China drama
PostPosted: Mon Aug 13, 2007 10:41 pm
So I went to China for two months with a group of five students(including me) and a teacher. It was a great experience and everything, but a few weeks before we came home, the Lord put me through a trial in which a false idol(an anime/fantasy story I had been working on for a year) was taken away and I gained more awareness about some of the things that show up in anime. My soul was completely shattered and like that one verse in the Bible says, my flesh fought entirely against it. I was physically sick for a few days(headaches and stomachaches) and felt very, very broken. I thought I couldn't write anymore; I thought I couldn't like anime anymore.
In the midst of all this, we took a trip to a pagoda in the city(the place is kind of like a local park and there's a pagoda building) and we went to the pagoda building where there were all these places to bow to their gods and buddha. Not really a big deal(except I felt extra uncomfortable around the evil) but then, my really close friend went into one of these little places and bowed to the gods.
If an already shattered heart could shatter even more, that's exactly how I felt.
When she came out, one of our Chinese teachers asked, "What did you ask for?" and she replied, "I just told them that they're cool. ^_^"
I was terrified. She had no idea that she was praising evil.
That one time was bad enough, but then she went and bowed to buddha. I wanted so badly just to reach out and grab her arm and say, "Don't do this! You have no idea what it means!" But of course, I couldn't because she wouldn't understand.
And then I understood God and free will. It hurt me so much to see someone I care about bow before a false idol, yet I couldn't and wouldn't do a thing about because she's free to make her choices. I was just about ready to burst into tears as she was doing it.
I understood how God feels when people who don't know Him worship other gods, how He wants so badly for them to come to Him but doesn't force them because He loves them so much.
Anyway, I didn't let on that there was anything wrong for the rest of the day. We visited other places with these kinds of buildings where people can bow to buddha and my friend did the same thing and I got angry. I didn't do or say anything, except that I begged her to stop under my breath(of course she couldn't here me) and then something strange happened. At the next chance she got to bow to buddha, she didn't; and in every other buddhist place we visited after that, she didn't bow. I was so thankful, but now every time I see a buddha I want to destroy it. I *hate* buddha so much now. I don't care if he's "peaceful"! He's partly responsible for the fact that my friend is so lost and I can't even begin to have a conversation with her about Jesus because she'd only get confused! We visited this place in Beijing that had a 27 meter buddha(it was huge) and I just got so mad. I was like, "God, I wanna be there when You destroy that thing. Praise be the day when Jesus comes and vanquishes this evil!"
Gah! If I had a dollar for every time I heard my friend say, "Well, we don't know what's up there, so we might as well make everybody happy," I'd have a heckuva lot of dollars.
One day we were eating lunch(this was before all this happened) and we somehow got on the topic of gods. I was like, "Yeah, my mom did some research and told me that the Greek gods are real. Isn't that freaky?" And she was like, "WOW! COOL!" and I was like, "Yeah, they're like fallen angels or something like that." And then she was like, "Which god is your favorite?" And I was like, "The God of Love(I *totally* meant the one True God; maybe I should've said that at first)." And she said, "Oh, Aphrodite?"
**smacks forehead(only in my head)** "No, the one True God," I said. "What?" "You know, God with a capital 'G.'" "Ohhhhhhhh." Then I started telling her about how God is in everything in a light-hearted way, which was nice but I don't think it was that effective.
Another incident: The two of us were at one of our Chinese friend's house and they had this dragon sword thing with a pentagle on it and my friend goes, "Wow, cool! Look, it's a pentagle! That's so cool!" I was like, "Eh?" because I hadn't noticed it, and she was like, "Yeah, it's for protection!"
I showed her an episode of Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne because I remembered how Maron/Kaitou Jeanne fights for God and how God is actually *in* the show. We watched the first episode and when we got to the second half of it, the messed up theology came in as did the explanation that she's the reincarnation of Jeanne d' Arc. Well, I hoped she would notice how there's God in it, or something along those lines, but what does she notice? "Oh, that's cool. She's the reincarnation of Jeanne d' Arc."
Anyway, as for the trial, it's over and God's given me two stories that are anime/fantasy that honor Him. As for my friend, well, I'll just have to wait for the next opportunity to talk about God with her.
In the midst of all this, we took a trip to a pagoda in the city(the place is kind of like a local park and there's a pagoda building) and we went to the pagoda building where there were all these places to bow to their gods and buddha. Not really a big deal(except I felt extra uncomfortable around the evil) but then, my really close friend went into one of these little places and bowed to the gods.
If an already shattered heart could shatter even more, that's exactly how I felt.
When she came out, one of our Chinese teachers asked, "What did you ask for?" and she replied, "I just told them that they're cool. ^_^"
I was terrified. She had no idea that she was praising evil.
That one time was bad enough, but then she went and bowed to buddha. I wanted so badly just to reach out and grab her arm and say, "Don't do this! You have no idea what it means!" But of course, I couldn't because she wouldn't understand.
And then I understood God and free will. It hurt me so much to see someone I care about bow before a false idol, yet I couldn't and wouldn't do a thing about because she's free to make her choices. I was just about ready to burst into tears as she was doing it.
I understood how God feels when people who don't know Him worship other gods, how He wants so badly for them to come to Him but doesn't force them because He loves them so much.
Anyway, I didn't let on that there was anything wrong for the rest of the day. We visited other places with these kinds of buildings where people can bow to buddha and my friend did the same thing and I got angry. I didn't do or say anything, except that I begged her to stop under my breath(of course she couldn't here me) and then something strange happened. At the next chance she got to bow to buddha, she didn't; and in every other buddhist place we visited after that, she didn't bow. I was so thankful, but now every time I see a buddha I want to destroy it. I *hate* buddha so much now. I don't care if he's "peaceful"! He's partly responsible for the fact that my friend is so lost and I can't even begin to have a conversation with her about Jesus because she'd only get confused! We visited this place in Beijing that had a 27 meter buddha(it was huge) and I just got so mad. I was like, "God, I wanna be there when You destroy that thing. Praise be the day when Jesus comes and vanquishes this evil!"
Gah! If I had a dollar for every time I heard my friend say, "Well, we don't know what's up there, so we might as well make everybody happy," I'd have a heckuva lot of dollars.
One day we were eating lunch(this was before all this happened) and we somehow got on the topic of gods. I was like, "Yeah, my mom did some research and told me that the Greek gods are real. Isn't that freaky?" And she was like, "WOW! COOL!" and I was like, "Yeah, they're like fallen angels or something like that." And then she was like, "Which god is your favorite?" And I was like, "The God of Love(I *totally* meant the one True God; maybe I should've said that at first)." And she said, "Oh, Aphrodite?"
**smacks forehead(only in my head)** "No, the one True God," I said. "What?" "You know, God with a capital 'G.'" "Ohhhhhhhh." Then I started telling her about how God is in everything in a light-hearted way, which was nice but I don't think it was that effective.
Another incident: The two of us were at one of our Chinese friend's house and they had this dragon sword thing with a pentagle on it and my friend goes, "Wow, cool! Look, it's a pentagle! That's so cool!" I was like, "Eh?" because I hadn't noticed it, and she was like, "Yeah, it's for protection!"
I showed her an episode of Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne because I remembered how Maron/Kaitou Jeanne fights for God and how God is actually *in* the show. We watched the first episode and when we got to the second half of it, the messed up theology came in as did the explanation that she's the reincarnation of Jeanne d' Arc. Well, I hoped she would notice how there's God in it, or something along those lines, but what does she notice? "Oh, that's cool. She's the reincarnation of Jeanne d' Arc."
Anyway, as for the trial, it's over and God's given me two stories that are anime/fantasy that honor Him. As for my friend, well, I'll just have to wait for the next opportunity to talk about God with her.