A Little Less Than Garbage

[Nightshade X]

That's about how I feel right now.

I just spent the last half hour being lectured to by my mom about how nothing in my life is how it should be (I think mostly because I decided not skip out on a bible study at a church I haven't gone to in almost 2 years)... and she's pretty much right.

According to her, my spiritual life is pretty much DOA, the shows (specifically, anime) I watch are full of witchcraft, and I didn't become youth pastor (a long story, but I'm past that now) because I'm faking everything about myself in order to look like something they want me to be. The trouble is, she's kinda right about it... and because of that, my grades are in the toilet, I haven't found the right girl, my job life sucks, and I'm all mopey and depressed all the time.

She said a lot of other stuff, too... a lot of which is true, but I don't really want to go into it... just know that I feel worse than trash right now, and I really need prayer.

On a sidenote... I've been trying to become more active spiritually, but I have no idea where to start. The reason for my "spiritual death" is thus... and no one has been able to guide me. So... pray for guidance, too.

[Tsukuyomi]

I will most deffintally pray for you

But, you shouldn't feel like garbage. Well,I guess everyone feels that way once or twice in their life I'll admit to that, but it's only because they haven't found what they are meant to be doing.. y'know o_O Just be patient towards the things/people around you. Good things will come

*Hopes that didn't come out wrong*

[SailorDove]

I agree in prayer with Tsukuyomi for you Nightshade. May you and Jesus get to know each other better. (Cool thing about Jesus is he doesn't lecture. Even when we deserve it. God knows I deserve it A LOT.)

He just lets us be real with him. He actually prefers it.

[AsianBlossom]

I'll be praying for you.

[ShiroiHikari]

I dunno, I don't think your spiritual life is totally dead if you realize there's something awry with it.

One thing I've learned is that parents don't always know everything. Don't let her lecturing get you down. If you didn't become a youth pastor, maybe that's not what God wants you to do with your life, or it's not the right time. If you're going to enter into a ministry, do it because it's what God wants, not what your mom wants. When we try to please other people, even our parents, things don't work out right.

Also, I think the easiest way to get spiritually "alive" again is to just pray. Pray as much as possible. It's hard-- I'm bad at doing it, myself --but it will always pay off, even if it takes a little while.

Keep the faith, brother. I'll pray for you.

[Danderson]

Will be praying for you...

[termyt]

It's OK to feel like garbage sometimes. This time, it has you looking at where your life is lacking. IN the long run, it could be a very good thing. It sounds to me like your mother is concerned about you (I don't know if she nags everyone all the time, but you seem to be agreeing with her on this one) and that's a good thing, too.

As you know, healthy spiritual life starts with the study of the Bible. So, I hope you are doing that.

I'll pray for you - that you'll discover God's calling for you (aka what path you want your life to follow) and that you will find the courage to walk that path.