General Lust Prayer Thread (WARNING: Mature Content)

[Nikolai Melodie]

I'll pray for You Seleana, Father please help this sister in her struggle to serve you. We know that you can do more then what we ask and think. That you are doing a good work that you will bring into completion. Thank you dad that you except us where we are, and shape us in your Love. For it's in Christ name I pray Amen.

Thanks, Creed ;D !

[Okami]

I totally understand...just saying/typing (as the case may be) some of the words tempt me. And I'm really proud of you for coming here for help, Seleana, as a fellow Michiganian(or /der) and as a fellow female, and as a friend! It means so much to me, when I've been praying for more struggling girls to come by this thread and post or PM me (both, now, have happened, praise God!)
And of course, if you don't know by now, I base my life from Philippians 4:13 Good verse to stick with, l'amie.

I know what it's like to be a new believer struggling with this stuff. Like I mentioned in my testimony, I fell back into my sinful life after just a few weeks of being reborn.
But the awesome part of it all is that through Christ these guilts and the shame and just...the grime of it all... It gets washed and cleansed and purified by His shed blood. And we can truly be made new.
It won't be an easy road to getting out of this sin, and as the battle continues and you resist, it only gets harder. But you can't let that discourage you, I nearly did and it almost took me back to square one. It's tough.

And with that being said,
Father God,
I praise Your awesome and wonderful and powerful and mighty name. You have brought to this thread a young woman whom I simply adore, a girl from my own state, and even more simply put: a friend. And even though we haven't known eachother very long, she's entrusted her secrets to this thread and to me. Lord, I pray You give her power to withstand the temptations, to be able to fight. To stand up in the midst of the darkness and stand with full attentiveness and absolute knowingness of victory. Though the road is hard and wearying and tough; especially for a new member of the family, I pray that You give her the strength she needs and the courage to let go and hold onto You when things get sticky.
Father, I pray You shield her with Your word and Your knowledge, that she would know where to turn when she finds herself tempted, whether it be to the Scripture mentioned on Post One, or to some other area of the Bible.
Lord, let her life shine and glorify You, because through You, our strength, we can do all things, and that includes breaking from the chains of this sin, seeing through the darkness, and reaching that light at the end of the tunnel. God, please show her that by her confession she has been purified and whitened once again; please help her to keep a repentant attitude, even in the midst of hard times. Lord, I don't really know what more I wanted to say, but You know what I mean through the scrambling thoughts running through my head. Right now, this is more important than that upcoming French test...heheheh. And above all said, Lord, please, please remind her that she is loved by You and by us, and that she is welcome any time into this thread.
You never leave, and You never forsake, and through You, our lives will be saved and our wounds, healed.
It's in precious Jesus' holy name I pray,
Amen!

My slump is just about gone now, thanks for your prayers, everyone. It's still hard, and I know life is going to continue in an up'n'down matter. I'm still working on Lesson One, so much for 'early next week'....Well, still keep a lookout. I'm working on it, just been distracted!

[SP1]

Seleana asked me to show up in this thread and support her, so here I am.

My whole family looks at my posts, so don't expect me to be graphic... However, I totally understand the temptation of those P's and M's. I'll tell you what, though, I find that I have a fixed amount of time I can spend on the PC each day. I went about 14-15 months where I didn't look at P at all, because I spent tons of time on CAA each day! I had support from a prayer partner (thanks ClosetOtaku), too. I got distracted (and a little burned out) on CAA, though, and went on to other things. Unfortunately, the old ways slowly crept back in. I have therefore made a deliberate effort to get back on here: my rock of determination, as it were.

So maybe we can all pray for each other. I love this place.

[IantheGecko]

I've been obsessed with wanting to get bigger (macro, muscle, even fat) all my life. This has led me to some unhealthy habits, including M-ing. I've been going nowhere fast since about December of last year, about the time I had to stop going to therapy since my health insurance changed.

I keep praying and praying about this, giving it to God, yet I just keep slipping over and over and over. I'm sick of it. And I'll probably say the same thing tomorrow.

Dunno if anyone else has the same struggle. If so, yay.

[Okami]

I'm a bit tight on time, getting ready for school; but that doesn't mean I can't take ten minutes out. Sorry if the prayers seem rushed this morning....

Father God, I pray that You be with SP1, that he could overcome the old temptations, and make CAA his area of determination and support and a place where he could hold to the faith firmly. I also praise You and thank You for his past victories, and for his prayer partner, ClosetOtaku. It's through You we get our strength, Lord. It's in You where we have all the victory.
In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen!

Father God, I also lift Ian up to You this morning. That You could help him overcome the terrible struggle of M. As I've said over and over again, it's one of the hardest things to ditch, throw away, and run from. Help him to have a changed prospective, Lord, and that through this, that it would slow his repeated slipping. We all want something, Lord, that's obviously why we've all fallen this low into this sin, whatever it may be for each of us, help us to look to You, that we could find everything better in You; faithfulness, forgiveness, peace, happiness, and above all else, love. Because You love us no matter what we've done wrong. Help him to stay strong, to stay faithful, and to stay alert, Father. It's a hard battle, but in You we can take control over it. You are our God, and You are [SIZE="3"]much[/SIZE] bigger than these problems.
It's in Jesus' name I pray,
Amen!

6:04 - Okami runs from the Thread to get ready for school with a shout of: "I'll be back later whenever I get the time! Stay strong, l'ami(e)s!"

[K. Ayato]

**Mature content ahead**

I struggled with lust 3-4 years ago back when Aaron and I were together. It started out simple enough, a kiss good-bye, but once it started, I found myself wanting more. The bulk of our time together was spent making out. Those of you who are in relationships (and those of you who are still single), I'm not kidding when they say too much stock in the physical aspect of a relationship weakens communication.

Things started taking a turn for the worst when Aaron began asking to slip his hand under my shirt while I was in his arms. At first I refused, because I knew where it would lead. But eventually I mentally said "Heck with it", and allowed him to touch and caress that part of me with both his hands and lips. In a moment of horror I snapped out of it, hurt and angry, but more at myself than at Aaron.

That night, I broke down in my room. I hadn't lost my virginity, but I had compromised those standards so close to the point of no return.

It wasn't long after that event that Aaron and I broke up. Looking back, it needed to happen. I remember feeling more like myself after a few months, and telling my friends I wanted to get back into a relationship. However, I was terribly afraid I'd lose control again like I'd almost done with Aaron. Each time I tearfully confessed that, they'd gently say "Girl, you're not ready yet. You still need time to heal."

Now I can honestly say the Lord has brought me through that dark time in my life, and because of it, I can help and encourage those who've experienced or are experiencing a lot of the same thing. I apologize for the content (mods, please don't hesitate to snip it if it's too graphic), but after reading all the confessions on this thread (thanks for making this, Okami ), I felt I needed to be honest about this thing that happened a few years ago.

[creed4]

To confess, I went to far for my own comfort in my last relationship. About as bad as K. Ayato, I regret it now, I am thankful we didn't go all the way, but we went to far for me, pull other addictions made it worse

[sango_gal0516]

Wow this thread is so sad I never knew so many people had the same problem as me. I hope you guys can fit me into your prayers as I will have you in mine. Love Ya all. Lets keep strong together okay.(i hope you all know how hard this is for me to post this. I almost don't want anyone to know)

Thanks Okami for making this thread. God Bless you

God Bless you all.

[SP1]

Seems people are talking alot about pre-marital relationships that have "gone too far". Had a few of those myself. Looking back on it, while going (almost) all the way was fun at the time, it really stalled the relationship. By this I mean that although we were more intimate, we didn't grow closer. That meant either the state of Love was much harder to reach or it didn't happen at all. One of my major regrets in life is a relationship that went too far too soon, and wasn't strong enough to take on the tests (mostly my weakness, I hope she forgives me).

All in all, the really "good" times I remember, and still enjoy, revolve around long walks holding hands, doing things we both like (watching anime together, duh), and those long "what, it's midnight already?" kisses. I wouldn't trade those for all the sex I could stand.

Thanks for the prayer Okami. You are too cool.

[Blitzkrieg1701]

Thank God for this thread.

I've been struggling with lust almost my entire life. The P, H, and M words have been MAJOR stumbling blocks to me for a looooooooong time, and I'm not kidding about the major part. There have been a shamefully high number of times where it quite literally consumed my thoughts and my life. Around 15 and 16 in particular, I couldn't call myself anything less than a junkie. Thankfully, God has been working overtime on me and things have been slowly (VERY slowly) getting better. Still, I have been going through periods of backsliding, and now I know why.

I've prayed about these temptations a lot, a WHOLE lot, and He has blessed me in that. Yet, through it all, I've been pretty adamant in fighting Him over one thing: I just would NOT talk to anyone else about the struggle. I was just too embarrassed/ashamed/fearful to let anyone else know. And, sure enough, that fighting would lead to coldness and then to a whole new round of backsliding.

Well, starting now I just can't fight it anymore, and I knew this was the first place I needed to go. Let me say again: thank God for this thread! Just reading everyone else's posts has been an incredible encouragement to me, and now I know more than ever just what I've been needing. So please, pray for me as I continue to deal with all this.

And let me contribute a prayer of my own:

Lord God, I know that this isn't a battle that any of us can win. None of us have it in us to fully, successfully fend off the temptations that we're confronted with. So I thank you that we don't even have to think about that. Thank you that Christ has already utterly defeated every single one of these sins. Thank you that the guilt and the shame has already been suffered for us. Thank you that we have been remade into new, spotless creatures through Jesus Christ. And, Lord, thank for this body of believers that you have brought together for encouragement and ministering. I know I've prayed so much for you to help me, only to deny myself the very means you had chosen to provide that help. Thank you SO much for using Okami in such a powerful way, and please continue to move mightily in the lives of all of us here, who so desperately need it.

In Jesus' precious and holy name,
Amen.

[roadoffew]

This is an awesome thread.

Okami, you are an amazing individual.

Here is my own forum i did some time ago. I have check it out in a long time but I will make a new post in it soon.

http://www.christiananime.net/showthread.php?t=28276

To make things short I'm still struggling, not trying hard enough to stay away from it. I had at least one day with out it so there is some praise there.

i just need prayer for more desire to follow God will instead of my own.

[Okami]

Lord, please forgive me, my procrastination against replying to this Thread...

Father God, I pray for K-chan and her relationship with Aaron. And...I praise You, God, that they did not lose it all that night, and that in the end, You were in control. And especially how much, to me, she's seem to grow since that experience. We all do grow from past mistakes, don't we? And from our experiences, others grow as well, thank You, Lord. For nothing is done without Your seeing...
And also, Lord, the same with Creed, because he went too far, too. I praise You he didn't.
But for those who might have gotten themselves in too much than they can chew, Father, show them Your redemption, that they can come back to Your arms, or into Your arms for the first time, if that may be the case...
In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen!

And of course, Lord, I pray for S_G, and thank You for just having the strength to post here. Whatever she's going through, Father, I pray You help her out. To overcome. To seek all refuge in You...
I find it simply astounding how You're showing that it age isn't a factor in this battle, we all struggle. Thank You for yet another female member here, Lord! More and more...You're too good.
Awesome.
Keep my friend strong, Lord.
In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen!

God, I also thank You that Blitz was able to come and confess here as well. Because with it comes healing, support, and many prayers. Now, maybe, progress can be made, and this sin can be wiped out by Your mighty hand. Though the battle is slow. Who is victorious? WE ARE! But we cannot do this on our own...so please continue to help us out...
In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen!

And, Lord, You know that to me this last person is pretty special, not on any different scale from anyone else, but in the way that it was roadoffew's thread such a long time ago that first led me to confession on another board, and then eventually, here as well. I was afraid to bring it back, at the time, because it hadn't been handled in a very long time...thank You for finally bringing him in here, and that, even though we haven't even met...he is very much a blessing.

And Father, I pray that You continue helping and guiding him in this long time struggle and battle with sin. Keep him strong and quick-willed in this fight. I want to see victory for everyone here, and only in You can this happen, yes, it has happened, even though we suffer and are tempted away in every possible way...
Help us through this valley, Lord.
In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen!


Sorry if my prayers sound sloppy, I've been dealing with so much lately that it hurts to think...please forgive me. I'm so thankful this Thread is helping and encouraging you all...it's...it's simply amazing. I'm so humbled to it all, and it helps shine some light in life's current darkness.

The growth here has been tremendous, and all by the act of God. Our God is amazing, isn't He? He is truly here, helping us step by step.

Per usual, PM me if you feel the need or want to talk
Prayfully, Lesson One will be here tomorrow! Praise God!

[K. Ayato]

Thanks for the prayers, Okami. I can really tell the Lord's put all this on your heart. *Hugs*

[K. Ayato]

How soon will the lesson be up, Okami?

[Okami]

Ah, yes. Thanks for reminding me, K-chan!
[SIZE="1"]*would have forgotten again....*[/SIZE]

Anyways, since you mentioned it, here it is!

Father God, I pray that through these words, my brothers and my sisters alike will become encouraged to step up and out and away from this lifestyle, taking the first step to freedom. These words mean nothing coming only from me, just another downfallen sinner...a human...but through You, they give power! Please, Lord, use my...our words to Your glory and benefit. And may there be something in this for everyone to learn, even myself, as it's my first time ever doing something like this...
in Jesus' precious name I pray,
Amen!

Gratification.

In our world, instant gratification is everywhere. We want it all and we want it now. If we want to lose some weight, we want it done in a week, not in three. So then when it comes to sex, how do we act? We want it now! And too many these days are doing just that, outside of marriage, just to fulfill their youthful desires.
Friends, God created us. He can help us sustain until marriage. But then comes the issue of self-made gratification. In other words this is what most of us have gotten caught up within the past several years, pornography, hentai, and M. The real underlying issue: Lust.

The Seventh commandment states that we should not commit adultery. We must remember Jesus’ words;
“But I say; anyone who even looks at a woman with lust has already committed adultery with her in his heart.â€

[K. Ayato]

AMEN!

[sango_gal0516]

Thanks for the prayer Kami-chan. Heres a prayer of my own.

Father, You who love us help us to follow You and live by what you have taught us. I ask You to give everyone who has a sinful problem help and guide them to You. I also ask that You help me with my own problem. I want so much to follow You and join you in Heaven when my time comes as all who love You want to. I pray that all who have my problem and their own problems will ask for Your guidance.
In the Name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit
Amen.

[sango_gal0516]

I know its not the best bet at least its a prayer for all. I hope that we can all work through our problems.

[Momo-P]

I have a prayer, but it's more for my boyfriend than me.

I myself struggle with lust (then again who doesn't?), but lately I have been trying to hold myself down more. Mostly just thinking about snuggling and kissing, so that's definitely a good thing!

My boyfriend on the other hand has a bigger problem with it I think...then again, they do say it's harder for guys, so I really feel down about him. I've asked him several times (to the point he kinda gets annoyed because his answer has been staying the same), and each time he tells me no. He hasn't been looking at bad stuff. That it's been a long time since the last time he did and he's trying to be good for God.

So that's good.

Still though, I know he's really down about it and wants to do something (and sometimes ends up saying something because he just wants to), so I'd just like to ask for a prayer. He's improved greatly compared to years ago, I remember when he use to get really upset about having to control himself (because he didn't understand why it was such a sin), but God is helping him so much. I use to be really deep into this stuff myself, so it's like once God helped me, He used me to get to him. Heck, now he says he even tries to read his bible and stuff, so that's so great...just want him to be helped as much as possible. Yanno?

Also not a request, but just wanna tell you guys--keep your chin up! I still may think some bad stuff now and then, but I use to be where all of you are right now. I mean, I use to get into some really nasty-bad stuff. Now there are times where I almost swear that part of my life never happened. It's like God whipped it from my mind! So keep on praying and holding strong, He will get you out of this!

[skylender]

thanks for your help okami:hug:

[Felix]

Wow, amazing lesson, Okami! I think God must have been helping you type over your shoulder while you wrote that, because it's positively dripping with wisdom and truth. ^_^ You're so right, and I'll definitely try to do my homework!

I don't want this to come across at all as me being corrective or critical, because I'm not at all! I 100% agree with everything you said, but I just had somethign I wanted to add, too. Hope you don't mind ^^;

I think we should also be well aware that the desires and feelings we have are totally God-given, they're just twisted and distorted by the decieving one. In all reality, every sin we ever commit is just a distortion or a lie of our good God-given desires. Satan taps into our needs and tries to make us believe that we can get them now... without God... and be totally satisfied. He tries - and often succeeds - to make us believe that God isn't satisfying, and that we should look to have our desires filled elsewhere.

It's something my youth pastor has been telling me, and I think it's a great place to start: Every time you're tempted, you should take a step back and examine that temptation. Figure out exactly what desire Satan is tapping into and then look at God and realize that that desire is met in Him... and no where else.

For instance, when you're tempted to look at Hentai... what need or desire are you trying to fulfill? The need to be loved? The need to feel good about yourself? Doesn't God love you? Doesn't God make you feel good?

Now I understand that there are most definitely sexual desires we have that just can't conceivably be met by God, which is why He gave us the blessing of marriage. I'm just saying that if we better understand the root of our sins and temptations and desires, I think we can better know how to overcome them by finding that satisfaction in God.

Again, I didn't want to sound corrective, I just had that that I wanted to add ^^;; God bless you, Okami, you're doing something amazing here!

[K. Ayato]

I'd like to add something to what Felix posted.

When you decide to look up porn or engage in other forms of self-gratification, are you fully aware that the Lord sees everything you're doing? Because even though you're by yourself and your friends or family are not around, you're not completely alone. It's a sobering fact, and perhaps a bit difficult to swallow, but it's the truth. God is omnipresent, and that means nothing goes unnoticed from His view.

[Okami]

Father God, I pray for N8 as he continually struggles with lust and with porn. Lord, help guide him and lead him, and help him as he treads deep water. You know this situation so much more than I, Father, so please be there for him in ways that we as humans cannot.
In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen!

I also pray for Momo and her boyfriend in their situation(s), Lord. That together they could fight and win this battle. That You would give them the wisdom to get through it, even in the most difficult time. Help them, together, Father...because You give us our strength. Continue to guide them away from this mess...
In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen!
Absolutely, Jayjay! Just as I said yesterday, any time you want to talk, just give me a message! I'm here for you, brother

Oh, and absolutely, Felix. Satan tries to twist everything to his own benefit, Scripture included. Great advice, too, to take a step back and evaluate everything, I was actually going to mention that...and forgot to do so.

Good point, too, K-chan, for the longest time I forgot that when I was alone, the reality was, I wasn't. Looking back on those lonely nights and mornings...I can almost see Him, kneeling beside me at the computer, praying. Everytime I see that image, I either start crying or tear up.
He's always here, watching us...praying over us when we slip up...

[Htom Sirveaux]

I am an absolutely horrible person. I swear I'll leave it all behind and never look back and sooner or later I'm right back where I started. I'd rather be anyone else but me. I need help, but I refuse to accept it from people I've let down and people who don't know what it's like.
This thread is just what I needed. I will support you all and I would love to have your support so maybe I can finally defeat this thing for good.

Where is God, anyway? I've come back crying for forgiveness and wanting so much to change so many times, and trying so hard, but I'm still not who I really want to be. What do I have to do to make a change and make it stick, GOD!? I wonder who's letting who down? If You care so much why do You let me fall so hard again and again? Don't You get tired of watching me mess up despite all my efforts? Dont You want to see me as I should be!? I'm absolutely nauseated by myself and sick of trying and failing and WHERE THE **** IS GOD!?
/is infuriated, out of breath, and crying.

[creed4]

my i struggle with falling into the same sin, It makes me understand Paul's words in Romans 7:15
"For what I want to do I do not do, and what I have I do." paraphrase, and it is a struggle. I also thank God for 1 john 1:9 If we confess our sin He is faithful and just to forgive us our sin and cleanse us of all unrighteousness. and Roman 8:1 therefore there is NO condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. Romans 6-8 talks alot about our struggle with sin.
I will pray for you man

[Okami]

Yeah, I totally understand, Bard. Time and time and time again I said I'd leave that stuff behind, and time and time and time again after that I'd find myself back at those sites...

I also understand that type of frustration...there was countless times where I'd just cry and scream (always when alone) to God and ask Him why. Why would He let us suffer in something like this, even when He hates it so much? You''re not alone...
He has brought me from then to now, where I'm leading this small congregation of sinning believers, hopefully, prayfully, back into the light. I think for each of us who has struggled for so long, He has purpose in having us in such a position; to ultimately better the community and family of God's people.

Father God, please comfort Bard. I know You have each of us here in our areas of struggle, temptation, and sin for a reason--even if we do not know why. You do, and I pray we'll all be confident to trust You enough to know that You know, and so much more than us as finate beings. Lord, You are so much greater than this fight...please, Father...help to shield us and guide us back on the right path, one that brings You glory, and not destruction of ourselves. You've done many miracles...and I hope You do many here, too. God, I know You can be found here in this thread, please make Yourself known, that even though we have fallen, Your outreaching hand is waiting patiently for us to hold on, as You lift us back to our feet once again.
It's in Jesus' precious name I pray,
Amen!

[roadoffew]

Need prayer guys. I'm starting to look stuff up again. Not putting up my defenses at all.

[Blitzkrieg1701]

I'm really hurting for prayer right now too. I'm waiting WAY too long to start running from temptation... if at all.

[Alexander]

I'll be there for you both.

Well, time for some good news then. Possible praises in fact.

I think...

It's finally over.

I haven't been counting how many days it's been, I'm still vulnerable and scared if I get back into a battle with it, but I really think that a good majority of the addiction in me is gone.

And I wish I knew what, who, or how it was caused. Was it the large overdose I got a few weeks ago that caused pure, nonstop pain inside me? Or because I'm getting out a little bit more and talking to real people at my church again? Or is it simply...

That God is taking control of this situation and my life again?

I'm still tempted and I get nightmares, but I really think I've taken control again. Because whenever the temptation comes it tries to force me to think of the "pleasure" but I then come to the reality of the pain that comes before and after. Even when I think I'm going to fall at the last minute online and bring up a site, nothing develops beyond that. It's always canceled out.

I don't know if I'll ever be completely free of this sin. I might continue to be tempted and I will probably fall more then a few time. But just knowing that this sin isn't bound to me anymore feels...

Almost surreal but also like my body isn't wrapped around something tightly like a web or a bunch of ropes.

I feel...free.

[K. Ayato]

Yay, Alec! *Hugs*

I'll be praying for you, roadoffew and Blitzkrieg. One thing that can help out tremendously (and this goes for all of us here who are struggling with this sin) is if along with asking God to help you fight and overcome this temptation, to ask Him to make you WANT to overcome. Try it, and see what happens .