I've been ditched. . .again.

[LadyRushia]

Basically, my friend who I went to China with is avoiding me and whenever I talk to her, she doesn't really respond. It's like, some days she feels like being all cheery and talking to me and other days she just doesn't. Maybe she just has a lot going on; maybe she just doesn't feel like being my friend anymore. . .I dunno. I broke down in front of my mom. This is the second time that somebody I called my "best friend" suddenly decided "oh, I don't really want to be around you anymore, so I'll just ignore you and not tell you why I hate you."

It's great, isn't it? I give nothing but love and friendship to these people and they just drop me when they're sick of having me around(the first time was *a lot* worse than this time).

Now, my mom said that maybe something entered her or whatever after she bowed to buddha and the Chinese gods(long story in a different thread) and it senses that I'm a Christian and it's like "shzsehshsergsh!!!!" I dunno, it sounds weird but it's a possibility I suppose.

But it's like, I've been through enough emotional torture with "close friends." Why does this have to happen again? Why does somebody I called my best friend have to go and leave me in the dust *again*?

So now what I'm gonna do is just wait and see if she feels like talking to me instead of trying to have fruitless conversations with her. If she's gonna be like "Hi! I love you!" one day and then "Go away" the next, then whatever.

It kind of sucks being ditched by people you care about.

~Rushia

[IantheGecko]

*hugs* It completely sucks how your friend treats you like that. I'll pray for you.

[ADXC]

Im really sorry about your friend doing that to you. But you should love her no matter what and always be there for her. If you show her God's love through your life she might like you again. Yeah I know the feeling about friends doing that to you because its happened to me. But these are just trials sent by satan to get you distraught and frustrated, so don't get mad about this. You do and always will have a best friend and his name is Jesus so don't ever say you don't have a best friend because you have a friend in Jesus. And I think you should pray for your ex-friend or friend what ever you refer to her as and just ask the Lord to be around her. And maybe she will change, because prayer moves mountains. It also helps if more than one person prays about this kind of stuff. And also if you can ever try to, try to figure out why she dislikes you and then you'll be able to fix it hopefully. I'll pray for you.

[Mave]

This song popped into my head after reading this:

I used to see the world in black and white
Now I find myself lost in a fog of grey
I thought the good guys always won the fight
But I've learned life simply doesn't work that way
I once believed if I loved others they would love me, too
But I've seen this isn't always so
I thought that inner peace would come from trusting who I am,
But it's really about trusting who I know

chorus: So when the winds of change try to blow me over,
And the shadows of confusion hide the truth
I will hope in the One who is forever,
I will run to you
I will run to you

- Ginny Owens "Run To You"

I always comforts me to know that Jesus knows exactly how you feel. I mean, He loved people but what did they do to Him? They killed, mocked and tortured Him. Isn't that the worst?

More importantly, what did Jesus continue to do? He kept loving them, nonetheless. You're doing good and whatever response you receive, shouldn't stop you from doing what's right.

Will pray for God to strengthen you with His Love and to support you in moments of rejection and disappointment.

[USSRGirl]

Awww. Sorry to hear that, Rushia. Don't jump to conclusions though, there could be stuff going on in your friend's personal life that you don't know about. Maybe she's simply stressed and taking it out on the people she's closest to and then feeling bad over it and trying to make up (hence what seems to you like two-facedness) - a bad habit that a lot of us have. I know it's hard when people change, but you should never let them change who YOU are. Even if people do ditch you, let 'em go, and go on acting as a loving friend to whoever you meet anyway - not necessarily for the benefit of your friends, but because that's who you are in Christ. No matter how people treat you, you'll always have a friend in Jesus.

"Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid or tremble at them, for the LORD your God is the one who goes with you He will not fail you or forsake you." - Deuteronomy 31: 5-7

Here, I saved this last happy cake for you. Thought it might come in handy sometime. [^___^}o

In my prayers,

Temulin

[LadyRushia]

^^;;

Thanks to all who replied. It turned out to be no big deal *at all.*(I actually forgot about this thread for a bit)

But, with that little scare, all my feelings from two years ago came right back. Just the thought that the same thing was happening again was like torture.

Really though, it's times like that when I almost wish I didn't have a creative mind. I *always* think of the craziest dramas ^^;;