see anything."
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Robin: "If we close our eyes, we can't see anything."
Batman: "A sound observation, Robin."
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Absolutely praying!
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I'm going back to the doctor today. Pray for wisdom for her and the other doctor to figure out what's wrong.
Also pray that I will have a positive attitude about everything and stop complaining, but instead praise God for the good things that are going on.
Thank you!
Also pray that I will have a positive attitude about everything and stop complaining, but instead praise God for the good things that are going on.
Thank you!
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
"Since the creation of the Internet, the Earth's rotation has been fueled, primarily, by the collective spinning of English teachers in their graves."
"Since the creation of the Internet, the Earth's rotation has been fueled, primarily, by the collective spinning of English teachers in their graves."
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Sheenar - Posts: 2989
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I went to the doctor and they told me to take 2 Prilosec in the morning now and continue with my medicine schedule--they said it would be difficult to figure out what the problem is without running tests (which are expensive without health insurance). So now I am trying to sign up for the health program through the local hospital. Hopefully I qualify. They're going to send me the paperwork in the mail.
Also, I was put on mild antibiotics for my toe. It's pretty painful, but I'm glad that it's not something serious.
Please be praying for this situation with health insurance. Hopefully I'll be able to get on the program so I can have the necessary tests run. Thank you.
Also, I was put on mild antibiotics for my toe. It's pretty painful, but I'm glad that it's not something serious.
Please be praying for this situation with health insurance. Hopefully I'll be able to get on the program so I can have the necessary tests run. Thank you.
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
"Since the creation of the Internet, the Earth's rotation has been fueled, primarily, by the collective spinning of English teachers in their graves."
"Since the creation of the Internet, the Earth's rotation has been fueled, primarily, by the collective spinning of English teachers in their graves."
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Sheenar - Posts: 2989
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Definitely will be praying, I haven't gotten the chance to really get to know along with others but you seem really nice. God will help everything work out for you. God Bless and hang in there.
Some of my favorite scriptures.
Psalm91
A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.
Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.
Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation;
There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.
Hebrews 4-4
1Let us therefore fear, lest, a promise being left us of entering into his rest, any of you should seem to come short of it.
2For unto us was the gospel preached, as well as unto them: but the word preached did not profit them, not being mixed with faith in them that heard it.
3For we which have believed do enter into rest, as he said, As I have sworn in my wrath, if they shall enter into my rest: although the works were finished from the foundation of the world.
4For he spake in a certain place of the seventh day on this wise, And God did rest the seventh day from all his works.
James 4
Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.
Revelation 22:14
Blessed are they that do his commandments, that they may have right to the tree of life, and may enter in through the gates into the city.
Psalm91
A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.
Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.
Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation;
There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.
Hebrews 4-4
1Let us therefore fear, lest, a promise being left us of entering into his rest, any of you should seem to come short of it.
2For unto us was the gospel preached, as well as unto them: but the word preached did not profit them, not being mixed with faith in them that heard it.
3For we which have believed do enter into rest, as he said, As I have sworn in my wrath, if they shall enter into my rest: although the works were finished from the foundation of the world.
4For he spake in a certain place of the seventh day on this wise, And God did rest the seventh day from all his works.
James 4
Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.
Revelation 22:14
Blessed are they that do his commandments, that they may have right to the tree of life, and may enter in through the gates into the city.
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Gabriel 9.0 - Posts: 736
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Definetly praying!
GOD BLESS YOU!!!
GOD BLESS YOU!!!
[color="Red"]If GOD brings you to it, He will bring you through it.- unknown.[SIZE="3"][color="Magenta"][color="Red"][/color][/color][/SIZE]:angel:[/color]
[color="Lime"][color="Lime"]"GOD isn't sitting far away with a magnifying glass, but HE is an ever present GOD" -unknown
-meaning he is with us all the time.[/color][/color]
[color="Magenta"]"If you don't trust your wings, you'll be caught in the mountain."-myself:angel:
meaning- "If you don't trust GOD, you'll be caught in the problem."- myself[/color]
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[color="Red"]"The farthest distance between a problem and a solution, is the distance between your knees and the floor."- unknown.[/color]
[color="Lime"][color="Lime"]"GOD isn't sitting far away with a magnifying glass, but HE is an ever present GOD" -unknown
-meaning he is with us all the time.[/color][/color]
[color="Magenta"]"If you don't trust your wings, you'll be caught in the mountain."-myself:angel:
meaning- "If you don't trust GOD, you'll be caught in the problem."- myself[/color]
[color="Red"]@)}[/color][color="YellowGreen"]-'-,[/color]
[color="Red"]"The farthest distance between a problem and a solution, is the distance between your knees and the floor."- unknown.[/color]
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