General Lust Prayer Thread (WARNING: Mature Content)

[Tigerchu]

I have t fight lust over masturbation and lusting after being "turned on".

[Aleolus]

Don't we all, don't we all. Don't worry, you are not alone, and we will offer all the support you need!

[Taran]

I fell off the wagon this weekend but with Gods help i'll get back and stay on.

[Blitzkrieg1701]

I'm praying for ya'll!

[Htom Sirveaux]

I have, as Taran puts it, "fallen off the wagon" as well recently. It really is like a drug. After so long of going without, it becomes extremely hard to resist anymore. If it were a real drug, it might actually be easier because society would frown upon it. But it seems like the whole world wants me to see and do things that I shouldn't (and at my core, certainly don't even want to).

[Taran]

yeah that exactly like it is for me.

[Aleolus]

Yes, but, also just like a drug, if you can hold out against it through that, then it eases. I can recall one time I went without for almost two months. I think that's my personal best, and when it ended, it wasn't really because I 'needed' to, I had just had a very bad day and needed to let off some stress, and couldn't think of anything better to do.

[K. Ayato]

The thing about overcoming a drug addiction is to find something to do that hinders you from taking in the drug. For example, with smoking, you put something in your mouth, so to counter that you would do something such as chewing gum. With lust, well, you'll have to find something to occupy your heart and mind that inhibits experiencing the (short-lived) pleasures of fulfilling lustful desires.

I'll be praying for you all. Feel free to send a PM my way if you need to vent.

[Okami]

Fell to M last night and again this morning. I've dirtied my fresh start, but I've picked up and dusted off, again. It was awkward talking to my counselor today...took half an hour telling of how wonderful lately has been, then when I had nothing more to say, she decided to bring up "So how have you been doing with the pornography addiction?" 6 months in 18 days, my friends. But lust is stronger than ever now.

Ugh. Words do not describe my sincere HATRED of M. Just as my stepmom told me "Remember the small amount of self-gratifying pleasure will never overcome the surge of afterguilt." She's right. I remember telling myself the past few days "Naaah, I won't be guilty after this." And now, just absolute shame. Yuck.

[Blitzkrieg1701]

Wow. Last night I stumbled over M myself, and was pretty close to giving into P as well (the only thing that held be mack was knowing I had to get up early this morning). Satan seems to be waging war on a unified front right now.

Actually, that's something that's really caught me surprise lately: just how much these lusts really are ATTACKS. My last really bad wave of temptation a few weeks ago actually happened right as I had a LOT of things to do and keep track of. Coincidence that I had something to make me feel guilty and distracted RIGHT then? Yeah rght. And now it's getting really bad again, right as I have TEN TIMES as many things that my attention should be on instead. *sigh* The Devil is mean, ya'll...

[mathgrant]

*nods*

This M thing is evil. I'm back down to day 1, having fallen last night. Gyah, my sexuality's been on fire lately, to say the least. x.x

I hate being a sexual being.

[Aleolus]

Actually, that's something that's really caught me surprise lately: just how much these lusts really are ATTACKS. My last really bad wave of temptation a few weeks ago actually happened right as I had a LOT of things to do and keep track of. Coincidence that I had something to make me feel guilty and distracted RIGHT then? Yeah rght. And now it's getting really bad again, right as I have TEN TIMES as many things that my attention should be on instead. *sigh* The Devil is mean, ya'll...

You think? He'll use any trick in the book to get us to fall, and a few he's made up!

Actually, he made them all up, since he wrote the book!

[Okami]

Rinse and repeat the beginning of yesterday's post. :|

Oh, and today's Greg Laurie Email Devotional seemed like a good one to share:

"Thursday, November 29, 2007

Your Best Defense

Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.

— James 4:7


When the Bible tells us to "submit to God," and to "resist the devil" (James 4:7), it doesn't mean we are to go out and attack the devil. The devil will do the attacking. The word "resist" is essentially a defensive word meaning "to withstand an attack."

Nor does the Bible say to "converse with the devil and he will flee from us" or to "consider all of the temptations the devil offers, then resist him, and he will flee from us." Once you start messing with sin and with the devil, it is only a matter of time before you get hooked. It is like the free samples you're offered when you walk though the store or the mall. You are given just enough to whet your appetite, but not enough to satisfy it.

The devil has been at this for a long time. He is no idiot; he will not necessarily present his full agenda. Instead, he will say, "Take just a little nibble. Just have a taste for the fun of it. It won't hurt you. Just this one little time." And you know the rest of that story. This is why the Bible tells us to resist the devil. Keep as much distance from him as possible. Flee from temptation and don't leave a forwarding address.

So where do we find the resolve and strength to resist? We need to submit to God as we resist the devil. "Submit" is a word used to describe a soldier under the authority of a commander and speaks of a willing, conscious submission to God's authority. It means to completely surrender yourself to the Word and will of God. That is your best defense."

[Nate]

Hey guys. How you doin'. It's just me. You know. Me. You know my name.

I need prayer, rather not say, I just need it, cool? Cool.

See you guys later.

[Sheenar]

Well, tonight I gave in to the temptation to M for the first time since this summer. And I thought I was doing so well...
Shows that just when you think a sin may be defeated, it rears its ugly head again. :^(
Please pray for me. I just want this particular sin to be done with once and for all (I know I'll struggle with sin until I die --I won't and can't be sanctified or perfect this side of Heaven). I just wish this one would go away. It's going to wind up hurting my future marriage if I keep letting it go on. It's also going to hamper any future relationships period. I just want to keep my thoughts pure.

Pray that I will immerse myself in God's Word (and not use excuses not to) and surround myself with Godly influences (and in particular avoid things that would cause me to stumble). It's usually when I try to do things on my own that I fall on my face.

Thank you friends. We are all in this fight together!

[Gabriel 9.0]

I'm still praying daily to God to keep me from losing my virginity before I meet my future wife. Its very tough, but I know God is there:thumb:

[Taran]

Sunday at church there was a word given, and the guy said you have to declare to get back the ground that the enemy has stolen from you. And I thought that it fit for me so I wanted to share it with you guys.

[Okami]

It's going to wind up hurting my future marriage if I keep letting it go on. It's also going to hamper any future relationships period. I just want to keep my thoughts pure.

Pray that I will immerse myself in God's Word (and not use excuses not to) and surround myself with Godly influences (and in particular avoid things that would cause me to stumble). It's usually when I try to do things on my own that I fall on my face.

Thank you friends. We are all in this fight together!

It seems you and I have the same sort of mindset. Harming our future marriages and the like.

I could use the same prayers, myself. (Hey, we could keep one another accountable ) Every time I try and do things on my own, that is exactly when I fall. You've got it right there, Sheenar.

[Blitzkrieg1701]

Man, this week has been LOUSY. Simply put, I've been giving into EVERYTHING the past couple of days. There's been a steady build up of stress and frusteration for a while now, and the strength to fight and the desire to seek God's help just seem to have dired up. Now, guilt and disgust over it all, THAT I've got in abundance, but it just leaves me feeling more depressed and vulnerable than before.

And another thing: I've actially been avoidng CAA these past couple of days, mostly because I didn't want to face this thread. I've actually been avoiding a LOT of things lately just because I've felt so lousy, but this has been the really painful one. I know I really could have used the prayer and encouragement I've always been able to count on you guys for, but instead I fell right into Satan's trap.

*sigh*

Please keep me in your prayers.

[GrubbTheFragger]

Okami gotta say too things 1) massive kudos for making this thread its probably the best and most inspiring threads on CAA. Many members really need this thread so they can look at it and see they are not alone through there struggles.2) Thank you because up till this point i was on the outside wish i had courage to ask for prayer over this kinda off sin. So on 12/07/07 at 3:32 pm i come into this thread reading all the uplifting comments knowing there is hope there are others that are there for me and us. I fall to this sin an awful lot and well i need prayer i need it more than ever. I have been struggling for about 3years with this and i need this gone i won't go into details but just pray for me.

Thank you all, Jeff

[K. Ayato]

Praying, Jeff. Hang in there, Blitz. We're all pulling with ya.

[SP1]

Blitz, staying away from CAA is the last thing you need to do right now. I have this same problem, and I stayed away for, like 2 months. That's 2 months that I didn't pray for someone on CAA. In hindsight, that was so unacceptable. Prayer on CAA is about 95% of my prayer life, so not being on here is huge for me.

[Amzi Live]

Man, this week has been LOUSY. Simply put, I've been giving into EVERYTHING the past couple of days. There's been a steady build up of stress and frusteration for a while now, and the strength to fight and the desire to seek God's help just seem to have dired up. Now, guilt and disgust over it all, THAT I've got in abundance, but it just leaves me feeling more depressed and vulnerable than before.

And another thing: I've actially been avoidng CAA these past couple of days, mostly because I didn't want to face this thread. I've actually been avoiding a LOT of things lately just because I've felt so lousy, but this has been the really painful one. I know I really could have used the prayer and encouragement I've always been able to count on you guys for, but instead I fell right into Satan's trap.

*sigh*

Please keep me in your prayers.

Heh!That makes two of us.I was out of CAA for like three months.SP1 is right,but at the same time the PC is a two face piece of machine.Anyway,guys add me up to your prayers too please.I'll keep all you in mines too.

[Okami]

Two-faced is certainly right, Amzi.

And again I am fallen with my battles with lust...almost daily now. Friday makes 6 months from internetly activity...but physically, I know better, I do, I know I do with absolute certainly....but....Awh....God help me. I have no strength at all to fight this on my own.

[Amzi Live]

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Yeah,same here.I've come to understand that only God can help us up,and give us strength.Still we know what we have do,but we give in.I feel rotten afterwards,but I still give in.Something that I know will help a lot is having someone like a really close friend check on you,and keep encouraging,and even reprove(I think thats the word)us on what were doing wrong.Thing is you need to find someone who'll stay shut.Thats why I think this thread is so awesome.It helps us to keep an eye on each other,and pray.

[Sheenar]

Everytime I'm tempted, I remember that it's just not worth it. A minute or so of pleasure is not worth the guilt and the harm it causes.
I don't want to keep sinning against my God. But unfortunately, we will all struggle against the flesh until we are with Jesus. (What is that verse about struggling against sin to the point of bloodshed?) Oh yeah, Hebrews 12:4. Heck, Hebrews 12 (the whole chapter) encourages me to keep fighting sin. We will mess up, but God is also fighting for us.
Hang in there!

[Amzi Live]

Hey!I haven't noticed that they made this thread a sticky.

[Blitzkrieg1701]

The news still isn't good guys. Well, actually last night was the first night in a while that M and P wasn't an issue, but that was only because I was too sleepy for it to be. The truth is, I just don't really care anymore. Well, no. That's not true. I still care enough to feel like dirt on account of each and every stumble, but beyond that...

I'm sorry to sound so depressing. It's not that I need to be reminded of the importance of remaining pure or how it's not my own strength that's needed to fight this temptation or anything like that... well, maybe I do. All I know is that this particular struggle is dragging itself out so much because of my general feelings of depression, which doesn't really put me in the state of mind I need to be in...

[Gabriel 9.0]

You don't sound depressing at all Blitz. My bro is going through the same situation and the enemy keeps tempting me with lust after a woman in order to not save my self before I meet the right woman to marry and live a continued God led life with. Lucifer even tried to make me doubt that it will even happen from time to time. But God ensures me it will. God will help you win this battle my fellow follower of Christ:thumb:

[SnEptUne]

*nods*

This M thing is evil. I'm back down to day 1, having fallen last night. Gyah, my sexuality's been on fire lately, to say the least. x.x

I hate being a sexual being.

I completely agree. I have to sell my body to the devil for "success"; using this M thing to trade for acadamic performance. This body of mine is disposable as long as it can get me higher in status. Money can buy power, even the power to change law. The end does not justify the mean, but I am giving up being powerless to the unjustice of this world.

On the other hand, porno or hentai is never an issue for me because I just find it distasteful and dirty, but Mathematics is a problem because it turns me on occasionally. And I plan to use it as motivator until school is over.