How do you witness?
PostPosted: Sat Mar 15, 2008 7:57 pm
I'm horrible at it... I can't say I've ever really done it but I have such a hard time talking with people anyway unless I've become very comfortable around them (which for me, takes a looong time depending on their personality and how much they open up to me).
My social skills are not great by means. In fact they suck. I'm an extremely negative person (I don't try to be, my brain just works that way), I'm always looking at the donut hole. Very self conscious, low motivation and get pretty anxious and stressed when I'm at work and stuff or just depressed if I can't find something to occupy my mind. Plus I have spiritual issues of my own I'm always wrestling with.
So this is something thats really hard. Witnessing I mean. First I don't feel I'm much of a lamp or a Christian at all mostly because of the stuff I listed among others but thats all really not important.
But there's this guy at work I really care about (not in a gay way), real nice, one of the few I'm pretty comfortable around. To be honest I don't think I'm generally concerned about others salvation as I much as should be though at times I do think about it I just don't see what I can do about it and don't posses enough confidence to talk about it. But anyway, this guy and I were talking yesterday and he eventually told me he has cancer. Actually, I already knew, I've heard it circulated around work a while back but I never thought much of it. First lots of stuff go around work that aren't true. But hearing him say it I just felt so bad. The way he said it. I dunno. He's only 27 found out about it when he was 24... but ya we were talking about all that and I was just.. I dunno.. sad. I've never talked to anyone about stuff like that or someone so young with it. But I was just thinking about what that would be like and all. The good news it's in remission and after looking it up, the survival rate for this particular cancer after treatment is very high so hopefully it won't ever come back. But still I don't know if he's a Christian and I wish I could reach out to him somehow. I know he's always gonna live with the thought that it could come back (though its pretty unlikely after 5 years but anyway). The way he described it to me, it sounded like it had to be in stage III or IV when they found out which still has a high survival rate so thats good but anyway.
But ya it was a weird feeling. Like when I read the obituaries wondering what these people were like or how they died and if they're with God now. Anyway, I feel bad. I wish there was something I could do. I don't think people see Christ in me when I'm out and about. When I talk about anything Jesus related, I feel its coming out cheesy. I'm not a preacher type. How do you witness? I would feel so bad if something happened to him and I had done nothing. Someone telling me their dying and I just sit by and watch... I realize everyone is dying and everyone should be of equal concern but when someone only a few years older than you looks you in the eyes and says "I've... got cancer. -Blah blah- But, oh well..." Makes you think about it a little differently.
My social skills are not great by means. In fact they suck. I'm an extremely negative person (I don't try to be, my brain just works that way), I'm always looking at the donut hole. Very self conscious, low motivation and get pretty anxious and stressed when I'm at work and stuff or just depressed if I can't find something to occupy my mind. Plus I have spiritual issues of my own I'm always wrestling with.
So this is something thats really hard. Witnessing I mean. First I don't feel I'm much of a lamp or a Christian at all mostly because of the stuff I listed among others but thats all really not important.
But there's this guy at work I really care about (not in a gay way), real nice, one of the few I'm pretty comfortable around. To be honest I don't think I'm generally concerned about others salvation as I much as should be though at times I do think about it I just don't see what I can do about it and don't posses enough confidence to talk about it. But anyway, this guy and I were talking yesterday and he eventually told me he has cancer. Actually, I already knew, I've heard it circulated around work a while back but I never thought much of it. First lots of stuff go around work that aren't true. But hearing him say it I just felt so bad. The way he said it. I dunno. He's only 27 found out about it when he was 24... but ya we were talking about all that and I was just.. I dunno.. sad. I've never talked to anyone about stuff like that or someone so young with it. But I was just thinking about what that would be like and all. The good news it's in remission and after looking it up, the survival rate for this particular cancer after treatment is very high so hopefully it won't ever come back. But still I don't know if he's a Christian and I wish I could reach out to him somehow. I know he's always gonna live with the thought that it could come back (though its pretty unlikely after 5 years but anyway). The way he described it to me, it sounded like it had to be in stage III or IV when they found out which still has a high survival rate so thats good but anyway.
But ya it was a weird feeling. Like when I read the obituaries wondering what these people were like or how they died and if they're with God now. Anyway, I feel bad. I wish there was something I could do. I don't think people see Christ in me when I'm out and about. When I talk about anything Jesus related, I feel its coming out cheesy. I'm not a preacher type. How do you witness? I would feel so bad if something happened to him and I had done nothing. Someone telling me their dying and I just sit by and watch... I realize everyone is dying and everyone should be of equal concern but when someone only a few years older than you looks you in the eyes and says "I've... got cancer. -Blah blah- But, oh well..." Makes you think about it a little differently.