Sora's Request

[Jephtih Mullins]

If there are any swears I apologize, im cutting and pasting from my LJ

10:11 am - Im All Out of Faith...This Is How I Feel...
Would you forgive your best friend if he/she went overboard and began strangeling you? Last night my best friend was in one of her modes and I guess im so use to it that I didn't notice. Me and another friend were pretending to spar. Well she steps in and I pretend to kick her and stuff and the next thing I know she has me on the ground and useing her body weight and her arms and was pinning me down by the neck. I swore it felt like I was going to die..but she finaly broke me and I began to break down. After that I felt disoriented and had a slighty hard time to breathe. She felt so bad after that...she couldn't stop crying. But now I feel a bit unsecure to see her or play fight with people. I bet she's still upset over it...I bet her mom chewed her out well when they left. I just feel like this whole ordeal was my fault...like I could have done something to stop her. But I couldn't...I forgive her and all but I feel like how Kana must have after Akito ratted her out...if my friend were to come by I might back away and or break down. I don't know if I can even speak to her on the phone im still shookin up over it. The look on her face when she had me down. It showed much seriousness and evilness...I pray to God that He heards this little sheep back into the flock.......**** that sounded corny...

[Ghaleon]

I would forgive her if it was me. As Jesus said "If you cannot forgive, I cannot forgive you"

[Jephtih Mullins]

I have forgiven her many a times but I don't think she can forgive herself...

[Ghaleon]

I don't know for sure, but i have been told that a person must forgive themselves, as well as others.

[Jephtih Mullins]

She's apologized but she says it's still not enough...I tell her that it was okay and she gose off on a rant saying how she's a basket case....I seriously wish that she'd get some psychiarty(sp?) help....

[uc pseudonym]

psychiatry.

You have my prayers as well. This sounds like the sort of event that can be healed only by the Lord, though don't think he can't work through other people.

[Jephtih Mullins]

Thanks

And thanks again...Im finding it hard to even look at her...even thou I haven't seen her since that, on Tuesday we have youth group and im pretty much scared to go...

[inkhana]

I pray that she is granted the help she needs, and that you will be given courage to face her again...and that the two of you can be friends again and put this behind you.

[Ghaleon]

Satan is really trying to make her feel guilty, I was the sameway(different reason though) when I kept feeling guilty and not forgiving myself for sins I had done in the past, but GOD helped me with that.

[Jephtih Mullins]

I hope she's forgiven herself by now...but as youth group day grows near...I fear that I can't handel seeing her or being in the same room...