Postby Chu-Chu » Tue Jan 16, 2007 6:35 pm
I'm having a problem that is just eating me up inside. I am extremely depressed, mostly because I have a lot of things going on right now. I need surgery to remove a tumor under my arm that is harmless, but painful. Meanwhile, I'm very stressed out at school. I don't have much of a place to go. I've tried talking to friends but they just tell me to pray, as if I'm not praying! They make me feel like just because I'm depressed and not happy means that I'm not right with God. Well, I know that isn't true, because the only way I've been able to get through these past few weeks is by Jesus walking with me all the way. I have truly experienced many miracles these past few weeks, things that I know God is using to help me. I'm not hopeless, the problem is, I'm still very depressed. I find it hard to study for school and I'm worried sick of falling behind because of my lack of concentration. The worst part is, I'm beginning to feel guilty for feeling so down. I know I shouldn't, but after awhile it just starts to get to me. No one is taking me seriously even though I know something isn't right. It isn't right or healthy to feel this way and I'm tired of hurting, it tires me physically and mentally. The problem is, I have no where to go and no one to talk to, so all of this stress and anxiety just sits inside of me and grows. I'm trying very hard to find a group of people I can just talk to, because I know I need some help right now. I just feel pushed away and lonely which is only making things worse. I never wanted it to get this bad, but I'm having a difficult time without anyone to speak to. Please pray that I find some friends I can depend on at this tough moment in my life. God never gives us more than we can bear, and I know this depression won't last forever. I'm just praying that I can get some help. Thank you.