Hi again

[Chu-Chu]

I hate to ask for prayer again, but I'm really not sure where else I can go. I've been really depressed for a long time now and I think it's been getting worse. Somebody please take me seriously, I'm not just groaning about a headach or something, I really mean it. I'm having a lot of trouble right now, perhaps just as much spiritually as anything else. My older sister tried to get my dad to talk to a counselor but by the way he's been acting, I really doubt that that's going to happen and I'm not quite sure I can do this on my own. A lot of it is just how much I hate myself sometimes and it's tough to help yourself when you hate yourself. I dunno, I'm really really trying and I'm hanging on and believe me, God isn't letting me go. Just please please pray with me that something happens soon and that I can keep from doing even more stupid things because of this. It has been really rough and as much as I want to so so much, I just don't think I can snap out of it or walk myself out of it without help from some other people too. I really hate to ask for something like that, but I just think it's getting to be too much.

[Angel37]

You seriously need tpo start bugging Dad, like hardcore. Even if he gets mad, he needs to realize how important this is. Praying.

[Tenshi no Ai]

Praying for you as well...

[SP1]

Uh, I'm confused. Are you depressed/stressed because of your dad and think that he needs to see a counselor? Or are you trying to get him to take you to counseling? A weird point, but I am just wondering who to pray for.

In the meantime, I will pray for you.

You know, your sister is a beautiful person. Although I have conversed with you quite a bit less, I feel you to be just as beautiful. You will make it through.

[Chu-Chu]

Lol, thanks for asking, SP1, but actually, it's both. My sis has been trying to get him to see a counselor and take me to one also. Unfortunately, he keeps making excuses and I'm starting to doubt that that will ever happen. Yes, my sis is a very beautiful person and I admire her very much. I hope I can be like her. Thank you for your prayers.

[Angel37]

I"M SO GLAD DAD FINALLY CALLED! You'll soon get the help you both need!! *hugs*

[Chu-Chu]

ME TOO. You have no idea. It has been so tough, I wasn't sure how much more I could take without...doing something even worse. Crash...

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You are the only one who DID SOMETHING. I didn't know what I was going to do, it was like I was just losing touch with reality, I could hardly feel, nothing seemed real anymore....I've been so confused.....so ....completely....messed up. I didn't know what to do...I just didn't know and it has been going on for the LONGEST TIME. I tried, I tried so hard to get help but...nobody was listening, nobody would do anything about it. I felt so trapped, so alone. THANK YOU you are such a blessing! I don't know how dad would ever have called without you! Thank you...I just knew I couldn't stay this way, it's been getting so bad...I didn't know what to do... Thank the Lord! I don't know what would've happened without you...I don't care if mom believes me or not, the point is, she'll let me go. Thank the Lord...*exhausted*