Please...
*falls down crying*
I'm sorry. I try not come here in pieces but I can't hold back my feelings now.
Very recently I've been going through a lot of spiritual turmoil from family and with old feelings piling on me again.
There's so much to say though that I can't fit it in this single topic. But I will mention what I need prayer for the most at the moment.
For the past month I've been trying very hard to get a new job, and so far things haven't gone well. My grandfather had recently offered to help me apply for a job at his church but later refused. The reasons were: My boss was good friends with him. If I made her mad or got fired, he was more concerned with ruining his relationship with her. He doesn't risk anything else then that, and even then he could be completely wrong with how she reacts. The other reason is...
My Asperger's Syndrome.
He doesn't even know what it is or how it affects me, but just because I have something, something different, that's enough for him to make up his mind about me.
It wasn't the job less that I'm so depressed with, but that a man who is 50 years older then me and I've known for 18 years of my life betrays me and basically says, "You're on your own Alec".
This is the just the start, but I need to mention this immediately.
Please, from my family here. I need as much support and prayers as possible.