Here goes.

[K. Ayato]

Hi. This is probably going to be a long post, but please bear with me. To sum up a long story, I met a guy named Aaron over 4 years ago back when I was a sophomore in college. At the time he wasn't a Christian, but through the Lord's leading he became the first person I helped lead to Christ, and my first boyfriend.

Suffice to say, our relationship wasn't perfect and nearly tore us apart while we were together. I know now that we had to break up (3 years ago as of this upcoming December) so that we could mature and truly become adults.

During that time, I decided I wouldn't speak to him anymore, unless it had the Lord's leading in it. I also went through a time of hurt, anger, and fear. Not too long after last Thanksgiving the strangest thing happened. I received a "friend has tagged you" email with Aaron's name as the sender. Seeing this was the second time (I had deleted the first almost as soon as I received it) this particular email made its way into my inbox, I decided to find out what was the reason behind it. I re-added (seeing he was removed after the breakup) Aaron to my IM list, and surprisingly, he was online. We chatted a bit, then I confessed that during my time of healing, I became afraid that everything about him was a lie, especially his salvation. To my joy, he told me that his acceptance of Christ was the real thing.

During that conversation I also found out that Aaron was and is still in the Navy. Fast forward a bit now to last December. While at work one day, I had a strange urge to call him up (seeing we talked a bit on the phone after the IM conversation). At first I ignored it, seeing I had planned to catch him on the weekend, but it came back. Finally I called, and the phone was passed to him. Aaron told me he was glad I called when I did, because he was leaving to return to the Navy that night.

I did manage to see him and say good-bye. Once I saw him and looked into his eyes, I knew the Lord had answered my prayers about him and that Aaron was telling me the truth during that IM conversation. God had taken care of him all those years.

Which brings to now. I've realized (since the next morning after he left) that I've always loved Aaron, even when I tried to forget about him and for a short time stopped thinking about him. It's tempting to tell him over the phone or through a text message how I feel, but at the same time I feel it's better (and a wiser plan) for me to wait until he comes home during Christmas break and tell him in person.

So, I'd appreciate your prayers in all of this, for me and for him. I go through times during each week where it just hurts so bad.I nearly ruined our relationship in the past by stepping in and, as I put it, trying to do God's job. Also (and please don't call this dumb) I've been asking Him to let Aaron know how much I love and care about him. I want to tell him what's on my heart, but at the same time I don't want to frighten him. If nothing else, I want to be able to walk away with the knowledge that he knows how I feel.

Thanks for hearing me out.

[Alexander]

You can't begin to imagine what I would give to be in this position.

You've been graced, most certainly.

In prayer.

[Danderson]

Wow.....yet another example of something that could only happen in the movies happening in real life....Only God....
I'll be praying for both of you....

[K. Ayato]

Thanks to you both!

[HitomiYuriko]

Best Wishes and the Best of Luck from the bottom of my heart.

Your friend
and fellow Im'er

[EricTheFred]

As the old saying goes, it's better to have loved and lost...

Regardless of the outcome, you should tell him. No matter what happens after, you will both be better for it. And, I would like to point out, he's the one who first reached out to contact you. Regardless of whether that means he shares your feelings, or simply cherishes your friendship, it means he cares for you. Take that thought with you, for courage.

Good luck.

[K. Ayato]

Thanks. But I did forget to point out that the email was a glitch. Regardless, it's what got us communicating again.

[EricTheFred]

Aw gee, way to suck the wind out of my sails...

Well, I'll be pulling for you anyway. After twenty happy years of marriage, I find I'm starting to become a sucker for love stories, fictional or factual.

[K. Ayato]

Didn't mean to knock the wind outta your sails, Eric. Still, I appreciate your prayers and encouragement.

Not to mention I'm a hopeless romantic as well.

[LadyRushia]

**is all warm and fuzzy from the cuteness of the story**

That email was a glitch? Perhaps it was a God-induced glitch. After all, God does write the best love stories for us ^_^

And you know, he contacted you twice. I'd say he definitly cares about you.

But it's too bad you have to wait until Christmas to see him again, hang in there! ^_^

[USSRGirl]

Hey I'm a believer in God-induced glitches. ^___^ Just the same, you should pray on the matter and see where God is leading you. I hope all goes well, and I'll be praying for ya.

[K. Ayato]

Been praying. And thanks for all the encouraging words too, everyone. The wait doesn't seem that difficult now.

[Denimcat]

Said a prayer for you just now. Best wishes.

[Saj]

prayed for joo just now. I went through something similar recently, so i know your pain.


as for that glitch.... so God.

[Gabriel 9.0]

Praying for you.

[creed4]

I'll be praying for u

[Sammy Boy]

May God's peace be upon you both. I wish you all the best.

[AsianBlossom]

Prayers.

[K. Ayato]

Well, here's an update. Aaron and I talked on the phone last night, and after promising me he'd text me in the morning, we hung up. Suddenly I could no longer keep my feelings for him inside, as it was starting to tear me apart. Praying for strength and guidance, I reached for my phone and (seeing Aaron was now busy preparing things for the next day) sent him a text message that told him of my feelings.

Next morning, he texts me as promised. To my relief (and answered prayer), he wasn't scared of my message to him. I asked him what's the next step, and he again stated that we need to discuss this upon his return. I wholeheartedly agree, and told him so. Then out of curiosity, I politely asked what his feelings were. He admitted there is something there, but he needs time to find out if it's true or not. I told him I understood and promised to give him the time he needs and to keep praying for him in the meantime.

I'm amazed by the mature way Aaron is handling this, in the midst of a lot of current stress with being in the Navy. Please continue to pray for him and me. Thanks!

[Doubleshadow]

Wow. I'll keep on praying.

[chelle0227]

Praying. You can make it till he come back to you.

[K. Ayato]

I know. And thanks!

[K. Ayato]

Don't mean to double post, but I have an update.

Two nights ago I broke down emotionally. It was just so painful. I shut myself up in my room and began crying. Afterwards, I fell on my knees beside my bed and started praying real hard. Then, with the peace and comfort only God can give, I got up and grabbed my cell phone and started sending text messages to my friends. I didn't give specifics, just stated that I was going through a tough time at the moment and needed prayer. 5 replies later, I felt so much better.

Yesterday after lunch I found Aaron online and we talked for a few minutes. It wasn't a lot, and not much was said, but he WAS happy to see me online. It also spelled relief knowing that the reason behind his phone neglect whenever I called wasn't personal. The phone had been confiscated (should be returned to him within a week).

Again, please pray for him and for me. I've started to believe this is a trial of both faith and love. Continue to pray for Aaron, in that the Lord will continue to take care of him and mold him into what He wants from him. Thanks.