OK, here's what I need prayer for:
1) first, I have been blessed with a wonderful first boyfriend who treats me the way every girl should be. I know it's only highschool, and I know it won't last, but i'm still enjoying being with him, and i do love him. However, i was, as mentioned before, not thinking when i invited him over whilst my mother was out. nothing happened, of course, but she came earlier than I thought, and we got busted. He came over, 'cause we don't really get to see each other much, and he dosn't have a phone or anything, 'cause his dad is an alcoholic who spends all of their money on beer. So the only time he ever calls is from a friends' house, which he hates doing, 'cause he feels like he's taking adavntage of them.
so, anways, my mom was beyond angry. she was ready to have me pack up all of my stuff and have me move in with my dad, a preacher, in another town. (btw, i hate my dad. he's a hypocrite and an abusive jerk. i mean, he's my dad, so i do love him, but i love him over there.) luckily, my mom cooled down and nixed that plan. however, i'm now not allowed to be home alone for ANY length of time. i can't go anywhere if he's going to be there. i can't call him at all. basically, my only contact with him is school.
On top of all of that, my mom is making me go to the doctor to make sure that i'm not pregnant or that i didn't catch anything from the sex that did not happen. she says she can't trust that nothing happened, 'cause I went behind her back to have him there in the first place, and i understand where she's coming from, and i deserve the lack of trust. she's also having her bestfriend move in with us to ensure that i will NEVER be home alone again while i'm living under her roof. Which is not long, 'cause i'm going to college this fall.
I know, i know what i did was irresponsible, stupid, and i deserve what i'm getting, but some of this seems a bit superfluous...what do you guys think?
Oh, and then there's item num ber two:
2) As I said, i only see him at school now, which is hard enough as it is, but now his schedule changed at the start of the semester 'cause our gov't class was to full to accomodate all of the people who were signed up to take when we were supposed to. (alot of people's schedules changed for that very reason.)
I only see him in the mornings, before he goes to his early extra zero-hour class, at which point we're both too sleepy to really do anything other than lean on each other. We used to talk all of the time. The ninth of this month was our 1 year anniversary. We were so close, and now it's like the world wants us to go cold turkey off of each other. we want to stay together, but this lack of oppertunity to even say hi is depressing us both.
like i said earlier, i know this is highschool, and it won't last past this august when we go off to completely different schools, but I'd really like to enjoy what time i have left with him.........except, now i can't.
i don't know what to do. both prayer and advice are greatly welcomed and appreciated!!! Please help!!!!!!
