I just want it to stop...

[Tenshi no Ai]

Yeah, I'm bad, I haven't been in the prayer room for a while :/ Lately I've been doing lots of thinking on different things and yeah...

Anyways, there's something that's bugging me and has been for years actually, now that I think about it. I know I already made a topic on OCPD, but sometimes I actually think I have OCD as well. For a long time now, I think things I do NOT want to think. It's not in my personality, I don't want them, but they're there. Usually, I have to convince my 'actual' self that it's not really me thinking that way, because they are usually mean, selfish thoughts. Sometimes I wonder if some things I think (not just these bad ones) are just hindsight, because of my anxiety, or what (from in the past). But lately, it's not good thoughts, it's not my personality to have them and I want them to stop. My brain feels like a wreak when this happens and I want to be positive and push them out. I'm just glad I have my 'actual self' there to talk it down and think 'no, that's not it, that's not how I think'. Whether it's OCD or a negative faction putting these things in my head to make me depressed or create more anxiety, I do not know and I'm not good at discerning, nor want to try to think of what it is, that's what gets me more confused. Thing is, I've thought negatively in the past and things didn't turn out the way I wanted but I always had a lingering anxiety. Still, not to say I have anxiety now, but maybe it was just there to bring me down or to create a 'hindsight' effect, rather than a 'I told you so' effect.

I don't know if this is making ANY sense, but on any case, I want these negative thoughts that enter my head to go away... I don't want them, they aren't my personality.

[K. Ayato]

Praying, mini me.

[AsianBlossom]

I've had bad thoughts that I didn't want and were really hard to push out of my head, too. It's tough to deal with; I'll be praying.

[Gabriel 9.0]

I understand how that is, I'll be praying for you.

[~darkelfgirl~]

I'll be praying. You're not alone--I've been having those negative thoughts (selfish) also.

[Tenshi no Ai]

Thanks. I know I've heard of this before with others, but yeah it's a real pain. Almost creepy in a sense since it's like there's 2 minds in you of something. Well, then again people aren't exactly good in nature from the start, but yeah...

[12praiseGOD]

I'm not exactly sure in what subject you are talking about or what OCD is but I do come up with a lot of self discussions in my mind trying to solve a problem...like I will take a simple math problem and conplicate it so much for myself that I have to keep thinking about it till I find the answer from my self or someone else. Anyways...sounds like your in an Ethics class or something...those twist your mind and values clases. Just yesterday our teacher had us write an ethiological paragraph on something, and we had a Socratic class. Im not in ethics or philosophy class but our teacher thought it would be fun to do so yeah...My best advise is to pray to GOD and if it is a problem dig your nose into the Bible and search what is correct according to HIM. Or ask a friend, teacher, preacher, family, or any of us...I will do my best to try to help you if possible.=) HOpe your 2 minds join and the true self comes overall, with GOD ofcourse. Hope I was of some help.
GOD BLESS YOU!!!
huggles =)

[Danderson]

It is a REAL struggle to let go of certain thoughts, but with God's help and the Holy Spirit in you, I believe they will go......Will be praying.....

[Blitzkrieg1701]

I wish I could offer some sage advice, but I struggle with this sort of thing myself. Still, I'll be prayin

[ADXC]

Yep, I think everyone goes through this at least at one time in their lives. I do tend to let my mind drift. And whenever negative thoughts get into my head I usually pray to God about it. It is the best cure anyway, usually. But you must stay constant in that prayer if you want the thoughts to go away. Pray before bed each night and ask the Lord to gradually take the thoughts away. And also another thing you can do to keep your mind off certain things is to work. Which can also entails cleaning your house, or maybe work extra hard at your job, or basically keep your mind busy so your thoughts won't drift as easily when your doing nothing at the moment. It will take time, but I know through prayer and hard work you can get rid of those thoughts. And if you find yourself thinking about stuff you wish not to, then clear your mind and read the Bible if you like. Its also a cure for this stuff.

[SP1]

I have this same problem, especially if my brain (or body) is tired. Make sure you are getting plenty of quality rest. Perhaps think about taking up some Christian meditation, to learn to quiet your mind in a non-forceful way (which rarely works because it reinforces the negative thoughts). You can get counselling for this sort of thing. Or perhaps just talking about it to someone (friend) you trust. Praying for you.

I'll send a PM, too.

[Alexander]

It's very common with Aspies too.

It's a constant battle for me. I suffer from hearing swearing in the back ground of mine and other profanities. It hurts a lot and makes me very anxious.

I don't have a solution to the problem, but I have looked for ways to try to stop it. I believe the major reason I suffer from it has to do with my current unstable life and when I'm under a lot of stress.

I'll definitely be praying.