Wrestled with God - Warning could have trigger

[Okami_Kunoichi]

Warning: this has not strong language but strong content. Please be aware. Thank you!



There I laid in tears and torment
Then I wrestled with God
I cried out to the Almighty
Screaming WHY in bitter rage
Curses ran from my tongue
like fire from a dragon's throat.

WHY I screamed to the Son of God
WHY was I beaten and raped
WHY was I hurt and scarred
WHY was I broken so many times
WHY was I not rescued

He simply said nothing in defense
Merely sat, and let me cry
Held me as I wept and raged
Said nothing as I beat my fist
against the Holy Ones chest.

Then he showed me
his scars too
battle wounds alike, him and I
his hands, his feet, his side
the emotional scars that no one can see
the ones of betrayal and hurt

Then I understood
he felt it too
every rape i endured
every beating
every lash both verbal and mental
He was there and he held me through
And simply said, I love you.

[Atria35]

Powerful stuff.

I'm so sorry you've had to go through what you have- this is a beautiful poem that gave me a glimpse into your spirituality and what God and Jesus mean to you. It's amazing, and deserves to go on Church boards everywhere, IMHO.